"chapter 2"

after a long hug and me embarrassing myself,I broke the hug,and just stare at him,we watched the dance and amazing view of the beach,while we chatted for a long time,rose was watching me from afar..

looks like I got some explanation to do,the next day.

"good night" Pete smiled at me.

"good night" I replied with a soft smile too.

I went with rose, coming here seems like a curse at the start,but it turns out well, I'm happy,so happy.

we held hands,while I kept hugging her,and kissing her, she's so just to flirting that she lets me do what I want,and I love it.

"so you and that cute guy" she started.

"Pete?"

"oh,you think he's cute"

"you always do this,I mean he is,and I enjoyed everything today, thanks for taking me out,I love you"

"what will you do without me?"

"absolutely nothing" I hugged her from the back, absolutely nothing I really meant it.

"you don't have to take me home" I added.

"I would love too, I'm not complaining"

it looks all romantic,maybe it is but she's really afraid of losing me and sometimes when I want to die badly,I remember her and I live for her,I know people say live for yourself, but sometimes it's exhausting and living for for feels less painful I guess.

"we are going to Jenn tomorrow,hope you know" rose quickly added.

"it's that time of the year? so fast,after work,we are going there, I'm spending a whole day with her,idc"

"yesss babe we are"

she dropped me off and left,I went inside my room and lay on the floor, crying I don't know why,it feels like I am really wasting so much time,and not doing anything about it.

I wish I can go tomorrow,it seems like a good day to die,jenn should i come meet you tomorrow,no I can't be selfish, it's just that life is so hard for me right now,and I don't know what to do,I met a boy today,a guy I guess,and I was happy at that moment,it felt like life was giving me a chance to be happy,but would still take it back from me eventually.

I have being thinking about you a lot these days,I feel so lonely these days,it have gotten worse.

*next day*

*midnight,at Jenn resting place*

"we are here,Jenn" rose screamed.

"we brought junks, because we can't cook"

"you can't cook,bitch"

"look,this bitch is trying me,imma beat her ass off, and send her to you,very soon..c*unt" I yell smiling.

"yoo, let's not fight again,is okay"

"we are here for Jenn,so how are you doing?? missing us?"

"we miss you so much,and you bitch,you won't come visit me,I guess you really love that place huh??"rose lay down..

"mehn,work is really fucked up,at this point, I'm just doing it to survive, don't know what I'm living for anymore" crying my lungs out.

"exactly,one year Jenn, it feels like yesterday"

I joined rose on the floor,we later ate,drank lots of juice.

"we will be back next year,sorry we don't visits often,you know we left home together,so we can't be caught here,we don't want to be seen" rose added..

"yeah,love you Jenn,I miss you so much,I hate you didn't wait for me before leaving,I told you, I'm not ever going to forgive you" I screamed as rose took my hands and we got up, ready to leave.

we put flowers we bought and walked away from there.

*flashback*

"mom, I'm not going to school today" I said laying on the bed.

"why?"

"nothing,I just don't want to"

"fucking get off this bed or I will chase you out"

"mommy,stoppp"

I got a phone call from Jenn.

"Jenn is calling,hi baby you miss me?"

"I can't do this anymore!"

"what are you saying?"

"I'm sorry Linda,you just have to keep going"

"what tf,are you on drugs of something, I'm going to school, don't do anything stupid,wait for me"

I ran to school,on reaching school,I could see lots of people gathering round someone who fell off,as I went in closer it was Jenn,rose was with her crying,I reached for them and fell to the fall.

"no no,this isn't happening,rose what is going on?" I was screaming already.

"she's gone Linda,Jenn is gone"

"no no don't worry, I'm going to meet her" I smiled delusionally and struggling my way to the top, everyone held me and I cried so bitterly.

at her wake keep mass,we all looked so drained,it felt like a nightmare which I haven't woken up from.

"you bitch" I murmur as they put in her casket down the floor.

"I love you" I could hear rose say that,while cleaning her tears.

it was over,and I went home took my bag and left,my mom was at Jenn house so it was easy,rose met me.

"where tf are you going too?"

"anywhere but here, I'm not going to that shit ass school that couldn't protect Jenn,if I ever set foot there, I'd kill all of them"

"where too Linda"

"I'm leaving this place,if I stay here,I don't think I will make it pass a day before I actually run mad or die"

"wait for me, I'd join you"

she left to her house and gather her things,we left together,and for one week straight up,we were sleeping on ghe road side,not untill we got a job,we were able to afford renting a house,we shared a room untill we havr save up a lot to actually live separately.

when I say I'm alive because of rose,I mean it.

*recent days*

"why don't you have a boy friend?" I asked rose as we held hands going home.

"because I don't like boys,I love you"

"of course you do,but you need to be in a Relationship"

"says who?"

"says your soulmate"

"I don't need relationship I have you already"

"sweet,I love you too"

"when are we going to ever go house and see our parents, it's being a year now?"

"I don't think I want to see my mom now,it look like I'm still miserable,I need to get healthy,but you,you can go,you don't have to wait for me,you always do things with me and it makes me feel like I am slowing you down"

"don't ever think that way,you are not"rose said with passion and there was this tension between us,before I knew it,our lips locked and we shared a kiss.