chapter 5

wtf is he doing here,I can't be living a Korean life in Nigeria.

"hey pretty,why you here?"

"I can ask you the same" I snapped back,okay dude why you so rude to him?

"I'm sorry that came out wrong,I just came here to experience this place"

"uhmm, not that you asked but I'm here for school work, it's Nice since this is my home town,when I was young"

"wow,same"

"should we take a walk later?"

"that will be nice,okay"

I quickly wash up and off I went,what is happening,why are we here together??

this is crazy.

"this street is cool"

"yes,I grew up in this place,I came here just to reconnect with my past"

"what past?"

"I don't wanna talk about it"

"if you ever want to get healed from traumas,then you have to talk about it, it's not easy,but it will be worth it,and mind you, I'm your therapist "

"my own, therapist,that sound so nice"

"so go on"..

the fact that,we aren't feeling weird around each other,is really fasinating,"as a child,living with my mom,our apartment collapse,when me and my mom was trying to escape,we got separated,and I spent 2 days in the collapse building with a boy,and a dead person by our side,I was only eight at that time,ever since then,I can't sleep properly "

he seemed so shocked at that point.

"you spent 2 days with a boy?"

"yes,I can't even remember his face properly, it's always blurry,but if not for him,I don't think I would have made it out alive,I want to meet him one day,and thank him alot,but I don't think it's possible,but then maybe the universe will help me"

"it must have have being so hard for you, I'm sorry for everything you went through"

"why are you apologizing,but thank you"

"I feel like you have deep so much pain,that doesn't make sense,or that you don't deserve,it will be alright,I love you"

I looked at him,he love me did I just here that right?

"you love me?" I find myself asking again, because it feels like I heard the wrong thing and I need to clarify everything.

"I do,I don't know how it all happen, Maybe it was the first day we met or the day we had sex,but you have always being on my mind for so long,and I just want to have you beside me"

I tear up so badly,like I am a mess,he pull me into his arms,and I held onto him,with his hand wrapped around my waist,it felt so magical,I wish it won't end,not today atleast.

I thought to myself,maybe coming here was the best decision and I won't regret it,I hope so.

we sat down at a local restaurant,we were eating,when he opened up.

"do you need time to think about it or .."

"just a little bit of time, that's all I'm asking for,sorry"

"nah, it's alright, I'd wait for as long as you want me to, because I believe in us"

somehow,the word love get me so fucked up, because it has never given me a reason to believe in it,and most of the time, it's always my fault.

left home at 17,my mom must really hate me so much...

we ate so much then we walked to our hotel.

"are you planning on staying in the hotel for a long time?"

"nope, I'm going to be broke,I will go in search of an apartment by tomorrow,you?"

"I just have a week here,so..."

"you will stay in the hotel"

"yes, boss "

"why did you call me that?"I laughed a little.

"because you're the boss of me,I do what you say"

"you must be drunk"

"because of you " he replied, smiling at me at this point he must be crazy.

the walk home was crazy asf,idk when 2 bottles of soju can actually make someone drunk,I had to hold him by his hands so he don't fall,this dude owe me alot.

we reached out hotel,thank goodness,I took him in,and straight to his room,we go,open his door,as I was about to lay him on his bed,I fell with him,and I just lay there looking at him in a lustful way, thinking of making out with him.

if the roles was switch,he will be called the rapist,I shook the thought over me, immediately try to get up,and he grabbed me by my arm,and pull me yet again closer to him.

"don't go" he whisper to me.

I lay down on his bed,as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

mid night,he was shaking and trembling in fear,seems like a nightmare,wow everyone be living with alot of traumas.

"hey, it's okay, I'm here I guess" I added that, because at this point I Don't know how to react to all these,no one taught me how to react to this,I just held him close,and he woke up.

"what...are you doing here?" he asked,so confuse.

"nothing, I'm sleeping as you can see,before your voice woke me up"

he didn't ask further,you can see in his eyes,he is grateful for me being there.

"I'm sorry,I woke you up,you can go back to sleep now,I promise to be quiet"

for some reason,I felt hurt,when do we all go numb?

how can two broken teen/young adult heal each other, is that even possible?

"you don't have to be quiet,you only make it worst" I manage to say.

"I have being quiet for a long time, I'm really okay"

"you can't heal people if you don't heal yourself, it's really impossible,you will become a great therapist one day,and I have no doubt,but first you get to heal those traumas"

me saying shit like I don't really need help,when in reality I do need help,well I'm not trying to be a therapist,so who cares anyway.

I'm not living pass 20 that's a promise I made to Jenn,just two years left,I can do it.

it's not about you Linda, it's about Pete,come back to reality bitch.

"you be talking like a therapist" he added smiling.

"just for you though,you should see me teaching people best way on how to commit suicide,life is so depressing"

"now you're back, let's go to sleep" he held me by my waist and we lay down on his bed.