Chapter 5 - DEAL

Chapter 5

DEAL

"Condolence," that's the new normal I need to be used to, everyone is mourning because of his death. I am still asking myself why we have to get through this, what's the purpose. Why am I being hurt like this again. From my spot, I can see Larck's mom staring at his son on its coffin.

Me, I'm so done with all this pain. I can't even cry. I've been living my life with full of pain. When will it ends? If i could turn back time...

"Ayesha, you can rest, we can do this," that's Larck's Aunt, she's been with me for the whole day, I know she's tired to, but she's asking me to rest. Maybe I need to do that, I try to smile and nods. I left after i saw a sympathy in her eyes.

I don't see myself burying the man I adore for so long. But I promised him, I need to live. I should live.

"Sweetie," because of my Mom's comforting voice, I swifted my seat and hug her tightly. I don't say anything, I just cry. The least I can do for myself is to be strong, but nevertheless I can't just do that. I am too weak thinking I'll be living my life alone... for... now on.

"Its okay Ayesha. You can get over it, we're here." Mom said.

"Do you pity me Mom?" because of what I asked, I saw how she got startled because of my question. She cupped my face and I saw how sad her eyes were.

"You were my daughter. I know you're strong," she said gazing on me. Lies Mom. You pity me so much. And. I. Hate. It!

I am impaired. I don't know what will happen to me the next days, weeks and months. Right now, it's been too hard, and I know it will be 'til who knows when. The wounds will leave a scar, it'll be always here. The laughter we shared, the tears you wiped. It'll stay here forever Larck.

"Sweetie, eat some more, you cannot even finish one dish," my Mom said while readying my food.

"I'm sorry," that's what I can say for now. Even if everyone makes me feel loved, I am still here, drowning myself into pain, cry, 'til I can't cry anymore.

"Do you wanna go somewhere far? Or gp shopping, you can bring Danica with you, or stay at our resort, I'll let you use the VIP room, sweetheart." she's trying to cheer me. But I can't even control my own body now, I cant be energenic after what happen.

"No My. Im fine,"

"I'm so worried Ayesha," she said caressing my hair, I tried to smile, I dont want to show her how sad I am. But even if I smiled the whole day; the sadness still very evident, here in my eyes.... in my actions.

"Hmm, I think I'll just visit the foundation,"

She now look so hopeful, "You want to bring our driver?"

"Nah. I have my own car My," I smiled at her, she embraced me and nodded.

"Fine. Takecare my Ayesha,"

I am honestly too weak to even move a bit, but to calm my Mom, I'll just to put myself into distractions. I need to help myself, I remedy myself.

"Yes Danica?"

"Omo Yesh! My gosh!"

"Why?"

"Your ex-boyfriend gosh! He's going insane!"

"HAAA?!" because of what she told me, my heart panicked. I stopped the car, and that makes me hurt my forehead. Fuck.

"Relax Yesh okay?"

"I am relax, you're the one who's panicking!" I said, induring the pain in my forehead. Fuck.

She's been inhaling all the air, and exhaling it like she's the most problematic girl here.

"Fuck Dani!! What happened to Troy?!" Thinking about accident again. Damn, I don't wanna see myself crying over a grave again.

"Just fix yourself," she said before ending the call. Stunned and clueless. What?! What does she mean?!

I stayed inside my car, processing everything on my mind. But after few minute, I started the engine and decided to go home. Maybe I could find answers there.

Tomorrow I'll spent my day at the foundation. I promised!

"Yesha," and here we go again, Mom is panicking as well, like Dani but Mommy is a bit weird. Why is she smiling? It creeps me out!

"My. Are you okay?" Should I asked her if she's possess or what?

"Ofcourse!" I can feel how glad she is the way she gripped on my wrist. Honestly, I don't know what she's up to— but when I saw Troy at the common area with my Dad. Okay... fuck.

"Sir, I am dead serious," that was Troy.

"TROY!"

Dad stare at me and so Troy, after I screamed like that.

"Yesha," it's Danica, she approached me. Wow. Acting like she didn't know a thing huh?

"Yesh, Troy is up to something. You'll passed out if you heard it with your own ears," Dani said, but I am way busy looking at the man at the sofa. He's staring at me as well, full of confidence, authority.

