"chapter 3"

"sorry" she says as she broke it off,I wasn't mad it was amazingly good.

"it's okay,uhmm good night rose see you at work tomorrow" we awkwardly departed.

woah,what just happen,I mean I and rose do shit together,but this time it's different,we give ourselves little pecks on the lip,but never have we deep kiss,this got me questioning my sexually.

*next day,I skipped work*

I went for hiking,just me,I need to know what I want in this life and the fact is working at a damn supermarket isn't helping.

I took lots of pictures and really enjoyed it,rose was calling she might be thinking I am avoiding her,but hell no, I'm not.

"hey baby" I said smiling.

"hey,thought you were mad or something,you didn't show up to work today"

"uhmm,mad nah I just decided to go hiking for today, just a random thought"

"I told our boss you're sick,he said he's going to remove from your salary"

"he is a dick"

"that's what I say,anyway enjoy I miss you"

"I miss you too,I love you"

"me too"

"okay ttyl" and we hung up.

I don't want to be stuck in a fantasy,so no need to think too much on what happen last night.

"this is so not fun" I screamed out while claiming,and walking.

I heard a strange noise,for someone who want to die,I am too scared.

"who tf is that?" I screamed.

at least I told rose where I am,so it's all good.

"hey" I heard a voice from the other corner,I went to that direction,it was Pete,the same guy I met at the beach party.

"ohh hey" I hugged him, thanking the lord,it was someone I know.

"you get so scared easily" he tease me.

"I was like am I dying today? because it's no fun dying on the day you decide you want to live"

"that's deep,what change,you seem happy today,than last time?"

"yesterday was my best friend one year memorial,I just realized shit,I guess"

"ohh,sorry about that!"

"nahh it's all right, I'm good,what you doing here?"

"I come here every Monday,just a way of reminder that I shouldn't take life so serious"

"the fact you have this positive energy in you always it's amazing, I'm barely surviving here"

"I'm not always like this,maybe at 70% I'm like this then the 30% I'm depressed asf"

"that's actually a good thing,mine will be the only way round or even worse"

we hiked together,jump from the top to the river,we had lots of fun,it was amazing.

at night,we set up fire and just talked alot.

"so what's your plan"

"uhmm,I guess I want to stop my work,and do something crazy,idk"

"what's that crazy thing you want to do?"

"you really are a therapist,you make someone feel so comfortable around you so quickly,anyways I think I have save up alot for a year,and it can take me for about 2 years or more,so I guess I should do what I always wanted to do,LIVE"

"you can do this"

"when my best friend died,I felt like shit,and I left home with rose,it got so bad that I almost died and attempt suicide twice,both in which she was the one who saved me,the second time she screamed at me, saying I should at least live for her, because she can't take it,if I leave her in this shitty world,I started living for her,and people might think it's cringe,but that's what got me going for a long time,I want to live for myself right now,and let her know she shouldn't be afraid of losing me"

"you have being really trying so hard,you are doing so well"

"I think I hated myself,for being a burden to her,she must have felt fucked up,losing Jenn,they were childhood friends,I just joined,them and most of the times when I felt like the third wheel,they apologize and were so careful on everything to make sure I don't feel left behind"...

"I'm sorry for talking much,I think I should stop "

"no,I think you are finally trying to heal,and to do that,you have to be able to say all the things you have being holding in your mind for a long time"

"you will make a great therapist" I said as I looked at him and got closer to him,len in for a kiss,I shouldn't be doing that,but maybe this is first rule I should break,just be so loose.

he kissed me back,thank goodness,if not I would feel like a creep,we gently got in so deep,he brought a tent which we have set up,he carried me in his arm,while kissing me,inside.

we made our way to the floor,with him dropping me off,and pulling his shirt,yes I don't have to do that,I pulled my shirt and he unhooked my bra,his mouth made way to my breast as he sucked my nipples,and you the other hand to rub my second breast,it felt so good.

I immediately put my hand in his short, holding his dick,meh it's so big,he made me wet,so imma return the favour.

I pull his short,hold his dick,and suck it,so hard,I could see the way he react to it and that made me so happy.

rubing my spilt in his dick,made him so wet and then,we are up for the next challenge,the real deal.

I was wearing short skirt, thank goodness,he pulled it off so quickly together with my panties.

his dick slowly enters me,I scream a little,he got up and ride me so hard,that I felt good and shout fuck so many time.

I bend over and he fucked me from the back,oh my gosh,it felt so good.

we was about to cum,and he quickly pulled out.

that was insane,we went outside to the river and bathed there,while kissing.

*next morning*

we both wake up,got dress.

"yesterday was fun" he said.

"yeah,it was" I added.

what are we,I question myself,just friend though right?

fight don't fuck each other,who told you that,I was having this inner Convo with myself.

I guess he saw that and ...."should we talk about what happen last night?I don't want things to get weird between us"

"uhmm,I just wanted to know what we are,fucking doesn't mean we love each other"

"and it doesn't mean,we are using each other " he added.

"this is the second time we are meeting,and this already happen, it's crazy " I said smiling.

"let's see how things will turn out to be, let's take things slow "

bitch we already fuck,how slow can things get,I don't need to let things like this out.

"okay" I replied,"see you around " I got up and leave.