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-Esra: Ask Ayaz if he knows Akif!

-Me: MDRRR!

-Esra: Ciddiyim Rüya! (I'm serious Rüya!)

- Me: I don't talk to him anymore, it's dead! I don't even want to see his face!

-Esra: You have to. Ok Ayaz went a bit strong, but you don't know his past. Surely there is a reason behind all this.

-Me: Umrumda bile degil Esra, ben artik onunla muhattap olmak istemiyorum! (I don't give a fuck Esra, I don't want to face him anymore!)

-Esra: You're drunk. Vasy please do it for me, meraktan çatlarim! (I'm going to die of curiosity!)

-Me no.

-Esra: Well you will never know the answer to your question then! Lower your pride and go ask him please!

-Me: I said no, did you think I was going to talk to him after everything he said to me this morning?

-Esra: Of it's good, my brother is calling me. We catch up later. And think again.

-Me: I said no, and abine selam söyle. (and say hello to your brother.)

We hang up and I think about what she said to me. No, but it's dead, I wouldn't ask him. The longer I stay away from him, the better I am.

Hilal comes to join me.

-H: He told me why you didn't bring the tea.

Me: What did you say?

-H: I said you were talking to your boyfriend on the phone. He was disgusted lol.

I'll spare you until the evening, with Hilal we only watched movies. It did me good to spend time with her, it allowed me to forget the stories I had these last hours.

But once in the evening, back to reality. At the table, there was everyone, including Ayaz and Okan. Pff me who didn't want to see them and especially Ayaz, well it's missed.

-Okan: Rüya can I have a second plate?

Why me ? He deserves a slap, I swear. I serve him and when giving the plate, he lightly touches my hands. I glare at him and leave quickly... But...

-Okan: And coke please!

I had a hard time keeping my nerves around everyone. I serve my lips (something I do all the time when I get angry), and go serve him.

-Ayaz: Okan you have hands, you can help yourself to drink huh!

Am I looking at him, am I dreaming or is he against Okan?

-Sema: Ayaz oglum (my son), let her do her job.

-Ayaz: It's not her job Anne (mom), as far as I know she hasn't signed a contract. She does it just to help her parents.

-Sema: That's his parents' job then. Do you want me to call his mother?

-Me: No it's fine, I will.

I'm going to take the bottle of coke, which was at the end of the table, and approach Okan to serve it. But when it's time to take his drink, Ayaz gets up and takes the bottle from my hands. He then serves Okan in full view of everyone. I was seriously shocked!!!

-Ayaz: If she helps her parents, I also have the right to help the waitresses. Everyone can help!

And he leaves. His mother looks at me really askance. I was uncomfortable, without waiting another second, I go into the kitchen.

-Hilal: I saw what happened. I'm shocked at Ayaz's behavior.

I don't answer, I was still surprised. If I understand correctly, he helped me?

-Hilal: In my opinion, it is his way of being forgiven.

-Me: Ayaz apologize? Impossible !

-H: Maybe he doesn't say it, but he proved it. It's the actions that count.

I was lost there. Basically he defended me in front of everyone, and especially against Okan. But does that mean he believes me... that there's nothing between Okan and me?

An hour passes, after putting everything away, we were going to go down to our room with Hilal, but I stop her.

-Me: Hilal sen git, ben sonra gelirim. (Hilal leaves, I'll come later.)

-Hilal, with a little smile: Are you going to see Ayaz?

- Me: Get down I told you!

She leaves with a smile, I wanted to kill her. Anyway, I'm going up. Yes, I'm going to see Ayaz. I absolutely had to talk to him. I knock on his door, but he doesn't open it. I knock back and he opens it for me a minute later.

-Ayaz: Okan I told you...

He stops talking when he sees me. He was a little surprised, I knew it from his looks.

-Ayaz: Ne istiyon? ( What do you want?)

-Me: Uh.. I.. wanted to ask you why you did that?

-A: What did I do?

-Me: What happened at the table.

-A: I did my duty, that's all, in my place everyone would do it.

-Me: Hayir, herkes yapmazdi. (Not, not everyone would.)

He stops talking and keeps looking at me. Embarrassed, I lower my gaze.

- Me: does that mean that you believe that there is nothing between Okan and me?

-A: I never said that. But I saw how he looked at you at the table and how he got along with you. I know my cousin, he likes to play..

-Me: If you know your cousin, why didn't you believe me at first then? Why were you upset?

-A: Seni ilgilendirmez. ( It's none of your business.)

-Me: Pfft.

He was going to close his door but I put my hand down.

-Me: Wait.

-A: What else?

-Me: Do you know Akif?

Yes, I couldn't keep my word. I didn't want to talk about it anymore, or ask this question, but I couldn't help it.

-A: Vasy gets out.

-Me: Ayaz please, it's just a quick question. Tell me yes or no.

-A: Leave!

-Me no ! Answer my question !

-A: Just because I defended you down there, you've already gained confidence. Go away !

-Me: Ayaz stp stp stp, it's a matter of life or death there! Already I was not supposed to come and talk to you because of this morning, and there I beg you, but anything, me. Vasy I lowered my pride to have the answer to this question! Please answer me.

-A: You're crazy, I swear.

-Me: Come on, do you know him or not?

-A: On one condition.

-What me ?

-A: I'm going to ask you something, and you're going to accept.

- Me: it depends what it is.

-A: Tkt is something easy.

-Me: Alright. So you know Akif?

-A: No.

-Me no ? Gerçekten tanimiyormusun? (You really don't know him?)

-A: I know someone called Akif, is that okay?

-Me: How will I know that you're not lying?

-A: Ben asla yalan söylemem, yalanlardan nefret ederim. (I never lie, I hate lies.)

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