"Troy. What are you doing here?" I glared at him, he is not here to annoy me? Or he is here to give flowers? Yes, he is holding a boquet.

"For you," Mommy's giggling, Dad hush her to stop.

"Troy whats this?" I asked him like that was the most disgusting thing he gave me. For pete's sake, it's not been so long since Larck passed away. Is he stupid?

"Thats for you Yesh," he said. Obviously.

"Why, for what?" I sound so rude.

"I want to surprise you. Im expressing my love here Ayesha," How could he say that. We're surrounded of my parents and best friend. And he is stating shits? Is he out of his mind?

"Troy. I hope you put it in place. You know it was only a week after Larck's death. Respect me"

No one dared to speak, for me it's too much. Did I look like some hoe who'll be happy running to his arms again, after my fiancee's death? I know Troy doesn't care about it. But...

"Yesh. I want to be with you, while you're moving on." pathetic!

"Stop acting like you never caused me pain, don't you forget that what happened five years ago, hurted me, and that's because of you," I start reminscing. Everything that happened abroad, everything I experienced, my phobia and traumas that's all his fault. He should be guilty. I dont have time to seek for revenge now. I know I have done mistakes as well. But he have more mistakes than me.

"Yesh. I am here to make it up with you. I'm here to earn your love. Im here for you. Yesh,"

I rudely say no. "I don't need you, Troy," I returned the flower that will surely hurt his ego, those flowers ain't enough though. If you were so desperate to have me, let me heal first.

"Yesh. Dont do this to me,"

"Sorry,"

I leave them, at the first place, Larck's death ain't a joke. I am still mourning, and Troy's impulsive actions won't ever dragged me back into him again. I just asked for space, I asked for respect. If they couldn't give me that. They should leave.

"I'll do everything to get you. I'll do everything to own you again." he said while I am busy walking upstairs, I heard that, I heard my heart hammered in pain. But that won't change my mind. I won't accept anything from him anymore; I know I'm not too sure of it. But at least.... I know how to value and respect someone who gave their unconditional love, and that's Larck.

"Thats intense! Thats WOW!" she still not over it, she keep on stating how lucky I am and whatnots. She admire and praise that virgin!

"He's a virgin" I shrugged, "Playboy and doesn't know where to place his pride," I added.

"So? That's what you wanted, a guy with experienced? So he'd bring you to heaven and sipped you instantly?"

"Yep. Thats my objectives," I am confident of my answers huh? I laughed, but thinking about him having his first s€x with me is cute. Means, i am the first sexy girl who'll feel his glory.

"Yuck Yesha, are you so fucking turned on when Doc is around?"

"Yucks. Horny? Seriously?" I insult. I know he's drop dead gorgeous. But well, that will never ease something on me. The weigh here, everything.

"But you kissed him, thousand times," now that she mentioned it. I am a bit embarrassed, I remembered how his tongue play inside my mouth— fuck.

Oh my God! My mind!

"Ain't horny huh?" she's now poking the side of my waist. Teasing me again.

I just changed the topic, we shouldn't talk about Troy. Thats ages! I'm so vulnerable that time!

"I wanted a job right away, Dani. Even it's a way far from my degree, I just wanted to earn again, and to make myself busy." that's how I shifted the topic from Troy to something more important.

"I'll just update you once our company is open for new employees, ain't you thinking if working with your parents?"

"Nah. I have no interest in designs. And i don't like the smell of the paints they use,"

My Mom and Dad runs a business. Since Daddy came back here, they have been in business. Designing and Printing for costumize shirts. We made a lot of money there, so my parents were able to build two more branches elsewhere. And they're planning also to add something cool to the business. They'll surely design mugs, plates etc.

"Oh. So you wanna work at factory ?"

"Dani, office please. " I demand.

"Fine then," she said and smiled at me.

For the passed weeks I've been staying at the house, leaving for the foundation and making myself busy. I know this meditation will help me cure from all the wounds it caused me. I can still feel the numb and pain, but I know time heals. I've been posting half of my collections online, I'm not going to used any of it.

