chapter twelve

Lenarya's p.o.v

"Run!!!" A smirk came to my face as I watched the three rouges run away from me .i slowly climbed up a baobab tree and removed three daggers ,one for each rouge. Find...find....find.... follow your target and piece trough their hearts ,dont come back till you are sure that none of them live to tell the story. That was all I whispered to the daggers before they flew out of my hands and chased after the rouges.

For anyone who is wondering, my mother was a white wolf and luna of the lunar eclipse pack, she once rescued a witch named Emmeline from a rougue attack. Emmeline and my mother became best friends so after my pack was killed and some other stuff I don't wanna get into happened ,she raised me as her own and thought me some magic spells.the daggers were her gift to my mother and my gift from her was a force field that protects me from harm...ever since I did the reseration spell in the cell my magical side has prospered and flourished am actually enjoying using magic it takes my head away from a certain alpha that I don't wanna mention by name.

The toxic rose pack has been looking for me since I left. The problem is that they are looking for lenarya jenkins and no one knows her, even I as Nemesis received a letter asking me to help find the future werewolf queen aka me. The only people that know both my identities are Emmeline, Theodore (he is Emmeline's mate and the man in charge of taking care of the rouges that live in my pack territory the lunar eclipse pack, they are good rouges that just became rouges becouse of uncontrollable situations like me) and Emma.

Its been a week since I left the toxic rose pack and I've never been so miserable, all i do is ignore the pain while I take out my anger on dangerous rouges on the most wanted list during the day and wallow in self pitty while I cry my self to sleep at night .

A tear left my eyes as i thought of  what could have been. ......i just couldn't get him out of my head.......his eyes are the only thing I see when i close my eyes.... his voice is the only thing i hear in my dreams. ....i just don't know why he still intrudes in my loneliness , all i know is that because of me my wolf doesn't have a mate and I blame myself for that

'Dont blaim yourself girl, remember that you and i are one ,they is no I in werewolf, the fact that I dont have a mate also means that you don't have one. I dont blaim you for what you did , yes it hurts but that doesn't mean i would have allowed him to treat us that way,besides it would have been worse to see him with another woman or to accept his crap and live a horrible life in a toxic and abusive relationship'.

You are right girl but even after everything he's done i still want him , i still want to be loved and right now i dont see that happening soon what's even worse is that i have deprived you of being loved also

'You have not deprived me of love , you have showed me love and we are going to give each other so much love we would suffocate from it'. Thanks for cheering me up girl. Its my pleasure girl as long as you know that I love you so much i would die for you, like literally d.i.e for you whether i like it or not...if you did I die like seriously we will be together forever.  The moon goddess made a great choice pairing us up. I just wished she made that same choice when pairing us up with my mate our other half...