Chapter Four: Secrets

I stood there for what felt like an eternity.

They were long gone.

All that was left was the silence that was piercing through my ears. I didn't understand what had just happened.

So many questions were running through my head. What did this mean? Is it because I have Beta blood?

"Well that was unexpected" a voice spoke from behind me. When I turned around I found that it was Alpha Bessa. Her pack was one of the strongest in the east. She was a fierce warrior in battle. I could see it in her eyes had that she had so many questions for me.

Well get in line sister. I was confused myself.

“That was very awkward, don't you think Dawn? " She probed trying to get a reaction out of me. “Oh please leave the dear girl alone can't you see what just happened" her mate Alexander came to my rescue.

“No it's quite fine and it was not awkward at all " I kept my head high , shoulders squared. I wouldn't take crap from anybody not even her. I saw her eyes flash at the sign of a challenge but before anything could be done we heard the yells

and whistles of the pack's return from their run.

I excused myself from the pair and made small talk with the other Alphas. Everything was in place and the feast had begun.

You could hear the chattering of people everywhere.

I tried hiding from Xavier but failed miserably when I heard my name being called from a way too familiar voice that made me cringe.

This was way too soon. I didn't want the people to know that I was to be their Luna. And by what Xavier was about to do they would get a hint. I looked in the direction I was called and flashed a smile to Xavier.

Everyone was staring. They knew what was happening but no one spoke a word or dare question their Alpha.

I hated getting too much attention and Xavier knew that. I thought that I would get use to their stares but this was just too intense.

I have never felt this type of stares before.

Xavier stood up to his full height to cover me from their stares. We sat at the head table, I sat on his right. As we sat I felt his large hand land on my lap where my hand was and held it tight in a show of comfort.

No one seemed to notice that I was not on the run with them which left me puzzled. I had so many questions for Xavier and my father. I was lost in thought when I felt Xavier pull me closer to him.

He was staring at me but I didn't want to look at him. I felt a blush rush to my cheeks. I had a mate out there and here I was in another male's arms to make things worse my best friend's arms.

The whole time I could feel the burning gaze from Xavier. I acted like it didn't affect me but I was squirming inside. I didn't even eat a lot but I was thankful that this ceremony was over.

I excused myself from the table and made my way back to my parent's house. I could feel him the whole way behind me.

When I moved faster he was behind my trail like hotcakes. We reached the porch and I finally had the courage to turn around and face him.

It was dark by now but I could still see his forest green eyes. He always brought my guard down. Does he feel like I do when he looks at me like that?

I didn't want to feel this way, I was betraying my mate. As if he knew what I was feeling he moved closer and wrapped his arms around me. We stood there in silence.

"You know I need you to go through this with me because without you all of this will mean nothing to me"

How could he say such a thing, didn't he care about his pack. Although his words touched me there was this little voice nagging me to ask what he meant by that.

I remained silent. I couldn't hide my emotions from him and all of the things that happened today hit me hard. How could they take away my position just like that and expect me to be happy.

I hated how they just dismissed me like that like I wasn't good enough. Well I am good enough and I would not be manipulated like that ever again.

I felt the same rage rising consuming my whole body until I felt a pair of hands touch me and I knew it was Xavier. It calmed me down instantly. How could this be happening we were not even mated yet. Only mated couples could calm each other down that quick. What we had must be very strong.

" I don't understand why I didn't shift when you commanded ,tell me why no one asked why I was not beside them in the run, Why were they staring at me like that" the words rushed out of my mouth and with every word more questions and doubt filled in my mind.

“Calm down D, just breathe ok. I should have explained this earlier but since we are mates now we are equals. I can't control your wolf all the time because she considers my wolf and I as a mate. And since when do you care what people say or think about you?" His words made sense but I still felt uneasy about the whole situation.

"Yeah you're right; I don't know what overcame me. It's just this happened so fast and I am still getting a hang this " my voice sounded so different like it was not mine.

“You don't have to worry about that D; I know you will be a great Luna to the pack" with those words said he gave me a quick kiss on the forehead but lingered a bit too long.

"You are such a beauty and I am grateful that I am going to spend the rest of my life with you" he kissed me again leaving a trail of kisses down to my neck. It's like he was trying to distract me from more questions and it worked.

I could look forward to this for the rest of my life. I truly did love him and I would do anything for us to be together.

After we had our little talk and fooled around a bit, Xavier went home reluctantly and I went straight to my room. It felt like no one was living in this room. All my stuff were gone.

Xavier is hiding something I just had a feeling and I was going to find out what it was.

I still had a lot of questions but I had to uncover them myself.

I didn't want to go home with Xavier tonight I just needed some space but tomorrow I was officially moving into our new house. I haven't seen it yet but he said it was amazing.

The Luna ritual was coming up in two weeks. I had to be ready. This new role was a challenge and I was welcoming it with wide arms.

If this was my new path, to help my pack and be with the male I loved then I would do it. But still the voice in my head kept on nagging me about how wrong my choice was.