Crush

CHAPTER 11 | Crush |

I shook myself, it's four in the morning when I wake up already. It's too early but I can't bring myself to sleep again.

I bit my lower lip to stifle my smile, I still can't move on from what happened yesterday. It was really traumatizing but the feeling of having Prine beside me during that time gives me a different feels.

He save me again for the nth time! He gave me food and he even put me on board! It was a really romantic scene, I always felt like I was the star of a teenfic movie.

I realized to myself that I was like crazy now suppressing my smile, I looked around my very spacious room, only the lamp shade on the side table was the only open light. My mind is dark but wide open.

No one else was watching so I let go of my smile, I crushed Prine! I have a crush on him!

I feel like a butterfly has flown into my stomach! I took the pillow and covered my face. I was irritated by the thrill I felt so I couldn't stop myself from throwing my pillow.

My luck was lucky because my crush saved and freed me! I couldn't really sleep so I just got out of bed. I stretched my arms before walking to my study table.

I turned on the light on the study table and began writing in my diary. I scribbled there what happened yesterday, and what I feel now, then I put a date and signature.

Because I woke up early and I was also able to prepare for school early, Tine was even shocked to see me ready when she knocked on my door for breakfast.

"I expected you not to come in now ma'am." Tine said politely while preparing my breakfast in bed.

"Huh! Why?" I wondered the question, Tine turned to me as if she couldn't believe what I said.

He shook his head at me, "ah no ma'am." I smiled sparingly at him.

"Let's eat Tine," I offer her.

"It's over ma'am,"

"Si, mommy is already gone?" I asked him, I don't know when mommy will find out that it was lost, or should I say my wallet was stolen. I was ready to rationalize myself for how I lost my wallet.

"She's gone, ma'am." After I ate and brushed my teeth I immediately went downstairs. This morning I'm sure I'll be ahead of the early bird, Mae or maybe Lian who is being found diligently today. I don't know but I feel like that one has a crush, it's either our schoolmate or maybe our classmate. Lian has always worked as hard, before he was just like me chilling in his studies but now he is persistent, is it because we're graduating students or does he really have a crush?

"Good morning ma'am," the rather young driver greeted me. My forehead furrowed because he was not familiar with me.

"Ah, good morning, brother," I politely said. "Where is he, man?" What I am referring to is my driver always delivering and following me.

"You don't know ma'am? He's been fired." Suddenly my eyes widened.

"What?!" I shouted in shock, my new driver smiled shyly at me.

"Why?" I asked worriedly, as we headed to school. Isn't it my fault? Why would mommy fire him?

"I don't know ma'am,"

"You don't know," I muttered. The whole trip, I only remember manong, it's just the weird thing about this day.

Yes, it's weird because I already crushed Prine, but I feel something else.

Kuya Ryan has not been able to park yet. Name of my new driver. I saw Lian and Mae in the parking lot. I'm surprised that they're early now, I thought I would be the first to go to school this time.

I suddenly remembered my cellphone, it was lowbat and I forgot to e-charge last night. It's a low bat now so I didn't bring it.

"Are you okay? You have a wound?"

"Why did you take a jeep! You know it's dangerous for you."

"Rose, you have a driver, don't you? I hope you called me yesterday!"

"We were only 7eleven, brother Mike then didn't you see us? I hope we just took you on board." I looked around at my two estranged bestfriends.

"Wait, chill guys! I'm fine, I'm fine. How did you know that?" Lian sighed and then they suddenly hugged me.

"We're worried about you ah!" I'm almost out of breath, Lian. I hugged them back.

"How did you know that?" I asked again.

"How can we not know that the video went viral when the hold-up happened yesterday!" Mae sighed as she released to hug me.

My eyes widened, "what video?" I shout.

Lian and Mae looked at each other. "It went very viral yesterday, it was on the news! You were so caught up in the camera because the vi-video was just in front of you!" I suddenly remembered my fellow students in the jeep.

They let me watch the video and I was clearly there, like a child who just a little push will cry. The video was cut and did not detail everything that happened. Even the focus of the gun on me was also hit, the trauma barely returned to me.

"Oh gosh," I continued to talk at school that day. I'm hopeless, I'm sure mommy already knows what happened. So maybe he lost his job, man, I'm sorry for what happened. I did something wrong again.

"It's too much of a novel to keep hold-up."

"It's his fault, he's too proud of the jewelry so the holdapers got it." I was just shaken by other people's opinions.

Why is that, I was the one who got hold of it and they even took advantage of me to blame it. I just ignored it, I knew I couldn't do anything to fix their brain.

And like what they said, I'm not cheap, I also don't shoot cheap ones like them.

"Stop me, I can slap that," I whispered to Mae who was almost breaking the spoon she was holding.

"Ayy gorra! I won't stop you." Another one, Lian. "Let's go alone Mae, yours is my left and my right. What game?"

"Lian stop that, just leave them alone. They care for my welfare so they say something." I smiled sarcastically.

"What did they care? They don't care, they envy you!" Correction by, Mae. I appreciate my bestfriends so much, but it's not good if we pick a fight.

