chapter 2

The door I stepped on was partially open. Is he here? My mind is full of questions.

So I slowly opened the door.

My eyes widened at what I saw.

Scattered women's underwear and bra and my husband's suit, I know it belongs to my husband.

I also heard some noises from the bedroom

No it can't be he's not

He can't do this to me

My heart beats fast, I stop myself from overthinking

Because I trust my husband a lot

because I know he can't do what I have in mind

As I got closer to the bedroom, the growling I heard got louder and louder

I cover my mouth and prevent myself from making any noise, but my eyes are treacherous because the tears I keep from escaping keep flowing.

In front of me are two people who enjoy sex

"Won't your wife know?"

I couldn't bear to watch their cheating and swindling, so I hurried to leave as tears continued to flow from my eyes.

But before I could get away, I heard what Theo said that shook my entire being.

"What if she finds out? Is there anything she can do. Besides I'm planning to divorce her"

How did you do this to me Theo?

With each step of my feet there is a weight on my whole body

I tried to walk to the restroom and when I got in, it was immediately locked

That's when my tears fell, almost blocking my chest from the pain in my heart

"Why are you doing this to me, Theo, am I still lacking?" I said and shed my tears again

I'm like a crying child whose throat almost hurts from my sobbing

I know I can't give you a child, but is that reason enough for you to cheat on me?

Tears just kept flowing in my eyes

It hurts,

But I have to be a martyr

If I could forget what you did, I would have done it

I came home early to cook Theo a new dish, I hope he likes it.

I tried to deny the facts that my own eyes witnessed.

That's not true I convinced myself.

While cooking, I heard Theo's car arrive, so I immediately set the table and put plates, spoons, rice and dishes on it.

I smiled because he still came home to me.

When he entered, I immediately greeted him, I was about to kiss him on the cheek, but as I expected, he avoided it. So I felt a needle in my heart.

"How are your meetings? Have you eaten? I cooked for you" I asked him one after another

"I've eaten, just throw it away" he said coldly

"But I worked hard for it, taste it at least a little" I insisted

"I'm full dmn it" he said cheaply

I was surprised, but I immediately got over it, and smiled at him.

I immediately took the plate and spoon to pour it on him but he threw it away and angrily looked at me with disgust in his eyes

The corners of my eyes are hot hahaha it hurts.

"DON'T YOU HEAR ME SERENE? DID YOU BECOME DEAF TOO? HAHA I THOUGHT YOUR DISABILITY WAS JUST NOT GETTING PREGNANT" he shouted which surprised me

"Get out, don't show your face in front of me because I don't want to see it".

He pushed me at the same time, so I fell down and hit my head on the end of the table.

The pain in my heart thunders from the painful words he throws at me, to expose my shortcomings

I couldn't do anything but bend down and stop the sobs and tears that wanted to come out.

I can feel the blood flowing in my head, I can't feel the pain, because there is nothing greater and equal to the pain I feel now.

It hurts to love Theo, I whispered to myself

"S-sorry, take a rest". I looked up when I said that, but he just looked at me coldly with hatred in his eyes

It's like I'm a huge mistake He's made in his whole life, and I laugh with that.

He loves me I know that,

He told be he love me, I put it in my mind and immediately remembered our happy past, I couldn't stop smiling.

Maybe that's all I can hold on to, he loves me, Yes he loves me. He can't crush me that hard.

I stood up even though it was difficult

I picked up the pieces of the broken Plate.

When I finished, I went straight to the guest room, Yes, to the guest room because he began to treat me coldly.

I volunteered to change rooms, because I knew even if he didn't say it.

I know it seems like I was a big mistake in his life.

I hugged myself while whispering.

'I hope that when I wake up tomorrow, all the painful events of today are just a dream'

Days passed and he still behaved coldly, he often got hot when he saw me

Not a day goes by that he doesn't hurt me physically and emotionally,

He always blames me for my shortcomings.

I understand him again and again even though it hurts, even though he kills me again and again with his painful words.

Because I love him so much I tried to forget the betrayal that I witnessed face to face.

Most of the night he comes home at night smelling of alcohol and full of red marks

On her neck and clothes, she also smells like a woman.

I bit my lip

Prevented from sobbing

How long will he make me feel that he doesn't love me anymore?

How long will I put up with what he is doing?

The pain is very painful

I don't know what sin I did to God, and why he gave me such a painful punishment.