VIII

Cathy P.O.V.

... continuation

I also stayed in the living room for a long time holding the photo I took from the picture of the three of us.

let's say I loved frenzy before.. i have desi now, i already choose her over frenzy, and isn't enough what I did to make desi feel the security that i won't go back to frenzy, and I can see to frenzy that she is happy with anne, why should I ruin the relationship we already have?.

I saw frenzy come out of my room with desi who was drooping. She walked towards my seat and sat down again in the chair she had sat from earlier.

"what, did she talked to you?" I ask her.

"She said she wanted to resign from work and just go home to their hometown" frenzy said sadly.

"Did you explain to her?" my question

"yes, I explained that she has nothing to be jealous of me" frenzy replied, the concern for desi was obvious on her face.

"I don't know that this will happen when I stay here in your condo" I just shook my head.

"It's not your fault cathy, she's the one who asked you to stay here, meaning to say, she wants to be with you" said frenzy.

"but here I am and I can still make her heartache." I said.

"hmm.. that can still be talked about cathy, you need to wheedle her a little bit more." frenzy's encouragement to me.

"oh it looks like you two are serious there ah, did desi eat cathy?"

"ah no-nothing jossie, we're just talking about what we're going to do about this project" frenzy excused.

"wow and you two have a part time job ah, is desi not coming out yet?" jossie asked looking further into our room.

"Not yet jossie, just in bed" was my answer.

"Woe and that girl is still acting, it's three o'clock in the afternoon ah!" the annoyed jossie said, her face serious.

"I will go to the room and talk to her" she said and walked towards our room at the same time.

"jo-jossie" my hesitant call to her.

"I'll take care of this cathy" she said and she finally entered the room.

"I'll prepare first cathy ah,.. I just went into the room," said frenzy and she got up from her seat and went to her room.

I just sighed and leaned on the sofa, can I really do anything sensible for other people?

I closed my eyes, my head hurt a bit at what was happening and at the thought as well.

"I should not stay here........ i should not stay here..." my mind whispered.

I heard the door of our room open, I opened my eyes and saw Jossie come out, I expected Desi to be next to her but I was disappointed.

jossie just looked at me and went straight to her room. I thought of entering our room again, just in case desi is okay so I got up immediately and went to our room.

"desi?" I said softly, she was still in bed, now her seat is tilted compared to before she was lying on her back.

I looked at the tray I had brought earlier, still the same as before. she still does not eat.

"desi..." I softly called her.

I approached the bed and lay down next to her, I faced it, I saw her close her eyes and her tears were dripping.

"desi, I'm sorry.. let's not be like this oh, I'm having a hard time" I kindly told her.

"because it hurts" she said softly with each sob.

"I'm not doing anything wrong, and we have no bad intentions there desi" I said.. I would have tried to hug her but she turned her back on me.

"desi please.." I said.

I still want to extend my understanding of desi's condition but it is not right for her to prolong her not eating and paying attention to us who are with her here at home.

"desi please, stop this, I'm not the only one who's worried about you" I said and got up.

"then don't worry, don't be bothered. im okay.. i will be okay!" the relatively high voice she said.

"are we going to have arguments here desi?" I'm a little irritated by the question to her.

i stand up from our bed, i took the towel and i went to the shower room. I can't wait for what desi has to say.

while taking a bath, I still do not lose my mind, I do not want to fight with desi now, maybe she will be able to decide more things that she will regret one day.

after my shower, I quickly got dressed and groomed myself, I ignored the desi who is still lying in bed.

i checked my wrist watch what time it was... it was 5:30 pm and frenzy was probably waiting outside for our appointment at 6pm.

i grab my backpack and car key, I first looked at desi who was still closed eyes but I knew she was awake.

"I will go ahead first, frenzy and I just talked to Mr. Dennis, a unit owner of the condo will do the interior design again." I said goodbye but she didn't even move in lying down.

I was just shaken my head going out of our room. I found Jossie and Frenzy in the living room, they seemed to be talking seriously and when they saw me, Frenzy immediately stood up.

"I thought we would not going out, you won't leave your room" frenzy said smiling.

"Nothing really, she seems to be getting even angrier" I just shook my head as we left the house.

"Did she know we were leaving?" frenzy asked

"yes," I replied.

"Maybe she'll be okay later when we come back" said frenzy, I know she just encourages me.

