5: (S)APPY

(S)hock was written all over your face as the words that left his lips just registered. “I don’t-- understand,” you sounded dumb but you needed to confirm.

“Be my girlfriend Y/N,” he said looking at you closely.

Honestly, you were anxious like hell inside, thoughts of commitment scare you, and having an actual real boyfriend was no different.

But you couldn’t abnegate the fact that you also want him, not just his body but him as a person, though he might be rough at times, you know deep inside that he’s a caring and nice person-- judging by the way he took care of those kids and how he looked at you softly from time to time.

Part of you wanted to accept but the bigger part was scared and thoughts of your broken family crept inside you like an old scar being cut open once again. Pushing aside negative thoughts, you focused on the moment instead as he rolled over to your side wrapping you with his strong arms so you were cuddled by him.

“I don’t know when or how-- but...” He sighed deeply. He didn’t care anymore, all the rational thoughts inside his mind became irrational, and maybe he was not thinking straight and maybe this was the most selfish decision he had made his entire life, but he needed to have you, he needed you in order to live and have the strength to go on with what’s he’s dealing.

You on the other hand had to make sure that he’s sincere, so you laughed at his bold words as you mumbled on his chest, “This so not the way you should ask someone out Jungkook.”

Nervous that you’d decline his offer, words cut out from his mouth when you actually just laughed at him, he pulled you by the shoulder so he could look at your reaction. You stared at him in return, smirking at the process as you seductively said, “Make me yours then.”

---

You didn’t know who’s more stupid, you for actually daring the guy, or him for actually taking the dare-- ’cause now you sat on your chair and eyes glued on you while you looked at the bouquet of flowers that laid still on your desk. Jungkook on the other hand was seated beside you as always, eyes staring blankly at the board ahead as if it’s the most fascinating thing he just saw.

’Roses are red,

Violets are blue

If you were a Pokemon

I’d choose you

JJK’

“Oh--. my--. God,” you bit on your lower lip trying your best not to laugh out loud, your gaze darted to him, you didn’t know if you should be mad at him for being so vulgar, but his corny-teeth gritting poem saved him.

Your eyes didn’t leave him and he could almost feel you bore a hole on him so he defended, “What? I like Pokemon,” he whispered still eyes on the board.

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He went on like that, not missing a single day of leaving gifts on your desk, flowers, stuffed toys, chocolates, and every time he’d put a note on it:

’Roses are red,

Violets are blue

You are my sunshine

And I love you

JJK’

’Roses are red,

Violets are blue

Sugar is sweet

And so are you

JJK’

You’d laugh at him every time, but won’t give any answer yes or no. The guy was persistent though.

’Roses are red,

Violets are blue

Seriously I’m out of words now

Just say yes already, will you?

JJK’

It was your foundation day at your college and lots of booths and programs were already set up on every corner.

You were roaming around the open field that was now filled with stands of foods and booths when your phone vibrated on your pocket.

Come to the theater hall now.

Reading the text from Jungkook you made your way to the hall only to find yourself in the middle of the floor full of students enjoying to the beat of the music being played by one of your school bands.

“Where the heck is that guy?”

The song ended and was replaced by a more dulcet tune. A guy’s sweet voice started singing a heartfelt song that created a chorus of ‘aawws’ from the audience especially the girl’s, some of them screeched at the site of Jungkook on stage as he sang beautifully with his eyes closed.

“J-jung...” Was all that you were able to say when he opened his eyes which landed immediately to yours. He slowly walked down the stage towards your direction at the middle of the floor, eyes fixed on his every move, mind went on circles as he eliminate the distance between you two.

People made a path for Jungkook towards you as gasps and awes sounded around the hall, but you couldn’t care less when Jungkook continued to sing, his voice swarmed on your head, his gaze melted your being and his hand brought electricity down your body when he finally reached for your waist in time for the song’s ending.

Your palms voluntarily landed on his board chest as his other hand went to your head pulling you as he placed a soft kiss on your forehead.

He lifted your chin so he could look at your already red face, his expression was serious and sincerity could be heard from his voice.

“I love you Y/N,” he said, “and I hope this is enough to prove just that,” and he leaned even closer brushing his lips to yours as if asking permission to proceed, you let out a shaky breath before tipping your toes to reach for his lips with yours engaging to a fervent kiss not minding the people around.

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“You’re crazy, you know that?” You said punching him on the chest as you both lay on your bed on your apartment, the program finally ended and Jungkook invited himself for a sleep over at your place since it’s the weekend tomorrow.

He hugged you even tighter, “I’m crazy for you,” he replied.

You giggled as you buried yourself on his arms, it felt too comfy around him, you felt safe and secured with him.

“What’s scaring you Y/N?” He suddenly asked out of the blue.

“Huh?”

“Something is scaring you to try,” he continued and he felt your body stiffened under his.

“You don’t have to tell me if you’re uncomfortable,” he assured you, his voice was so mild and caring you didn’t noticed that you were already sniffling as the tears erupted from your eyes. You were wrecked since childhood because of your parents braking up, and ever since then, you didn’t believe in love and thinking about the things you went through because of that, always made you vulnerable.

He drew circles on your back trying to keep you calm, “Sshh,” he hushed while he kissed the crown of your head.

“You see,” Jungkook started, “there are different kinds of love. Pure love, lustful love, puppy love, innocent love, unknown love, unconditional, selfish, secretive and lots and lots of more. There are those times when love was so fiery at the beginning but would lose its spark at the end, but if you’ll think of it, that is only a trial, and it depends on the lovers themselves if they’ll fight for it or not.”

You crumbled on his shirt that was already drenched with your tears.

“...there are also love that no matter how sincere or genuine it is, it would somehow end sooner, not because the love was gone, but maybe because of some circumstances.”

“Jungkook...”

Lifting up your chin until your face was only inches from him, he held your gaze while he beamed and maybe it was your eyes being blurry from the tears pooling on them but you thought you saw pain on his warm smile.

“Just remember that my kind of love for you is the kind that would last forever. That no matter what happens, you will always be here,” he gripped on your hand that was on his chest and pressed it even more. “I love you forever Y/N...”

He leaned to kiss you on the lips, tasting your salty tears as you sniffled through the kiss.