Chapter 6

I HAVEN'T HAD A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP SINCE I CAME down on the ground, hell like I ever but just as I fall asleep, Jaspers loud moan sounded worse than ever. I jolted out my little tent running to the drop ship where Jasper was at. "Stop it! You're killing him." I shout over Jaspers moan. She was practically carving Jaspers wound.

   "She's trying to save his life." Finn defended. From behind, Octavia and Bellamy comes through.

   "She cant help him. He's already dead."  I cant help but hit Bellamy in the face. Wells stood up pushing me back as Bellamy holds his face.

"Isla!" Octavia screamed, holding her brother.

   "This is all your fault! If you didn't take everyones wristbands off, we could save Jasper let the Ark know we need help." I wanted to scream that he killed chancellor Jaha but something inside of me forced me not to.

Clarke gave a worryingly look at Jasper. "We didn't drag him through miles of woods just to let him die."  Wells still held me away from Bellamy but I calmed down.

   "Kid's a goner." Bellamy shot an eye at me, "If you can't see that, you're deluded." His eye didn't leave mine almost as if he's calling me deluded. He would not be saying that if Octavia was in Jaspers position. Hell, I saved her.

  "Well, I'll keep that in mind when you're the one in need to save." I angrily grit my teeth, sitting next to Jasper.

Bellamy narrowed his eyes pointing at him trying to prove a point. "Take a look at him. He's a lost cause." I disgustingly look at him by his choice of words. Clarke turns to Octavia, trying to make people understand that Jasper can be saved.

   "Octavia, I've spent my whole life watching my mother heal people. If I say there's hope, there's hope." I relaxed a bit, knowing that Clarke has hope. I brush Jaspers long hair giving him more hope.

   "This isn't about hope, it's about guts. You don't have the guts to make the hard choices. I do. He's been like this for three days. If he's not better by tomorrow, I'll kill him myself." I snapped my head to him pissed that he just threatened one of my best friend in front of me. 

      "You have to get through me to kill him." I challenged to him. His large mouth didn't have anything left to say so he left.

I continued to stroke his hair, but once Bellamy told Octavia to come she refused, I was pleased that she didn't follow her footstep brother. She gave me back a warm smile, we're both realised that we need to stick together to survive.

   "Power-hungry, self-serving jackass. He doesn't care about anyone but himself." Finally Monty said it, I cant be the only one who sees that. He turns his head to Octavia. "No offense." I chuckled softly before looking back at Jasper.

   "Yeah. Bellamy is all that. But he also happens to be right." I scoff at Finn in disbelief. He's got to be kidding.

      "That could've been you." I raised my voice at him. "But instead Jasper went first. So you should be the last person to agree on what that jackass says." I kissed Jasper on the head before leaving the drop ship, I need to clear my head before I go insane.

After taking a walk down outside camp, I've noticed my leg started to heal better than it did before, a muffled sound came down further in the forest. It could be Grounders, but do Grounders speak english? I grab my pocket knife that I kind of made in camp out ready to fight despite my leg and haven't been taught to fight. The closer I walked the more I recognised that voice, the one I despise the most.

I was right. He was also with Charlotte? "Great," Everyone shift their attention to me. "Just what I needed." I annoyingly huff to Bellamy. I welcomingly greet Charlotte and Atom whom I don't have any  problem with.

     "Nice to see you to sweetheart." He fake smiles at me, the look on Atom face is how i feel right now - disgusted. "Why aren't you with your boyfriend?" Boyfriend? I gave him a conflicted look. "Jasper." Oh, me and Jasper could never.

      "None of your business." I brushed pass him to continue my walking journey. "Now if you'll excuse-" A loud bellow came from the distance, causing the birds to hawk. Panic rushed when a peculiar colour of smoke rushes down to us.

    "Run." I feared struggling to run. Bellamy takes ahold of Charlotte and me, at first I didn't want his help but he unwillingly took me.

     "Come on! There are caves this way." He informed, as we climb up. The smoke came closer as it engulfed Atom.

       "Atom!" I called, as I heard his scream. The fog is acidic. Bellamy pushes me inside the cave before it can get to me. I cough loudly.

   "Isla.." Bellamy catches my gaze holding me, "You alright?" My lips trembled, but I nod. I check Charlotte worried in the corner, I gave Bellamy one last look before leaving his arm to go to Charlotte. 

