chapter 3

You love Ayanna yet you're still making the same mistakes over and over again. You make him a fool. We make him a fool.

"I know." no emotion I say. "But you also know there's no secret that can't be revealed, Blake. The day will come when everything we do to Ayanna will also come out."

It was there that he looked away. He pulled out a chair and then sat down.

"I know this situation is complicated. But just wait for me to figure things out."

"Stop figuring things out. In order for this complicated thing to stop, we should also stop what we're doing. Simple as that."

It stunned and stunned me.

Say yes. Because if you don't agree, I'm scared for myself. Because I know if you go beyond, I will agree too.

Please Blake, you agreed.

"Abi ..."

"Think about it. Just think about it." I cut him off and stood up so that he could no longer speak.

"Where are you going?" he asked.

"I'll just get dressed." and with that I went straight to my room.

As I closed the door I leaned in there. Then suddenly, tears stream down my face. Like that conversation tears me apart.

Honestly, earlier I was restraining myself from hearing him say he loves Ayanna so much that he doesn't want her to be hurt by not telling her everything. It got me thinking, how about me? Have he ever think of everything I have to go through because of all these shit? How shallow is my vision of myself? How hard is it for me knowing that I have no one else to blame because I made this decision?

Why do I still love you, Blake? I should have known better.

I wipe my tears off my face and I get dressed. I haven't gone out yet because I washed first and dried so that he wouldn't notice me crying.

After that, I also went out. I caught up with him but he also stood up immediately.

"Sorry Abi. Ayanna called me to have dinner with her. Will you be okay eating alone?"

I gave him a smile. "Of course. I'm always okay alone." I'm always okay being the second option.

"Sorry."

"Don't be sorry. That's your girlfriend. You should be with her." I said without looking at him.

"Okay. Bye, I'll see you tomorrow." he took off his jacket and messes my hair before he left.

I just sat down and ate. But as I ate the food he cooked, I cried again.

You really are a fool, Abigail. You cry crying to someone who doesn't know how you feel.

Get a grip of yourself! Argh.

When will that right man come? I can't wait to give him all my love without him wasting it.

You came!

Abigail's POV

Jessi fetched me at my condo and we entered together. That's why I'm early for school now. We have a quiz, so I decided to study with her.

After studying, at exactly 8:30 we entered our class to take the quiz. It's a good thing I didn't fail this time.

After the quiz, miss discussed quickly and called us out before dismissal to announce something important.

"This is an announcement from our dean. We will be attending a Fire Prevention Campaign that will be held at University of San Sebastian this coming Saturday. This is not pre-requisite but for my class, I am expecting everyone to attend the said campaign . "

Not pre requisite, but he ineexpect. What logic is that miss? Char.

The whole class was making noise. Of course, it's the weekend. There are gimmicks like that.

"Keep quite." miss's reprimand. "There's nothing you can do, cause I will be grading your attendance to the assembly. No more further oppositions, because I won't accept it. Now class, dismiss."

We went out with nothing to say but the campaign. Sayang tulog eh, tapos aattend don di naman makikinig.

It's actually beneficial, but ofcourse we have been doing this for so many years. Since high school, up to here in college. Hopefully only in the first years. We are also in our second year, we should be exempted. *sigh*

"Me and Tristan have plans this Saturday, and now it's ruined." shrugged Jessi said.

"Me too."

It looked at me.

"Eut nanaman with Blake?"

My eyes widened as I looked at him and immediately struck him. You don’t really have a filter filter oh.

"Maybe someone can hear you." I rebuke here. "Then what are you, I'll go home with you, that's my plan." and I stared at it.

"I thought I'd run again." my eyes narrowed.

I should be affected by that, but I laugh at his term. Yugyugan really?

"Let's just go to the café. Shake it-este, let's eat." then it pulled me away.

When we arrived at the café, there were quite a few people eating so there seemed to be no seats.

So we roam around the whole caf. Until someone called us out. Jessi and I looked at each other and later we looked at each other when we saw who it was.

"Will you eat too?" Ayanna asks us.

Jessi and I both nodded.

"Come to our table. Blake and I are the only ones. There's still space for you both." then she suddenly grab my wrist so I even looked there.

Well, it's not new of Ayanna to be this clingy to me. But it became awkward to me since Blake and I started fooling around.

I mean, who would not feel uneasy if you need to act normal infront of your s*x friend's girl? I also feel that every time Ayanna and I touch my skin, my soul is burning in hell. Because I had to lie face to face with him.

"Ahm ... maybe we'll just eat outside." my recovery.

"Ha? It's still a hassle, will you still come out? It's just here. Order it and bring it to our table."

I bit my lower lip.

Am I really annoyed that he is so kind to me? It's really shocking, you speak badly sometimes Ayanna.

"It's not okay. We're not hungry yet."

"Huh?" astonishment of it. "Are you sure?"

"Sure. Isn't it Jess?" then I looked at her and gave her a agree-you look.

He rolled his eyes and sighed.

"Yes. We're not hungry yet."

Napanguso naman non si Ayanna. "All right. You said so. Then, see you guys around."

We just nodded.

After Ayanna left Jessi pinched me. I even screamed and when I looked at him his eyes narrowed.

"I am hungry." he insisted.

I just invited him outside and set him free. To stop making noise. Maybe later I'll bump into him again.

"Why are you avoiding Ayanna?" its introduction. "Between her and Blake, shouldn't you be avoiding Blake? Cause he's the one causing you to do the wrong things."

I swallowed the contents of my mouth first. "I'm still ashamed of you. That's why I'm avoiding you."

She tilted her head.

"You're ashamed of the person who doesn't know what you're doing. While you're not ashamed of the person who takes off your clothes? What's the logic?"

Here we go again. Why is he so quick to think of something that can be thrown at me that I can't answer right away? Then why is the fool always with what I say? Pota.

I sigh. "I already talked to him about it."