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-Me: No, I didn't say, but even if he thinks I'm single, he has no right to approach me by force.

-H: But there's one thing I don't understand, why Ayaz got angry?

-Me: I don't know.. you're right, I didn't ask myself this question.

-H: And why do you absolutely want to tell him the truth? Don't you hate him? You don't care what he thinks then.

She scores another point. I hate him but I don't know why, I don't want him to have a bad image of me.

-Me: He must know the truth Hilal, I don't want him to think I'm an easy girl.

-H: Niye? ( Why?)

-Me: Bah.. yalanlara karsiyim biliyorsun. (Bah.. I'm against lies you know that.)

-H: Tamamda, niye Ayazi düsünüyorsun? (Okay but, why are you thinking of Ayaz?)

-Me: Düsündügüm felan yok, saçmalama! (But I don't think of him, stop saying nonsense!)

-H: Öyle olsun.. (If you say so..)

- Me: You still talk too much, you have to prepare the table upstairs!

She smiles at me and we go upstairs. We say hello to everyone and start serving. There was no Ayaz at the table, I was disgusted. While they are eating, we are also going to eat in the kitchen, and I notice my internship file. I had put it here before going to Okan's room. Pff asshole!

I go down to my room to put this file in my bag, and go back upstairs. But I saw Ayaz come outside. I also go outside and join him.

-Me: Ayaz!

-Him : ..

-Me: Ayaz we have to talk!

- Him, turning towards me: What did I tell you last night?

-Me: I don't care what you said, but listen to me first.

-Lui: Me too, I don't care what you say, go explain to your boyfriend!

-Me: Huh? What's the connection with him?

- Him: MDRR, bide utanmadan soruyorsun. Kizlara gerçekten güvenilmez. (MDRR, you ask me for more without being ashamed. You really shouldn't trust girls.)

-Me: But what do you have with the girls? I just want to explain to you last night. Okan forced me to stay with him in his room, I wanted to leave but he held me by force. There's nothing between him and me!

- Him: Okay.

-Me: Okay?

- Him: What did you expect? Did you think I was going to believe you?

-Me: But why don't you believe me?

-Him: I believe what I saw, that's all!

-Me: Ama yanlis anladin, sevgilim oldugu halde ben nasil Okan'la flörtlesirim? Mantikli düsün. (But that's not true, how do you want me to flirt with Okan when I have a boyfriend? Be logical.)

-Him: Just because you have a boyfriend doesn't mean you won't go elsewhere.

- Me: You don't know me, I'm not a person like that, I'm faithful to me.

- Him: Yeah yeah, admit that you want Okan just for his money!

-What me ??

-Him: You're poor, you want to make Okan fall in love with you and then steal all his money, huh? Vasy confess!

It was too much, I slap him! He really thinks I'm a materialist?!

-Me: Yeter! Gerçekten böyle biri oldugumu mu düsünüyorsun? (Enough! Do you really think I'm a person like that?)

I had tears in my eyes again, as he looks at me like he wants to kill me.

-Me: You know what? Compared to last night, you think what you want! I don't have to explain the situation to you.. but.. to say that I am a materialist, that I play with people's feelings, that I fly in the air, I never accept that! You're telling me that I'm not happy with my life, that I don't like the life my parents gave me. I don't care about money, all that matters is family! Bugüne kadar babam ve annem bizi mutlu edebilmek için gece gündüz çalistilar! Bizim için kendilerini fedakar ettiler. Niye? Sirf kardesim ve ben okuyalim diye. Paranin gözü batsin, para mutlu etmez. Benim gözüm yükseklerde degil. Bir daha sakin, sakin böyle bisey deme! Ben hayatimi böyle kabul ettim ve gayet memnunum !! (Until today Today my parents worked day and night to make us happy! They sacrificed themselves for us. Why ? Just so we can study with my sister. I don't give a fuck about money, money is not happiness. I don't look up. Next time, don't say such a thing to me! I accepted my life as it is, and I'm delighted!!)

I go home without waiting for an answer from him, and go down to my room. I've been crying since yesterday, I'm fed up. I had never cried like that in my life in just two days. I hate him, Ayaz I hate you!! Gerizekali! (Asshole!)

I hear someone coming, thinking it's my sister..

-Me: Hilal git, yalniz kalmak istiyorum. (Hilal leaves, I want to be alone.)

The footsteps approach, someone lands next to me and strokes my hair.

- Me, getting up: Hilal I told you that..

As soon as I see her, I don't even finish my sentence. You wonder who is it?! Mdrr

-Me: Nisa, have you finished your lunch? Go upstairs.

-Nisa: Why have you been crying since yesterday?

-Me: Bosver. ( Forget.)

-Nisa: Abim yüzünden half? (It's because of my brother huh?)

-Me : ...

-N: You know, my brother is really nice. It's just that you don't know him.

-Me: I don't want to know him anyway.

-N: He's very nice, it's just that you're a girl, that's why he's hard on you.

-Me: What does it have to do with me being a girl?

-N: I don't know, but every time I ask him why he doesn't have a girlfriend, he tells me “Never trust girls, especially beautiful girls”.

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