I looked around the Cafeteria, hoping I could see him but nothing. I sighed, wanting to see him with my eyes.

When I got home, I expected mommy to be gone but I was wrong. When I arrived, he was already waiting in our living room, sitting pretty and with elegance on his usual work attire. Obviously he just got back from work.

I'm still confident to go home thinking that maybe I'll cook later, mommy or maybe she won't be able to scold me anymore, they totally don't have time for me. But here is my mom, just sitting on the sofa as if I want to go back to school again for fear of her.

"Mom," my voice shakend. She then looked at me with dagger eyes.

"I'm already fixing the mess you made Serene!" Her voice thundered, I barely even jumped.

"Mommy I'm sorry, I just want to try to ride a jeep that's why I did it. I didn't expect it would happen and it would turn that way." I was quick to explain.

"You want to ride a jeep?" She laughed at me mockingly as if it were worthless and very low when I aspired. "I hope you told me darling, I wish I had bought you a jeep!" I close my eyes emphatically.

With the money I have, I can afford to buy that! But my mom don’t get it, what I want to experience is the feeling of being crowded, the feeling of having to struggle to commute, I want to experience things that are different in my ravish life.

"Mom I'm sorry," I said simply. Arguing with her will be no sense and a waste of her time.

"Remember Serene, you have an image to take care of. Gosh embarrassing! The lone heiress of NCMC was holdup in the jeep! Do you know how much it can ruin your image? Our image ?! What will people say Serene? That we can't afford having you a driver and a body guard so you perished in that jeep? "

I just bowed while preaching, I'm on the edge of crying but I tried so hard to hold back my tears.

"And what if more than that happened to you? What if your face was injured or worst of all you were raped!"

"I'm sorry mom, I promise I won't repeat it." Mommy sighed and came over to me. She grabbed my two shoulders, after carresing my shoulder she held my chin and guided it to her eyes.

"You always remember to take care of yourself Serene. Remember, your engagement is near, the man we will marry you should like you. Maintain a good image so that he can like you easily."

I didn't feel like sitting in front of my study table, I was dumbfounded as I thought about what mommy said to me.

He didn't even greet me if I was okay with my traumatic experience. Instead he is more concerned with my image and face, with the impression of my soon -to -be fiancé!

Engagement ...

Marriage ...

I'm not ready for that yet, but what can I do? I'm Rona Serene Norriente, the ravish life I'm living? Everything has a replacement.

I was just shaken, I picked up my diary and wrote all my feelings there, hoping I could keep in the diary all the pain I was feeling.

Weeks passed by so fast, my usual things stays the same. I thought that when mommy mentioned about the engagement the next day, they would introduce someone right away. It's good and nothing. Everything stays the same, my friends, the bully, and this infatuation I felt towards Prine.

I'm enjoying this feeling so much, when I see him the joy of my heart. My eyes are always looking for him and I am always nervous t'wing see him.

He also always makes me smile, I can only see his face one day I am reassured. Even if I can't talk to him, I'm fine as long as I can see him, I'm happy.

He always messes with my mind, at night before going to bed as well as in the morning waking up! I've had a crush before but Prine is very different from me.

It's just that he's very rude and doesn't know how to chew.

"Ma'am Serene!" My eyes widened and I quickly turned off my computer monitor.

“T-tine come in,” I act normally. I was nervous there, I thought he would find me stalking Prine.

"These are your clothes."

"Just put it down there," I smiled nervously at him. When he came out I caught my breath. I was too guilty there.

I looked at my computer, I was stalking Prine earlier. On Tweeter, Instagram, Facebook, even Goggle! He doesn't have much of a picture, whether he's always serious or formal while frowning.

I reached back and the bimpo rubbed my back. We just came from PE class so I'm sweaty. I'm going to the common bathroom of our floor today because my stomach suddenly hurt. I checked my period tracker and I knew I would have it now.

"Prine please! It's okay oh you just agreed to date!" My eyes widened when I heard the name called.

I suddenly panicked because I heard the name of, Prine. My eyes widened and I immediately thought of running away. I no longer knew what I was doing, I suddenly ran into the bathroom. My eyes widened when I realized it was the male bathroom I had entered! Fortunately and no one!

Wait, why did I run? It was too late for me to run inside the mens bathroom.

"Prine please!" My eyes widened when I heard that voice approaching here. Come in, Prine in the bathroom! I also hurried into the cubicle and locked it.

I just put my hand over my mouth, I was so bitten on the lip in embarrassment I was doing.

"What are you doing Rose," I softly muttered to myself.

"Please Prine you agreed, my mom will be glad to see you."

"It's Lorra's man's bathroom!" Singhal ni, Prine to him. The woman seemed to follow him all the way to the bathroom.

"I don't have a pake Prine, please agree oh. You used to agree, didn't you? Why not now?" My eyes widened. Who is this woman ?!

"Lorra will you please shut up? It's annoying that you're being clingy, you're lowering yourself too much. You're acting desperate Lorra don't do that to yourself." I felt sorry for him, I couldn't believe what Prine said.

I only realized when the bathroom door slammed shut. Anyway, Prine has a point.