chapter 4

"Really? I asked about my mom Ryder not a fucking Rino. Instead of cursing why don't you give me answers. My entire life has flipped in the past twenty-four hours. Explain. Explain to me why I only just found out I have a family who never contacted, who left me alone for seventeen fucking years. Please try to explain why I grew up alone and with Mom instead of just throwing a tantrum and swearing at me," I finished while standing up.

For a while, no one spoke, everyone was shocked at my sudden outburst. Then 'Dad' finally spoke up,

"Your mother left us and she's now married to someone else," He said. His voice may not show his pain but his eyes are betraying him.

''I want to meet her. I need to know her... Please," I said that was the first time I was saying please in a long time.

"Okay, fine. You will tomorrow morning, get some rest and then you can meet her tomorrow," Dad said, giving me a half-smile. Let's just say I can tell he doesn't smile much from the creepy-ass face he was making. I returned the gesture, trying not to laugh, then walked away.

I closed the door and jumped onto my bed. I felt pretty numb, like usual, but I also felt slightly guilty, a foreign feeling to me. I felt guilty because I could see from my dad's eyes that he didn't want to reopen his closed wounds just like how I didn't want to reopen mine.

Then drifting away from my father, my mind wandered to him, his touch, his kiss, the way he held me when I woke up crying because of a nightmare, the way he would pepper my face with kisses and tell me he loves me. Even though he was older than me by two years, love doesn't differentiate. You could be complete opposites and still be in love.

Flashback

I groan as Chase continues peppering me with Kisses as I turn around, ignoring him as he continues.

''Stop it," I whined as I turned around. He gave me a breathtaking smile that made me fall for him all over again.

"Why should I stop giving my girl kisses?" He said cockily while continuing to kiss my neck and face.

''Happy Birthday baby," he whispered. I cupped his cheek pulling him in for a kiss.

End Of flashback

With him, I felt like I was in heaven. But it only lasted so long. He left me, promising he would call and text but he never did. In the end, I realized he lied, he left me just like everyone else. By now he could be nineteen.

No one wants me, he didn't and soon my family wouldn't either.

I wiped the tear that fell from my eye, opening the drawer I took the pills from underneath the pillow and swallowed the painkillers for my wounds and ribs.

Well, better sleep because tomorrow is a long fucking day.

That's the last thing I remembered as I pulled the blanket over my body and passed out.