"Meet up?" I asked the buyer, she's going to buy two of my bags. And that excites me.

"Yes please," her voice sound so familiar. Like I heard it before, but I don't know where.

"Sure, where?" I asked biting the straw of my soft drinks.

"McDo," she answered now way politely.

We decided to meet at Mcdo around 7:00 PM after her work. I didn't want to be late; so 6:30 PM when I got there.

Few people noticed me, they were looking at my seat, it's a bit awkward. But I just let them. I even received an "hi" from a teenager.

"She's so gorgeous," that's what I heard from them; that's why I really am not so fond of going on public places, because I got caught too much attention. Though there's nothing wrong on that, I just don't know how to accept their praises.

Its 8:30 PM when the lady came. At first I am convincing myself that's she's not 'girl', but upon seeing her closer, that confirms it.

Alicia Buenavidez.

"Zia," I sound so very shocked, I didn't even imagine meeting my old friend, buying my bags as well. It's been ages when we last saw each other, and that's also not a good scene, she's the reason why my Mom found out how whore i was.

"How are you my dearest ex-bestfriend"

I can taste her bitterness on her voice, her hatred is too obvious. I didn't know she'd be like that... it's been five years and she still mad at me.

There are few things that really happened without clear reasons.

"Zia. What are you doing here?" I try to act normal, even if I really know what she's doing here. I just sat down on my seat and managed to stare at her.

"Im here to buy your bags. Half million right?"

"No. Its not for sale anymore,"

If she insists to buy my bags, I'd rather not to give it to her, I don't need her money anyways.

"I dont care if it wasnt," she instantly get a hold on a cup of water. Before I could protest, I felt my hair down to my dress, getting wet because she poured water on me. I don't know what to react.

"So you're flirting with my boyfriend!? You're thinking I wouldn't know about it! You hoe!?" because of her high tone, few of the people looks at us.

I am wearing a simple dirty white dress, looking so simple with light make up, and Zis's on her black suit, beautiful and stunning. I look like a potato, been harassed here.

"I didn't do anything, and w-who's the boyfriend you're talking about?" I am still calm even if I am shivering because of the water she poured onto me.

"Troy Marquez!"

I got shocked, my eyes rounded and I know she noticed how shock I am. But I still managed to changed my expression. Straight, rude face.

"He's all yours," I am calm as fuck now This is my game. Calm but bitchy.

"I know. So stay away from him,"

"I am not the one who's been doing too much effort Zia, it's your boyfriend. And may I asked you, why does he's instantly a 'single' when he's talking with me?" I saw anger within her gaze. Wait a minute. I'm not yet done.

"You know what does it mean Zia. I'm more prettier than you. He prefer a virgin, Unlike you,"

Tumayo ako, alam kong naestatwa siya dahil sa mga sinabi ko. Hindi ko gustong magpakabitch dito. But if she's a bitch, well im her mirror.

I walked away from that place, the guard even greeted me again. But I don't have enough energy to greet him back. That confrontation is a bit confusing, I really need to prepare a bottle of water so I can pour it on her too. Bitch!

"Ayesha!"

Oh here comes the liar , evil, virgin playboy!

"Are you here to fetch your girlfriend, asshole? Who use to be the twin of your ex girlfriend?"

He wrinkled his nose because of what I just say.

"Why are you so shocked? That Zia, acted like a buyer, she met me to insult me at public?"

"What did she do to you?" Look a boyfriend who's more concern of me than to his "girlfriend".

"Don't worry about me liar. Mind your own girlfriend!"

"Ayesha!"

I stare at him, with blank expression. He's still wearing his white-lab coat. Maybe its still his duty at the hospital, nearby.

"Ayesha. She isnt my girl-"

"You think i'll believe you. Well, you already mastered, " lying" , go ahead! Bed her. So that if I find you interesting again, you already have an experience."

I saw how pissed off he is.

"Don't you dare tell me who I bed,"

One step, he instantly near me. He grabbed my waist and push my body near him, he get a hold on my chin, pushing it up so I could met his gaze. I thought he'll going to kiss me in my lips. But his lips travels on my neck, and kissed me on that spot. He lick ii, that's why I groaned. I felt something poking me in my stomach.