"I hope" is my frugal answer.

frenzy and I traveled without much fuss in the car, maybe she also gave me a little space to breathe because of what was happening to desi.

occasionally anne calls her while we are on the road. frenzy's project was not far from our place but today was sunday, and a lot of cars are on the road.

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"sorry we're a little bit late" I greeted Mr. Dennis and a woman beside him.

"just in time, Ms. Sheila just arrived also" said Mr. Dennis while shaking hands with me and frenzy next to me.

"good to see you both again.... you know, if you are not really a lady like to dress, I might think that you have a relationship,.. you are a good thing" Mr. Dennis laughed.

"Mr. dennis!" I rolled my eyes to him, I turned to frenzy who suddenly just bowed and obviously blushed.. she is really cute when she is shy.

"I'm just joking,.. you might get me out of this condo unit.. haha" Mr. Dennis laughed.

hmp!,. if only my Dad did not knew this Mr. Dennis, I might have slapped him double. tsk!

"ehem!.. excuse me" Ms. Sheila cut us off.

"sorry, sorry ma'am" was the scratch on his head said Mr. Dennis.

"are we going to discuss the project or will you just talk here about your....." and she looked at me from head to toe.. "whatever" she said and looked at me a bit sharp.

"sorry about that Ms.?" I asked and held out my hand to shake hands.

"sheila,.. Sheila Santiago.." and she shook hands with me, sparingly the smile she gave.

"this is frenzy, our Architect, she also designed another interior of another unit here in this building" I introduced to her.

"i supposed i know that already, so you guys are the ones Mr. Dennis commented on me am i right to say that?" she said a little calmly and shook hands with frenzy who also gave a frugal smile to her.

'What a trip this woman is, she is so snobbish.' what my brain just said.

"so shall we proceed to business?" the interruption of Mr. Dennis with us.

frenzy sat next to me while we were facing Mr. Dennis next to Ms. Sheila the snobbish.

we discussed what she wanted to design in her unit. since her flight going to London is tomorrow, we need to make a video call to her every week so she can see the progress of her unit.

frenzy is the one who almost talking to Ms. Sheila, and she explained everything. she improved the last time i saw her at the Campbell she used to attend. her face shows the confidence that she can do the demand of her client.

'she really changed a lot' my brain said while just looking at her.

"and deal then!" I just heard that Ms. Sheila said.

"my PA will just give you the down payment tomorrow morning after she sends me to the airport .." said Ms. Sheila and she stood up in front of us.

"thank you Ma'am" said Mr. Dennis and he even supports the door for Ms. Sheila.

"by the way Ms. Cathy and Ms. Frenzy, I will be expecting a video call from you by next week.. see you then" she said and she did not wait for me or frenzy to answer, she turned away from the office followed by Mr. Dennis.

"Seriously Cathy, I'm sweating my armpits there ah, Mr. Dennis client was so snobbish!" Frenzy said shaking her head and even fanned the folder she was holding.

"You're great, you handled that terror!" I said to her with a smile.

"I'm used to it, a lot of people come to desi and I's office, and the two of us face it, but I think desi is better at communicating compared to me, I'm still have nervous sometimes" frenzy said.

"nah, you're good,.. or rather say,.. you're even better!" I said and I smiled at her.

"hmm.. well, if I'm better, why didn't you choose me?" frenzy said with a smile and she just shook her head... then walked out of the meeting room.

"Come on, desi might think negatively or even made jealous even more if we've been away from home for a long time." frenzy told me.

its look like as if I was nailed to my place by what frenzy said. as i'm watching her walking away from where i'm standing, what she said was still repeating in my brain.

"if I'm better, why didn't you choose me?"

"if I'm better, why didn't you choose me?"

"if I'm better, why didn't you choose me?"

"if I'm better, why didn't you choose me?"

"if I'm better, why didn't you choose me?"

"Cathy!" Mr. Dennis called me.

"ah.. there you are," I said when I saw Dennis in front of me.

"your eyes are somewhere else" he said with a smirk and turned outside the meeting room, looked in the lobby where frenzy was talking to someone on her cellphone.

"I'll be expecting you by next week here ah" said Mr. Dennis with a meaningful look at me.

"Sure, we need to, can we do anything else?" I said while shaking my head.

"I'm sorry about Ms. Sheila, that was she really is, so proud of herself because she caught a "English Man " and said that words with both hands raised and showed a quote and quote.

"it's no big deal for me, we'll go ahead now" I said goodbye to him and I also left the meeting room.

