Chapter 8

Chapter 8

CeeCee’s pov

I can’t believe he’s really here. That he actually came all the way here for me. That had to mean something right? I just couldn’t stop crying. I turned away to pull myself together. It was silent, so I thought Hunter may have left until he pulled me into his arms. A part of me wanted to push him away, but it just felt to damn right and I was to weak to do that.

“Hunter what are you even doing here? You shouldn’t be here. Please just go. There is nothing for us to say to each other.”

I walked away from him because I couldn’t say what needed to be said while he was holding me in his arms. I just wasn’t that strong. I loved him so much. This was killing me. It hurt so much. This is the whole reason I left. We just couldn’t be together. I could no longer be with a man that was ashamed of me. I deserved better than that.

“I’m not going anywhere. Not yet any way. There is still a lot of unanswered questions between us.”

“Look Hunter I am exhausted and don’t have time for this. I just can’t do this now please just go.”

“If I leave here that’s it. It’ll be final. We will be over, and you’ll never see or hear from me again. Is that what you truly want CeeCee?”

“I don’t know what I want anymore Hunter and I don’t think it really even matters anymore.”

“Did you ever truly love me?”

“Hunter, of course, I love you so much. How can you even ask me that? I think it’s me that should be asking you that.”

“Then why did you leave me?”

“Because I was tired of being some dirty little secret. I couldn’t be with a man that was ashamed of being with me anymore. Being with you was just breaking me. I had to lie to everyone. That was no way to live.”

He looked as if I just hit him. I guess the truth hurts. His face scrunched up in so much pain. It felt good to finally get this all out in the open. I was tired of hiding everything in. I didn’t care anymore it was time he heard exactly how bad he hurt me. He needed to know how I felt. How his actions affected others and destroyed us. It’s not all about him and he needs to realize that.

“CeeCee I swear I only kept you a secret to protect you. I was never ashamed of you. I was scared that it would all be to much for you to handle and that you would only end up leaving me. I guess that happened anyway.”

“I know I shouldn’t have just took off like I did I should have talked to you first and told you how I was feeling instead of holding everything in until it got to be too much.”

“No this isn’t on you. It’s all my fault. I never once stopped to ask you how you felt about all of this. I hated always being away from you and hiding that I had an amazing girlfriend that I actually quit modeling. I just couldn’t do it anymore.”

“I never once asked you to do that. I just didn’t want to be kept a secret.”

“I know you didn’t. I was just so tired of it all. I wanted something more for my future. For our future. I just wanted to be with you.”

I walked over to him and looked up into his face. I could see nothing but honesty. If we had talked earlier all of this could have been prevented. I never should have left like that. Now everything is so messed up.

“Look Hunter there’s something you need to know. I sort of told my father that when I got back he could pick the man I was going to marry. I was so hurt and only did that because I thought you didn’t want me. I’m so sorry.”

“Well then beautiful when we get back we will have to sit down with your family and explain everything. I will do whatever it takes to earn your father’s respect because I can’t have the love of my life marrying any man but me.”

“I’m not going through with it. When I do get married someday I want it to be because I’m in love with my future husband to be.”

“When I get home, I hoped that would have been there because I had a surprise for you.”

“I’m sorry I left like that. I just couldn’t face you. I was holding in so much pain I just felt I had to go. So, what kind of surprise was it?”

“For starters I bought you this.”

He handed me a red velvet box. It was a ring box. Could this be what I think it is? I opened it to see the most beautiful ring inside. Tears sprung to my eyes. This is the exact ring I had told him was my dream engagement ring. I can’t believe he remembered and that this is what he chose to give me.

I felt like such a cold-hearted bitch. He was going to ask me to marry him, and I messed it all up. He really did love me. I can’t believe I thought the worst of him. If he wanted to marry me then there was no way he could be ashamed of me, right?