"Now. Can i bed you?"

"Troy~" I'm still moaning.

I saw him grin and kiss my lips. Fuck! For God's sake! We're here at the parking lot of McDo! I better not to see anyone watching us right now. Because if someone sees us. I might run.

"Lets go somewhere Yesh,"

I dont know what happen, but I nods and agree.

“Troy~” I moaned again, after his kisses. I don't know why I am being so weak in front of him. I can't even stare at my own body, half naked now.

“Yesha. Stay still” he said firmly, while holding my waist. Stop my hips to move.

I am almost naked in front of him, while he's still on his pants, his upper body is revealed, and that makes me more uncomfortable. I rest my hands on his chest, and I am on his lap enjoying how aroused he is. May legs is in their separate sides. He's holding my waist, looking at me intensely, while I am being so weak. I'd give in for sure.

“TROY!” I shout full of ffrustratio, because he's not even giving me a kiss.

“Ayesha. We don’t need to do this,” he said and that makes me a bit off.

I don't have to do anything, I stood up and not planning to go back on his lap and asked for something he won't give. It's obvious he doesn't like to do it, and he's not ready. After poisoning my mind, manipulating me to go here with him. And now he's being hesitant?

“Are you afraid, your girlfriend will get mad?” Now my voice is a bit shaky.

“Yesha,” his voice is tok calm to handle, boy, he is a perfect example of a perfection. Look at him, it's dark but his looks and body built still screams for power. He's so effortlessly handsome.

“I don’t want to bed you,” he said. I already knew that; it's so fucking obvious.

“Why are you afraid your girlfriend will fint this out? Are you afraid of her?"

He didn't say anything,I don't know what to react as well. I am here again at this point; almost begging him, like what I do years ago. “She isnt my girl Ayesha”

“What is she to you then? Your base-buddy? Your your fuck body, maybe you're not really a virgin anymore?” I want to sound rude, but I know the bitterness and pain is all on it.

“She’s my-“

“What?”

“Fiancee,”

I'm too shocked at the point I even find myself sitting on the sofa. My knees melted.

“B-but, How?”

He breathe in and hold my hands.

“My Dad and Zia’s Dad are college bestfriends. We're both on our Mom's womb when they talked about it, I need to marry one of the twin. And that’s Zia”

I don't know what to react. Is that even possible?

Yes Yesha, it is. Look at it, he's really marrying that girl. Then why does he still pursue me? Why does he still show how much he cares, if he is already tied up and going to marry a girl?

A little hope leaves me again. I'm not going to hope again. I won't.

“I don’t love her,” he said. I don't have a say on that, and I won't care anymore.

“I don’t care if you don’t love her,” that's what the most pitying words I could ever heard. But at some point I need to stop myself from hoping.

I fixed myself after that, he still trying to tell me what really happened. But I am too occupied to even listen. After I fixed myself, I leave his house. I don't know where I should go. I just found myself nearby at Smiths and will get drunk.

I wanted to call Dani, but my phone is drained. I don't have a choice but to drink alone.

“What makes a beautiful girl drink here alone?”

I didn't mind someone asking me that, I just asked another shot from the bartender.

“Ma’am the money you gave ain't enough for your bill," the bartender said.

“Fuck!” I cursed and try to check my wallet at my bag, I couldn't find it. Great! I left it at Troy's suite. Just great!

“Give her cocktail, or even a juice,” the guy said. “I’ll pay for her” he said cooly.

I look at him,  he smiled at me.

“I’m Zaijan Esquivales. Miss beautiful,”

My jaw dropped. I don't know what the hell he is doing here , there's a lot of boys out there. Why Zaijan?

“You had a fight with your boyfriend-“

“Ex,” I cut him. He muffled a laugh. His intense eyes bore into me. I understand what he is up to. This playboy wants a game.

“Why don’t we try ourselves. ”

“No thanks”

He laughed again. He find it amusing huh? “Lets make your ex got jealous. Deal?”

It's wrong to agree on a playboy's idea. But because of too much liquor on my body. I just found myself smirking and nodding.

“Why not!” I sound so damn excited.

“Well then, deal. Miss Yesha Dela Torre” he muttered