Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Colton’s pov

Joslyn was a truly amazing woman. She stayed right by my side. I found out that three good men in Neal’s firehouse lost their lives tonight. My heart feels so heavy. That’s three families that will forever be changed. It’s times like these that I wonder if I am doing the right thing. But all I have ever wanted to be was a firefighter. I knew nothing else.

I still haven’t heard anything about Colby, and it was driving me crazy. Why isn’t there any news on him? My captain was angry as hell. He kept demanding to know what was going on. Little by little everyone in the waiting room left. Now there was just a few of us waiting to see how our lives would be changed.

Fire is such an ugly thing. It destroys so much. To hear that tonight’s fire that damaged so much was intentional had me seeing red. Who could do something that that?

Joslyn kept trying to get me to calm down, but she was just as angry as I was. She was going to be an amazing paramedic. My captain said she has a job with our firehouse if she wants it. He was impressed by how calm so was through all of this.

A few more doctors came out to talk to other families and told them good news thankfully. Maybe everything was going to be fine. Colby was strong. There was nothing that could bring him down. He was going to kick my ass for freaking out like I am.

Although I know if the tables were turned he would be here freaking out wanting to know how I was. In all honesty I should be the one here not him. It was my shift he was working.

I wanted to take out Joslyn, so he told me he was covering for me. I laughed because I didn’t even ask him. I guess from all the talking I have done about her he already liked her. He told me a woman like here only came around once in a lifetime. He is so right.

I am glad I went on that date. I just can’t help feeling guilty about him being there. The doctor really needs to let me know he’s okay, so I can tell him all about my amazing date.

A doctor came out asking about Colby’s family. I walked over to him when he gave me the news I feel to my knees. My best friend, my brother was gone. They did everything they could to save him, but his injuries were just too bad.

A world without Colby in it wasn’t a good place. He did so much for everyone. I can’t deal with this right now. Joslyn tried to hold me, but I pushed her away. I needed to be alone right now. After all it was my fault my best friend was now dead.

Joslynn’s pov

I had to remember that the only reason Colton was pushing me away was because he was hurting. I couldn’t take it personally. He needed to be alone to deal with what has happened. As much I wanted to be there for him right now I couldn’t. He would come to me when he needed me. For now, I had to be patient.

I didn’t want to lose him. After hearing how much Colby meant to him I knew he was feeling nothing but guilt. He was supposed to work tonight instead he was with me. I was glad he was with me, but I am sad about his friend. No one should ever have to deal with this kind of loss.

Knowing someone intentionally caused this makes me angry. I hope they catch this arsonist before he strikes again. Too many good men lost their lives because of a cruel act.

I went home and took a long shower. I was beyond exhausted, but I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t stop thinking about the look of pain on Colton’s face. I hoped he didn’t do anything drastic. Some people make really huge mistakes when they are in pain. I just wish he would let me be there for him. I wanted to help him.

I care a lot for him. I mean I had already fell for him while talking on line. Now that I have seen him it just sealed the deal for me. He is truly an amazing man. The way he was tonight made me want him that much more. He helped so many families tonight. He was trying to comfort them and find out all the information he could for them. He was one of the good ones. I didn’t want to lose that. He made me feel special for the first time in my life.

I started to cry when there was a knock on my door. I went to answer it, and saw a soaking wet Colton standing there. He didn’t wait for me to say anything he just pulled me into his arms. I held him as he fell apart.

This beautiful man could have went anywhere tonight, but he came to me. I knew in this moment that he had my heart. I was in love with my firefighter.