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-Akif: Who are his parents?

Me: Why do you want to know?

-Akif: Said!

-Me: It's Hasan and Sema.

He suddenly opens his eyes wide and lets go of my arm. He doesn't move, doesn't even speak. Why was he so shocked?

-Me: Akif?

-Him : ..

-Me: Akif n'oldu? (Akif what is it?)

-Him: Uh.. nothing nothing.

Me: Are you sure?

- Him: Yes yes, you wanted us to spend time together, huh? Vasy come.

He holds my arm and we go I don't know where.

-Me: But you didn't have things to do?

-Him: It's not more important than you.

- Me: Really? I thought you wanted to take a break.

-Him: Forget it, I wasn't myself.

-Me: How were you not yourself? You told me straight in my eyes Akif! You really meant it, and now you...

-Him: Rüya sus. Yine çok konusmaya basladin. Pismanim tamam mi? Hiç söylemem gerikirdi. (Rüya shut up. Again you talk too much. I'm sorry ok? I never should have said it.)

Me: I don't understand you.

-Him: There's nothing to understand. I'm with you and I want to be with you, that's the most important thing.

-Me: Yes, but...

- Him: Stop! Let's finish with this subject, I want to spend an afternoon with you, can I?

I nod my head yes, and we get into his car. I was lost, two minutes ago he wanted us to end our relationship, and now he manages as if he didn't tell me anything. And anyway.. why was he surprised when I mentioned Ayaz? Does that mean he knows him? And Ayaz knows him? Too many questions in mind, zero answers!

We arrive at the shopping center of the city, we were walking normally but I didn't want to buy anything... or rather I didn't have the means to please myself. With my sister we just took the necessary, no need to waste money on scraps of fabric..

Unlike me, Akif took whatever he liked. He was smiling, that was the main thing. Despite what he told me earlier, I was happy with him.

Hours pass, we grab something to drink and we land in a park.

-Me: Akif.

-Him: Yeah.

Me: Can I ask you a question?

- Him: Vasy.

-Me: Beni seviyormusun? ( You love Me?)

-Him: Yeah.

-Me: It's not very convincing..

- Him: I love you, is it good?

-Me: Yalan söylemene gerek yok, yalanlardan nefret ederim biliyorsun! (No need to lie, I hate lies you know that!)

-Him: I know, that's why I'm telling the truth.

- Me: Well tell me the truth then.

- Him: On what?

I stand in front of him and look into his eyes.

-Me: Ayaz'i taniyormusun? (Do you know Ayaz?)

- Him, stuttering: Ner..den .. taniyacam? (Where am I.. going to know him?)

-Me: Why aren't you comfortable then?

- Him: Are you finished with your questions?

-Me: I have the right to ask you questions, I have doubts.

- Him: Sacmaliyorsun. ( You're saying nonsense.)

-Me: Ayaz deyince niye tedirgin oluyon ozaman? (Why are you embarrassed when I say Ayaz then?)

- Him: çünkü ondan hoslanmadim. Telefondayken sana küfür etti, sana iyi davranmiyor ozaman. Kimse benim sevgilimi üzemez! (Because I don't like him. He swore at you when we were on the phone, so he abuses you. Nobody can hurt my girl!)

-Me: And why do you want to continue being with me when you wanted to take a break?

-Him: I was upset, it came out like that, I really didn't think so.

- Me: Hmm..

I no longer knew what to say. Is he telling the truth? I wanted to believe it, but something was stopping me.

- Him: Rüya, ben seninle mutluyum çünkü seni seviyorum. Tek gerçek drunk. Bana inaniyorsun demi? (Rüya, I'm happy with you because I love you. That's the only truth. You believe me huh?)

-Me: Inanmak istiyorum. (I want to believe you.)

- Him: Ozaman gel buraya. (Come here then.)

He opens his arms to me and I snuggle into him. I finally had a smile on my lips! I'm stupid too, I take my head for nothing. I love him, he loves me, we're together.. what could be better?