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"by the way cathy,.. ahmm.." frenzy said

we are here in the car, paving the road to our condo, fortunately there is not much traffic jammed.

"Are you hungry?, can we buy dinner?" my question to her.

"no.. no.. no.., I'm not hungry yet, hmm,.. I'll just eat at home, Anne is already there" said frenzy.

"ah okay, all right then" I said.. but my chest felt heavy when I heard that Anne was already at home.

"about you and desi" frenzy change the topic.

"What about us?" my question, I do not look at her because it is also quite dark where we are going, and my focus was on the road.

"Jossie, asked me earlier after she talked desi"

"what's that?"

"It seems obvious that you have a relationship with desi, the way desi actions earlier and she saw what you did in the picture of the three of us." frenzy explained.

"why did she only notice us?, does jossie already know about you and Anne?" my curious question to frenzy.

"no, she knows Anne has a boyfriend, one time, Anne's ex from australia went to the condo, he stayed for one night in the condo, instead of staying in a hotel, he just stayed in the condo to sleep", frenzy said.

"and you allowed it?"

"they're good friends and the guy also has a fiance' so it's okay with me.. he'll get married next month I think as Anne said to me" frenzy added.

"and that's what jossie knows that she and anne got back together, since the guy was based in Australia.. they are Long Distance Relationship" frenzy said.

Jossie doesn't notice you?" my question

"We don't often sit aside in a chair when we're at home, she's not clingy and I'm used to it" said frenzy.

"does her family knows?.. sorry if i asked" I said

"it's okay, I wouldn't mind,.. yes.. they know about us. her parents we're separated.. they are only three siblings, she is the eldest and she also supports her family since her mom seems to have lost her life after her father left them.

"sorry for that" I said calmly, I still regret why I asked a personal question.

"It's okay, Anne is doing well in her life, and I can see that she will go far." said frenzy, I turned around and saw in her eyes the sparkle as she told the story about Anne.

"Anne is lucky because she is with you" I said and a thorn pierced my throat and I clear my throat.

"no, I'm lucky with anne" frenzy said and she suddenly stopped speaking.

I could not speak either. maybe she is right, lucky is the person who wins her heart,

"Just a reminder,... just be careful with your actions if you still don't want to let jossie know about you and desi," that's all frenzy said after a few minutes silence inside my car.

"thank you frenzy"

"Desi is my friend... and so are you, I just don't want to get to the point where what you and desi have already formed became a messed sooner" frenzy said.

"You, do you have a plan to tell your family about you and Anne?" my question

"hmmm.. yes, but anne said, don't do it now.. it's not time yet" frenzy replied.

she's really into anne, it seems that all her decision, was base on what anne's opinion and say.

"How is desi, jossie?" frenzy asked as soon as we entered the house.

jossie is in the living room reading a book.

"She's okay, I talked to our mother and she talked to desi, desi got up and ate." said jossie who was still looking at the book she was holding.

"good!, let's go cathy in your room!" frenzy said to me and I just followed her.

what frenzy said earlier about jossie watching the both of us, I was even more embarrassed to stay here in their condo. I feel that from now on, every action of desi and I will be observed by her sister jossie.

"Hey, you are so dramatic huh!" frenzy said as we entered the room and threw the back bag she was carrying to desi.

"ouch frenzy!" desi said laughing

sorry guys... for my over-reacting" desi said as she pupping her eyes,

her eyes are no longer crying, the tray with food was gone, and the picture I pasted is no longer on the side table.

"Don't apologize to me, to her oh, she's worried so much!" frenzy replied and pointed at me.

"sorry bee" desi said smiling at me. I also smiled to her but I went straight to desi's study table and put down the bag I was carrying.

"have you eaten?" desi asked.

"ahm, anne and I are going to eat outside later," frenzy said

"oh, she's already there?" desi asked

"yes, she's in the room,.. so.. I'll go ahead first, and probably Anne is waiting for me already!" said frenzy and immediately walk out towards the door.

"don't do that again desi ah,.. you should not be jealous.., you have nothing to be jealous about, cathy loves you... very much!" said frenzy smiling at her, and looked at me.

her eyes twinkled and she smiled at me but it was as if I saw something else in those eyes.

"sorry again" desi said

"thanks!" I said to her and I raised one hand, signaling my farewell to her.

"enjoy the rest of the night guys!" frenzy said the last thing and it completely disappeared from my sight after the door closed.