Insecurities

Keegans P.O.V

I couldn't wait for tonight, after my father called to invite me over for dinner stating that Catalya would be there I have been in a state today. I were highly sexually frustrated,annoyed and a mess of uncontrolable feelings. But now I had something to look forward to, she cane walking in looking like an angel. I pulled her into my embrace for a hug and whispered that we need to talk, her cheeks reddend and I loved making her blush. The dinner dragged on she smiled and talked to my cousins getting to know each other better, while I were over here staring at her from a distance like fucking always. She's always so damn close yet so fucking far, it drove me to near insanity. She excused herself to use the restroom and I couldn't pass on this. So I got up and followed ignoring my father asking where I am going,it's none of his fucking business what I do. I closed the door behind me and turned the lock, my little kittens eyes widdend in the reflection of the mirror. Does she even realize how beautiful she is, when she looked at herself in the mirror does she see what I see. Her surprise were breathtaking she had no where to run or hide, it was just her and me in this small restroom. She knew she had nowhere to go, her cheeks flushed. And I couldn't control my own smile,I pressed myself against her. I took her hair out of her neck and started trailing kisses up and down. The things she were making me feel right now were mindblowing, I felt her legs shake as I touched her. And fuck it made me feel like a damn king rightnow, I used one arm to keep her upright and pressed my leg inbetween her thighs. Just to keep her supported as I started touching her, my body were on fire and the pain in my dick were a bittersweet reminder of what I have been waiting and working for. Everything I ever did were for her. I slowly undid the zipper and button of her jeans, as I slid my finger slowly down inbetween her folds. I started stimulating her clit softly, she's fragile and ever so sweet and I wanted to savour this moment. After all these years waiting for this moment,I wanted it to be worth it. Her moans turned me on to the point where the pain became unberable. But this were about her, she's my focus. I wanted to give her pleasure. Besides our first time will not go down in a restroom. No she deserves the best, all of it. I turned the kisses to her lips, to swallow her moans. There is no way anybody else would here that sound, it is mine. All mine and I do not share, I started to speed up as her moans became more urgent her breasts were a perfect fit for my hand. I were losing my ever loving mind. She's my full focus,as she starts reaching her point of ecstacy I can feel myself thightning and my focus changed not to embarass myself. I am a grown fucking man but this really were happening, finally. I kept up the notion until she got down from her high,I had to close her up and get myself out if there. So I leaned closer and told her, this isn't over this is just the beginning. Because it were, I will not let her go,I will not give up. All it took were one meeting, one look,one touch and one kiss to send me begging on my knees. After this, I just know I would either be ripped to pieces ending up in a mental asylum or the luckiest fucker alive either way this will change everything.

Catalya P.O.V

I barely made it home after dinner that night, when my phone started it's familiar ringtone. " Just checking in" And everybody started calling out their names, one after the other. I love my group of crazy friends they always knew how to make me feel good. Each one would say their names and started talking about their day,it was our thing. Until they all turned their attention to me."So how was your day Cat? Oh, and how was dinner with your fam?" Everbody went silent waiting for my reply, should I tell? " My reply tipped everybody off, it's what happens if you know each other for as long as we did. "It went great, jip my day was great, dinner was great. Everything went just great" Thats the moment they knew something was up. "Was Keegan there?" Of course Alexa would ask that." Jip" My voice started to shake as memories of the night started to flood back. "And? how is he?" And just like that I couldn't keep it to myself any longer and I just started telling them everything. The line went silent and I swear you could hear a pin drop. When all of the sudden they all burst out into cheers, they all had something to say like it's about time, I knew it, it's the way he always looks at you. They went on and on, until we finally said our goodbyes and hung up. There was a knock on my door a couple of minutes later, I thought it might be Anya my next door neighbour. I helped her where ever I could, we met in college and she used to be roommates with Cassidy. But she ended up with a unplanned pregnancy, her parents wrote her off and told her they didn't want anything to do with her or the baby. But she stepped up and kept Roland he is the cutest boy I've ever seen. So I helped her to get the apartment next door, and to get back up on her feet. I opened the door hoping it would be my little boy, but instead it was none other than Keegan Kruger fucking Clark. What is up with this man. Can't he take the hint, yes,yes I know what happened in that restroom and in the club but the thing is, it wasn't suppose to happen in the first place. We are basically siblings, he is my stepbrother. But holy shit he has that look again. "Kitten" is all he said, his voice husky and full desire. Where the hell has my selfcontrol went off to, I want it back. "Keegan, what are you doing here?" Wait hold up how does he know where I live? Did he follow me? What the fuck. He gave me that one side smile, I want to finish what we started last night,tonight what we should have started years ago." I am still wondering how he knows where I live. He has never been here before has he? I can't remember ever giving him my cellphone number either. "How do you know where I live? And where did you get my cellphone number from?" His smile started to widen until he started to chuckle, damn that's a beautiful sound. Even I have to agree with that. " Well first of my little kitten, my dad gave me your number, just as I am sure your mother gave my number to you." Well yes that part was true, she said it's important to have his number with me incase something happened besides we are all family now, and family needs to have each others numbers. If that part were true I would have my dads number, but I don't so."Second I might have followed you, speaking of which. This is a really nice building, whose the owner? I am looking into buying more property" I couldn't believe him he followed me? And now he wants to buy the building,that I live in. What the fuck. " Well first of, no you are not buying the building that I live in, the price is affordable. They take great pride in the upkeeping of the apartments, I am happy here. And so are all of my neighbours there is zero complaints, so no that's not happening. Second you just admitted to stalking me, and you are completely okay with that, yet I am not, it's weird and scary. Third how do you not understand this, we are not happening, you are my stepbrother, we are siblings this is not okay. What happened between us is not okay and it will never ever happen again." But it was that look in his eyes again, he wanted it to happen again that much were clear but more of that determination kicked in, I saw the wheels turning in his mind. I knew we were both screwed well almost literally back at our parents place. But instead of him forcing something onto me, he just smiled and said "Goodnight my little Kitten, see you around." He left me with a small kiss on my forehead, turned around and left. Once again leaving me in a turmoil of different emotions. About a week went by with zero contact from Keegan,I had lunch with my mom on Friday where she told me about Richard and Keegan business trip to Italy. It's funny how my mom still got suspicious everytime Richard went on a business trip, I guess old habbits die hard. Especially when you had to deal with liars and cheaters in the past. A lot of people would say it's all in the past, or don't bring your old baggage into a new relationship. But let's be real and honest, that is exactly what we all do. Because life is unpredictable and nothing is gaurateed and when you truly love a person it makes everything so damn harder. You know what you have to lose, I guess that's what scares me the most about falling inlove, truly falling inlove. We chatted for a while,she told me all about her plans with her new clinical trail and how much she just loves being a surgeon. It sometimes hurt knowing I disappionted her by changing my major. I always wanted to follow in her footsteps, and it were all almost set in stone I got into the best University and all were planned out. Until my senior year of Highschool, I realized I am sure intelligent enough to become a surgeon,but I struggled to process loss. Everytime I would have lost a loved one it would sent me spiralling, but also friends, strangers I would doubt in myself if I should ever lose a patient and even though my head would tell me you can't save everyone my heart wanted to. And I knew I weren't as strong as my mom to deal with losing patients.