Chapter Four

As I was walking down the road I remembered yesterday's text from him , I keep ignoring his calls and texts but I knew that I was going to have to answer him sooner or later.

  One time I didn't answer him for 15 days, I thought he would just stop ...no... He came to my house asking to see me because he "missed me" .

  Oh I didn't tell you ... He's my uncle, well kind of..he was adopted in a not so young age so he's not my real uncle.

  And also he's now my dad's boss, yup.... Pretty fucked up, but there's nothing I can do ...whenever he's near me I just freeze ...I can't talk or move or even breath.

    This has bin happening for 5 years...but I just couldn't tell anyone, I can never. The inner me looked down at her knotted fingers stressfully, i know she wants me to be strong for the sake of both of us and I felt so bad to let her down.

   I arrived to school earlier than I thought, didn't even notice how fast I was walking.

   I entered the gates and waited for Hana ...she would be here any mi...."Liaaaa!'' Yup ... Right now.

    "I'm so sorry Lia...about what happened" she comforted me while patting my shoulder, I called her last night as soon as I got home, although she barely understood me between the sniffs, cries and sobs...she's the only one who saw this part of me...the only one I trust enough to be this fragile in front of.

     "Yeah yeah thanx, let's just drop it ok?" I replied bitterly but she understood that the wound is still way too moist and tender , she backed off, but only to dive back in and hold me tightly in a bear hug

   It's weird because she's so small and skinny yet was able to bear hug me , it was nice though.

    She pulled away two seconds later and grabbed my arm basically dragging me ..we had the same class, Miss fucking Bucket! I didn't want another detention so I tried to kind of focus on whatever she was trying to explain .... My mind went blank ..it was basically rocket science to me .

    Finally lunch time, my favorite time of the day... I headed to the cafeteria and spotted Banana sitting at the far end table , I walked straight towards her and plopped down the seat across from her.

    As I was about to start talking to her i spotted Raymond heading towards us ...what the fuck ! I definitely am not ready!!!

   Oh shit keep it cool damn it , just breath... "Hi guys!" I looked up at him and he had this casual face and smile on, like nothing happened.

  It really annoyed me, more than i thought .

  "Hey Raymond'' Hana replied, he turned his gaze to me. " hey Amelia" he said it so sweetly it felt like a dream ..and that warm smile did not help.

    "hey Raymond! Chilly day huh?''

Did u seriously just talked about the weather? The fucking weather?!

The inner me face palmed, Oh my god you're socially killing your self !!

  Fuck fuck fuck  I didn't know what to do! And Banana's silence wasn't helping.

  He took a seat next to me. ''Luckily I brought my jacket", he was talking like usual , while my fingers kept tugging on my jeans and my head hung low.

   Damn it! he didn't have to be so cold in this so warm shit ...he drove me nuts, screw him.

  I finished my lunch as normally as I could and excused myself ..just as I was 3 feet away I felt someone next to me, I glanced up to the tall figure and Raymond stood there gorgeously looking down at me ...them eyelashes though..

    I know... I'm hopeless.

" I'll walk you back to class" he offered as he walked beside me.