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Ethan turns his face at me, and my stomach began to feel the knot, we were both high and I’m scared of this, I’m losing control of my body, “What is it, Ethan?” I act cool.

“You said you like books, do you want to go to my room?”

“I… It’s getting late and I have work tomorrow.”

“Skip it, I will pay you.”

“I do not need your money, Ethan.”

“I’m sorry, how about I send you tomorrow?”

“Where are your parents.” I’m still in doubts.

“They haven’t set foot here in 10 years. Let’s go. You can wear my shirt and let me take care of this.”

He kisses my left hand, no one cared about me like this before. His eyes, they look sad and lonely. “Ethan…”

“Hmm?”

“You have to stop being nice to me.” I pull away from my hand. “I mean, we just met, and I know I can be too friendly but that’s it.”

“Let’s go down, take a bath and we’ll talk.” He gets up and offers his hand.

I followed his words, I am not able to go back like this, we finished it all in no time. We giggle around trying to controls ourselves. I could have to get lost in this house, then we enter his room, worth the risk coming here, his rooms reminds on old “British” films, it stays the same even after a decade.

“Here you go, the bathroom is on the left side. I’ll go make some tea.”

I take my time going through his books, I would love to read it if I was given the chance. I had no idea that he had all of this stuff. There's less chance for me to able to see this in my house. Our house fills with unpaid bills, dad loses his job a few months ago and I have to support them through the rest of the years. I am no complaining about what happened but it was clear that my parents will still be dependant on me. Bad fortune will happen and we will not have control over it. It's either you suck it up or just playing along with gods plan. God knows better but and for God will we will be spared from the bad luck.

"Leah. What are you doing?" He came into the room with half-dressed. Like he's going to the bathroom but that's not possible.

"You want to use it first? I can stay here first." I offered. I am not intrigued by him at all. What if he makes the first move. Will he regret it, I am not as pretty as his ex. I suppose that will do. He's doesn't see me that way.

"No. I was thinking. What if we shower together. You know. I have a bathtub and the shower spray. It's separated." He walks inside.

Am I supposed to say yes and follow him? I'm confused but this is not my first time. Why am I acting awkward, he's a gentleman and if he said he will share. That's all it is. I take out my towel. I am naked. I must admit it. I and he will never be meant to be together. He's just one of the guys that I met.

He prepares the bath. I can smell there nice aroma, vanilla scent with Apple Fuji. One of my favourite. How could he know that? I didn't ask further. He looks away and I went inside. It is perfect. My whole body feels cleansed. "Thank you… for this. I need this."

"Something bothering you? You can tell me, Leah." He looks at me. His eyes changed. He looks kinder.

"It's just. You look sad all the time. Do you mind if I ask questions?" I look at him. Asking for his permissions to invade his personal life. It's not easy even for me.

He slid his leg inside and we're touching about bare skins.

I am not comfortable but he seems to like it. "So… Why are you alone?" My hands play with the water, our hand touch. I stopped breathing, Ethan slowly made his way onto my arm but he stops. I’m disappointed.

"They have business all over the city in London, and a nanny raised me, I will be with them where there’s the event. I moved a lot, from one country to another. Well, I have nothing against them but since dad fucked up. I have nowhere to turn to.”

I have nothing to say to him, I made a slight move and sits in front of him. “You can tell me, Ethan. I may not know much but I will be here for you.” I could feel that his hands holding my waist. I couldn’t make any moves. My heart is pounding, with Ethan hugging me from behind, resting his chin on my shoulder. I want to stay like this, just a little longer. “No matter how hard it is, please let me know.” I tighten his embrace, he started to kiss my neck. I squirm, holding myself. “Ethan…”

“[Inhales] Yes… Leah. You. Smell like me. Do you like it?”

Ethan continues to kiss my ear and bite it. “Hngh… that, stop…You only answer one questions.”

“Is it really important to you? To know about my whole life?”

I can feel that I crossed the line, I keep on forgetting. “No… You don’t have to. I better go first.” I let go of his hands, I was used to hides my expressions. I will not cry in front of anyone again. I wish this never happen. I quickly wear what he gave me and sits down. I am wide awake, it’s almost half-past three, there’s no way I could go back till the next morning. I texted Sheila and my roommate. just to make sure that they will not think that I die. I made a mistake.

“Leah…” He sits in front of me looking guilty.

I’m not giving him the attention, I turn around. “I have an early start tomorrow. Let’s go to sleep.” I force a smile and lay my head on his pillow. This feeling, it was too late for me to pretend that I do not have one. His life is filled with promises and his future is set to sail whenever he’s ready. I wish to fall asleep faster and let these pains go away.

