Chapter 5

Chapter 5

Colton’s pov

It’s funny how things can change in an instant. One minute your happy, the next your hurting. Wondering how things could change so fast. I was so hurt hearing that Colby was gone. I didn’t mean to push Joslyn away, but I needed time to myself. I needed to call his family. They should hear this news from me.

I wanted them here, so we can plan out what to do next. He of course would be buried with honors like any good firefighter. I went in to his room to say goodbye to him. Seeing him like that tore me up. I should be the one laying there not him.

I want to find whoever did this and make them pay. I wondered if this fire was tied into the others. There has been a string of them lately. Whoever this monster was he has now killed my brothers.

Before they were small, and no one got hurt. It was as if this arsonist knew what he was doing. It made me wonder who it could be. Was it a fellow firefighter? No, it couldn’t be one of us. We would never put anyone in danger. We did this job to keep people safe.

Maybe Joslyn coming to work at the firehouse wasn’t such a good idea. I wanted her to be safe. I hoped my pushing her away didn’t upset her. I just needed to clear my head and make a phone call I never wanted to make. Hearing Colby’s mother cry ripped my heart out. He was an only child, and family was everything to them. Now they were on their way here to lay him to rest.

Life was just cruel. He was a good man. Now because some pyro he was taken from this world to soon. All I felt right now was anger. That’s why I had to be by myself. I don’t want anyone to see me like this. I felt so weak.

I know Colby wouldn’t want me to be alone right now. So, I went to the one person I needed. I knocked on the door hoping it wasn’t too late. When Joslyn answered the door, I didn’t say anything I just pulled her into my arms.

I felt free of the pain when I held her close to me. She was just what I needed. I was in love with this girl, and I needed to make her mine. She looked at me and smiled as she pulled me into her place and shut the door.

“I was so worried about you.” She said.

“I’m sorry beautiful I needed to be alone, so I could call Colby’s parents. I didn’t want you to see me like that.”

I looked down feeling sadden that she had to worry. I didn’t mean to put all this stress on her. I hated seeing how sad she looked. I could tell she had been crying and that hurt me.

“You’re here now and that’s all that matters. Come on fire man you need to get some sleep.”

She pulled me into her room and I held her close to me. This felt so right. There was no way I could let her go now even if I tried. She not only stole my heart, but she worked her way into my soul. I needed her like the air I breathed.

Now I just had to keep her safe while there was a mad man on the loose starting fires. I couldn’t handle it if I lost anyone else I loved. Tonight, I would hold her in my arms, and enjoy this.

Tomorrow I would have so much pain to face. I wasn’t ready for it, but with Joslyn by my side I felt strong enough to endure this pain. I was so thankful I had her. I wish things could be different that we weren’t getting together in the middle of a tragedy, but I know she gets this world I live in. That makes things easier.

Joslynn’s pov

Pulling Colton in my room with me should have freaked me out, but it didn’t. He needed to sleep. Tonight, I would hold him, so he can get just that. He looked like a scared little boy looking for answers.

Colby was the reason he was a firefighter. They may not have been blood, but they were still brothers. The thing that bothered him the most is that someone intentionally started the fire. I don’t see how someone could be sick enough to do that. I guess this person has set several fires all over town. This is just the first one that has caused any harm. The others were minor. That was scary to think about.

Once I knew Colton was asleep I slipped out of my room, so I could call and check on Neal. Lacey said he was sore, but he should be able to go home in a week or so. But he wouldn’t be able to go back to work for some time. With everything going on with this arsonist I was glad he couldn’t work.

I hung up with Lacey and went back into my room. Colton looked so peaceful sleeping. I was scared that I was falling to fast for him. I mean yes, we have talked for a while on line, but we just recently met in person. And I was already falling in love with him. I don’t know what I would do if he got hurt.

I have been around firefighters for a long time, and the danger of the job never bothered me until now. I didn’t like that. I didn’t want to be one of those women that worried every time he left me. This was what he loved to do. Being a firefighter was what made him so amazing. I just really hope they catch this arsonist soon. Then maybe I wouldn’t worry so much.

Colton stirred in his sleep and pulled me into him. Being in his arms felt so right. It’s as if they were made to hold me. I smiled at that thought. This man could have any woman he wanted, and yet he chose me. I have never been happier than I am right now.

He could have gone anywhere tonight. He could have spiraled out of control, but he didn’t. He came to me. That meant more to me then he will ever know. The fact that when he was in pain he turned to me. No one has ever made me feel more loved. That in its self is scary. I want to follow my heart, and just go for it, but I’m scared. I have always lost everyone I have ever loved. Will Colton be any different?