  "Hey, looks like we're all going to be stuck here for a little long. Get some rest." I tug my bottom lip as I stroke Charlottes hair. She listened to me as she laid on my shoulder resting her eyes, Bellamy sat closer in front of me. "Thank you." I weakly say to Bellamy.

  "No, thank you." I furrowed my eyebrows. "For saving Octavia, she told me." I shrug my shoulders telling him it was nothing.

  "I still haven't forgiven what you said about Jasper." I whispered softly tired to even speak because I've barely slept since I got into Earth.

   "Of course." He deeply chuckled. My eyelids felt heavier but I still heard his deep husk of voice. "Sleep tight, sweetheart."

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A groan came from beside me, I saw Bellamy sleeping on the floor without anything. He isn't a total jackass, he did save me after all. But why does he have be a jerk for a decent looking guy?

I was caught off guard by a loud scream came from Charlotte, like she's having a bad dream again. "Hey Charlotte, wake up." She continues to scream grabbing Bellamy's attention. 

    "I'm sorry." Charlotte pants, apologising for waking us both.

Bellamy shifts closer to Charlotte, "What are you scared of?" He asks, but I simply shake my head at him suggesting its not the right time to talk. "You know what? It doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is what you do about it." He continues as I rub Charlottes back.

   "But... I'm asleep."

Bellamy crooks a smile, shrugging. "Fears are fears. Slay your demons when you're awake, they won't be there to get you when you sleep." Bellamy strikes to be a caring person behind his obnoxious self, I take that into consideration.

   Charlotte frowns still confused by the metaphor. "Yeah, but... How?"       

His eyes connected to mine. "You can't afford to be weak. Down here, weakness is death, fear is death." He turns back to Charlotte. "Let me see that knife I gave you." I startled by the fact he gave her a knife.

   "Whoa. You gave her a knife?" I stop her from getting it. Bellamy carelessly shrugs his shoulder taking the knife out of Charlotte.

   He firmly gripped onto the knife to Charlotte. "Now, when you feel afraid, you hold tight to that knife and you say, 'screw you. I'm not afraid.'" He hands back the knife as Charlotte grips onto the knife with both hands. I was apprehensive because she's just a kid but I still played along.

   "Screw you. I'm not afraid." She proudly says.

Bellamy pats her leg, standing up. "Slay your demons, kid. Then you'll be able to sleep." Charlotte lays back down falling back to sleep with a smile on her face. I was astonished by Bellamy like he was a completely different person.

   "What happened to asshole who was willing to kill Jasper?" I raise an eyebrow at him, as he sits beside me.

   "Maybe, if you'd take the time to know me you wouldn't think I'm an ass." He lowers his voice down to shoulders, sending shivers down my spine. I bit the inside of my cheeks willing to listen to him.

   "Go on." He opened his eyes. "Tell me who's the real Bellamy Blake." I saw the smirk on his face rise, he shift closer to me with his legs crossed amused by this.

   "Just a brother who'd do anything to save his sister." He said examining my face, the way he said that sounded hurt like he just remembered a painful memory. Properly killing Jaha.

   "I understand." My first instinct was to hold his hand, he was surprised so I let go. "Octavia will understand, and properly wanted you to kill Jaha anyways." His head shot up to mine when I mentioned Jaha.

  "It's not that." His voice was low and tender. "It's my fault my mother got floated." A pain in my chest came hitting me. This time I held his hand rubbing my thumb against his hand as we lose ourself in our eyes.

   "I'm sure it wasn't." My voice cracks.

Bellamy cleared his throat alarming me slightly. Our hands disconnected. "What about you? Who is Isla Kane?" I took a deep breath focusing on myself. Who am I?

"A nobody." I shrug.

   "C'mon, you seem like a spontaneous girl."  He cheeks. "I'm sure you're much more than a nobody." His faint smile was visible. Who knew Bellamy could make me feel like something. "And I'm sorry your father floated your mother." He remembered what I said, even though I was a jerk at the time? To be fair, he was a dick first.

   "Don't be." I lay down near the rocks. "Now lets rest for the morning." I felt eyes on me and I couldn't help but feel relaxed me and Bellamy are now on the same page.