He switch off lights and lay down next to me, I could feel that his breath on my neck. I want to run away.

“I’m sorry.” He whispered slowly.

“I am sorry too.” It’s my turn to face him, it is incredible to feel so much for someone it made you forget about yourself. I feel like a little child whom her life just began. It will be miracles for me to even get my wish come true. I wished it will be him. To stay with me forever. “You should get some sleep.” I avoided his lips when he pushes his head forward. It felt wrong for me to beg for love from Ethan.

“Leah… Can I?” He’s waiting for an answer.

I put my guard down, I can no longer think, I need to feel his touch again. our lips met and he kisses me for a long time, he brings his lips down to my neck. We were in a rush, clothes everywhere, my focus is only on him. “Ethan…Ha. Ha. Hmm, ple.,” he picks me up, I sit on top of him.

He left mark on me, almost in every part of my body responds to his touch. It’s dark and all I could feel is his touch, he’s not rushing to do it. It is as if we are making love. It is more intense.

“Your smell… Leah. It’s tempting.” He continues to kiss me. “It’s sweet and making me goes wild. Is this your plan, to seduce me?” Ethan continues.

“Wha… I smell like you. Ethan. Hmm. ah! No, please” He put his hand on my hips and fondle it, then proceed to make his way down to my sensitive spots. I forget it how it feels like to be aroused like this, it feels like I am virgin, he’s unstoppable. Both of us are panting, trying to catch our breaths. “You should… slow down. I’m going to. Please.” I beg.

“I try… ha… ha… it’s just that [inhales] your killing me now. Leah.” He exhales, puts his hands on my face while caressing it.

My breath hitched and put his hands on my face. I want this. I want him, it feels crazy but at this moment I am certain that both of us knows. Where this going to and he is not showing any sign on backing out. I grip his thigh hard when he puts his finger inside me. I moan and I could feel that my whole body is burning and wet. He’s teasing me, that irritates me, I needed more. “More, Ethan. Please.” I am not hesitating, crash my lips inside and gives it a swirl causing Ethan to let out groans with his deep voice. I will not stop.

He lost controls of himself when I do that and proceed to fuck me harder with his fingers. “Don’t tell me to stop. If I do this, we will be up all night. Baby.” He smirks and continues to kiss my nape and suck it. Few more strokes from him, I am impatient and pulls his fingers deeper and I came. “Haa… haa… That is. Hm.. fuck, Ethan.” I’m loss at worst, and this feels a thousand times better when he did it, and this is my first-time ejaculating while being played on. I did not even do it to me.

“I know… me too, ha… ha… Leah. I don’t even know why. Your scent is getting stronger. I want to do it. Would you let me?” His voice is deeper and desperate. “I want you. Help me please.” He puts my hands on his dick.

I could feel his size, I am not ready to be going down and about with him. I know, I will crave for more if this is over. He said that my smell is affecting him but he does the same. We are no longer acting sane, I know I lost count how many time I came. I stroke it gently and work my way out when Ethan starts to moans, I want to see his face. Is he feeling the pleasure as I am? My breath is getting heavier, I am sweating. I have never try to give fellatio before but I have watched it how it is done, and I can do it. I assume. When I try to put it in, only the tips fill my mouth, it hurts my jaw but I try not hurting him with my teeth. “Is.. this right?” I looked up to see his face, it is bleak, the room was dark.

“Go. deeper. Leah. you did great, baby.” He replies short breaths.

He calls me baby, insecurities hit me, all of them did the same when we are together and then they left. I was temporary. Short term sexual partners. I tried to put that thought away and continues tries to match his pace. He holds the back of my hair but still gives me time to adjust my mouth on his hard-on. I can taste his pre-cum. I get used to his pace now but my jaw feels pain. I still want to make him feels good.

“There, baby. Fuck, deeper.” Ethan begs.

He’s close, my tears flow out, but I feel good. I keep on going deeper and gags out a few times trying to fit him in my mouth and works my hands making sure that he’s still up to it. I feel empowered by being able to control his reactions on me. I want to do better. I open my mouth and give one last thrust---- his juice overflows from my mouth, I didn’t know what to do. I swallowed what I have left. The taste is bitter but I am not disgusted by it. Ethan grab my shoulders, making me lay on top of him. He’s out of breath and I could feel that his body become hot, sweats. I have to stop. She could’ve got hurt --------- “

“You. Leah.”