I can't decide

"Alina, we need to talk," he said, his voice cold.

I nodded, feeling a pit form in my stomach.

"I can't keep going like this," he continued. "You're always thinking about the Alpha king, always wondering what he's doing or what he's thinking. It's like you don't even care about me anymore."

"That's not true," I protested, but I knew in my heart that he was right.

"It is true," he said, standing up and pacing the room. "You're always defending him, even when he does so wrong. I don't understand it, Alina. I thought you loved me."

"I do love you," I said, standing up and walking towards him. "But there's something about Jacob that I can't ignore. I don't know what it is, but I just can't stay away from him."

"You can't stay away from him?" he repeated, his voice rising. "What does that even mean, Alina? Are you saying that you're in love with him?"

"I don't know," I said, tears streaming down my face. "All I know is that I can't stop thinking about him. He's always on my mind, and I don't know what to do."

"I can't do this anymore," he said, his voice breaking. "If you can't see that what you're doing is destroying our relationship, then maybe we should just end it."

He left the room, slamming the door behind him. I collapsed onto the bed, feeling like my world had just crumbled around me. I knew that he was right, that my growing fascination with Jacob was tearing us apart. But I couldn't help it. The pull toward the Alpha was too strong, and I didn't know how to resist it.

I'm tired with anything that happens in my life and I just laying in my bed, a sudden thought struck me. What if I was wrong about Jacob? What if he wasn't as amazing as I thought he was? What if I was just seeing what I wanted to see, instead of what was really there?

The thought both frightened and excited me. If I was wrong, maybe there was a chance for me and Blake after all. But if I was right, then the stakes were higher than I ever imagined. My heart raced as I realized that the tides had turned, and I didn't know which way they would go.

I started to pay closer attention to Jacob's actions and words, trying to see if there was anything that would make me doubt my infatuation with him. But each time I was near him, I felt my resolve weaken, and my heart beat faster.

I was sitting alone in the garden, lost in thought when I heard footsteps approaching. I looked up to see Jacob walking towards me, and my heart raced with anticipation.

"Alina," he said when he reached me. "May I join you?"

"Sure," I said, trying to keep my cool.

He sat down next to me, and we sat in silence for a few moments.

"I heard about what happened between you and Blake," he said, breaking the silence.

I looked at him in surprise. How had he heard about that?

"I'm sorry to hear that," he continued. "But I can't say that I'm completely heartbroken about it."

"What do you mean?" I asked, feeling a sense of unease.

"There's something between us, Alina," he said, turning towards me. "I can feel it."

My heart raced at his words, and I felt the spark of desire ignited within me.

"I don't know," I said, trying to keep my voice steady. "I'm still trying to figure things out."

"I understand," he said, reaching out to touch my hand. "But I want you to know that I'm here for you. Always."

His touch sent shivers down my spine, and I knew that I was in deep trouble. I was playing with fire, and I knew it. But the draw towards Jacob was too strong, and I didn't know if I had the strength to resist it.

Jacob and I grew closer. We would steal moments together whenever we could, and I found myself falling harder and harder for him. But guilt kept creeping in, and I couldn't shake the feeling that I was betraying Blake.

Jacob and I were walking in the garden when we saw Blake walking towards us. My heart stopped, knowing that this was not going to end well.

"Alina, we need to talk," he said, looking from me to Jacob. "Alone."

I nodded, feeling like a child being scolded by her parents.

"Blake, I can explain," I started, but he held up his hand to silence me.

"I don't want to hear it, Alina," he said, his voice cold. "It's clear to me now that you've made your choice. And I can't compete with the Alpha king."

I watched Blake walk away, I felt a sense of regret wash over me. My heart ached at the thought of losing him, but at the same time, I knew that I couldn't deny my feelings for Jacob.

"Alina," Jacob said softly, breaking the spell of my thoughts. "Are you okay?"

I turned to face him, tears streaming down my cheeks. "No, I'm not okay. I've hurt Blake, and now I don't know what to do."

"I'm sorry," Jacob said, placing a comforting hand on my shoulder. "But you can't change how you feel, Alina. You can only try to make things right."

"But how do I do that?" I asked, feeling lost.

"Talk to him, Alina," he said, looking at me with his intense gaze. "Explain how you feel, and try to make things right between you."

I nodded, knowing that he was right. I needed to talk to Blake and try to make things right between us. But the thought of facing him filled me with dread.

I went to Blake's room and knocked on the door. After a few moments, he opened it, his face cold and distant.

"Blake, can we talk?" I asked, hoping that he would agree.

He hesitated for a moment before nodding and stepping aside to let me in.