Chapter 5

I am just watering the plants when I heard someone is coming.

"Do you like flowers?"

I already know who it was base on his voice. My heart starts beating fast, I look at him. "I- I don't have a-anything to do, S-señor." I look down to his black shirt.

"What do you usually do then?"

Now that he asked I realized that I don't have any hobby than cleaning, cooking and drawing back when I still lives at my parents house. They never contact me after I move here so I don't have any news about them now.

"Following my p-parents a-around, Señor."

I move to water other plants and he followed me. "Can I ask, how they treat you before?" I paused and swallowed hard. It's too hard for me. I felt my hands trembling and I feel like he notice it.

"It's okay if you don't want to, like what I said I'm not forcing you if you don't want."

"Y-your not m-mad?"

I look at his t-shirt. I can't look into his dark eyes. "I will never be mad at you. Always remember that and you're safe with me. I won't let anyone hurt you again. Hmm?" He hold my hand where I am holding the hose.

Because he startled me by his touch I drop the hose and his short got wet same as his feet. I quickly grab it and turn off. "I'm sorry, S-señor." It was like a whisper.

"It's okay. I'll jus change." I nodded without looking again.

I don't have the courage to look at him. I feel like every time I'm looking my heart will explode and there's this new feeling to me when he's around. I have male classmates before but I never talk to them because I might upset them.

I'm scared to be hurt by men. That's why I'm still distance to Señor Matthew. 

I go back inside after water all the plants outside. I go straight to the kitchen to start cooking. I saw Nana with other helpers cleaning the mansion so I'll just cook. The mansion is too big to be done in just an hour.

I don't know what to cook so I decided to find Señor and ask him for lunch. I saw intercom in this house but I don't know how to use it.

First, I search the first floor and I didn't saw Señor. I go straight upstairs and into his room.

This is the first time I'll be seeing his room. I knock first waiting for his response if he's here or not.

"Señor? Are you inside?" I said with knock.

On my second knock the door open and it showed Señor Matthew. "S-señor," I start.

He opens the door widely so I saw his king size black bed. I look back on him again. "I'm s-sorry if I interrupt something," I said that because I heard voice in his laptop.

"It's fine, do you need anything?

"I'll be cooking, I.. I just want to ask what do you l-like for lunch."

My eyes went to his lips when he bite it but I felt my cheeks heated so I look down again. "What do you want?" He asked back.

"Huh?" I didn't get him.

"What's your favorite food?"

A simple question yet I don't have answer. I never think of myself all of my life so deciding my favorite food didn't ever cross my mind.

"A-anything." I just answered. I know he said that he will never hurt and be mad at me but I still need to be careful. "Do you like sinigang na hipon?"

(Sinigang na hipon is a filipino dish, hipon means shrimp in english.)

I never had shrimp in my life. "Anything will do, Señor. D-do you want sinigang?"

"Is it okay? Do you eat that?" I nodded.

I saw him smile. "Then sinigang na hipon for lunch."

"Okay, sorry again."

I didn't want for him to reponse. I turn around and go back to the kitchen to check the ingredients thankly everything I need is here.

Nana Maria was shock to see me cooking. "I'm sorry, Nana. I forgot to inform you about my cooking for lunch."

She come closer and taste my sinigang na hipon. Nana looks amuse. "Is it good or bad?" I'm scared at what she will say. "It's good, hija. Delicious actually. You're really good at cooking ha." She pat my shoulder.

I smiled at her. I never got compliment from my cooking before. "T-thank you, Nana."

Ella and Cris also taste it when they saw me and they both say that it's delicious. They are two other helpers of the house. I can somehow communitate with them because they are both friendly and talkative.

"You cook so good. I never taste sinigang na hipon this good in my entire life." Cris said and Ella followed. "Yes! You can marry someone now. Lorrain the wife material. Good in cooking, cleaning, kind and lastly beautiful."

I felt shy with all there good words for me. "I-i'm not beautiful." I said.

My classmates use to tell me I'm beautiful but I never agree with them. If they can see the real me they won't say I'm beautiful. With all this scars and memories that is hunting me. Makes me scared with everything, I don't think so. Nothing is beautiful when it comes to me.

"Do you have boyfriend? He'll be lucky to have you." It was Ella.

"I'm hungry."

Señor's thunder like voice cut us all. We start preparing the table. "Take a seat and join me, Lorraine."

This is not new to us. I saw Ella and Cris smirk at me like they there's something I should be happy with Señor's voice.

I was about to say no when he talk again that makes me don't speechless. "Don't say no to me. Take a sit now." I have no choice but to sit down and eat with him.