3: (E)XASPERATED / (E)NDEARED

(E)ntering the room, you let out a loud irritated sigh as you saw Jungkook shamelessly flirting with this one girl in your class, not that you cared or anything but it’s just annoying seeing her hand patting Jungkook’s thigh, like --girl I’ve already rode that how dare you touch that thigh?!!!

But you’re NOT jealous, really.

Being in the campus for some time now, you’ve heard about Jungkook a lot.

You’ve been told that he was known for being a playboy, that he could get into any girl’s pants in no time, and even though it was already known that he’d already slept with a lot of girls already, the girls in your campus still wants to flirt with him, and to get him in between their thighs for some unknown reasons.

Over the span of two months, you’ve already had sex with him for countless of times - inside the girl’s bathroom; inside the boy’s bathroom, by the piano on the music room; inside one of the utility rooms, and many other places you couldn’t remember anymore.

You’re not dating anyways, he has the freedom to do what he wants, to flirt with other girls or even have sex with them. So you just shifted your hips a bit making sure to hit that girl’s protruding butt as she leaned her arms on Jungkook’s desk, making sure he’d get a good view of her cleavage.

“Excuse me, you’re blocking the way,” you said sharply.

She almost hit her face on the table, so she stood up straight to face you.

“What is your problem bitch?!” She screamed right to your face.

“You were blocking the way with your f*cking butt,” you replied, eyes staring lifelessly on hers. “Look, if you want to flirt, try doing it elsewhere, people are trying to study here.”

“Guys--,” Jungkook stood up from his seat.

“Slut,” you spat out.

“What??!” The girl bellowed and slapped you right on the face so hard you tasted blood on your lips seconds later.

You stared at Jungkook, waiting for him to make a move, or to at least say something or do something but he just froze there instead.

“Did I miss something?” The professor ask as he entered the classroom, everybody went back to their seats as if nothing had happened, including you. Your cheeks were still burning and your lips were still bleeding, you kept your head down and tried to push back the tears that were threatening to fall.

“Y/N, are you alright?” Jungkook whispered, “you should have kept your nerves down, look what happened.” He continued.

You were seriously annoyed by the things he was saying, he’s making it sounds like it was your fault that you got slapped.

Okay, maybe it is, but not entirely, plus, you were just stating the truth, she really was obstructing the way.

“Were you jealous?”

And that was it, your legs automatically stretched as you stood up abruptly making the people in the room dart their eyes on you.

“Can I go to the clinic Sir, I’m not feeling well,” you said, still face down.

“Oh, sure Y/N,” the professor replied.

---

The nurse attended to your bruise, she let you rest for a while inside the clinic saying that she’ll be back in a few.

Moments later, you heard the door opening and closing and when you look to find out who it was, you were greeted by Jimin’s cute smile.

“Hey, are you feeling alright now?”

“Yeah,” you said smiling, “How did you--?”

“I went to look for you in your classroom and your block mates told me that you went to the infirmary, so here I am.”

“And why were you looking for me?”

“I heard that you were pretty good with playing the piano...”

“Where--?”

“I have my connections,” he said winking and you had to chuckle a bit.

“And?”

He sat beside you on the bed.

“So, maybe you could volunteer to teach some children at the orphanage next weekend?”

“Oh--.”

“It’s totally fine if you don’t want to, I’d totally understand.”

“What? No! I want to!” You said excitedly. “Please, I want to~,” you said as you leaned your face to him a bit. You smiled, you’ve always been fond children and being able to teach these kids something that you love makes your heart jump from excitement.

“Oh! Y/N, your lips,” Jimin noticed the shade of blood on the side of your lips, his hands deliberately went towards your cut just in time for the door to the infirmary swung open revealing Jungkook.

His mouth hung open for a split second before he started talking, “Woah, so you purposely went in here to f*ck? Huh?”

“Jungkook---.”

“You could have at least told me what you want, I could do the job much faster.”

You just couldn’t believe what you’re hearing from him, after what he did earlier, he’s making it seemed like you were the one who was being such a slut and all.

Jimin started to walk towards Jungkook, “Look, it’s not what it looks like, I was just--,” but he was close enough for Jungkook to throw a punch on him sending him to the ground. You immediately ran in between the two guys.

“What the f*ck Jungkook!”

“So, you have your new toy now?”

“What? You’re unbelievable! So you think you could flirt with other girls, and I don’t get to flirt with other guys?”

“I’m not flirting with her!”

“I’m not blind you idiot!”

He exhaled sharply, “You know what? You’re just my f*ck buddy anyways, so why am I even arguing with you,” and with that he just left.

“Y/N, I’m sorry, I didn’t know--,” Jimin started talking as he lifted himself up.

“Just... Forget about everything you’ve heard.”

---

It has been two weeks after that incident and you didn’t talked with Jungkook after that. Even if you sat beside each other, you just totally ignored each other’s presence.

You were kinda stressed out due to the thick air that would normally encircle you whenever Jungkook was around, but at least it was the weekend and you don’t get to go to school today but you still woke up early, excited to go straight to the orphanage.

“We’re going to perform at the end of the month Miss, I’m a bit nervous though, I don’t think I could learn that fast,” the ten year-old girl confessed.

You patted her shoulder assuring her, “Come on, it’s like you’re saying that I’m a bad teacher since I won’t be able to make you learn that fast,” you pouted.

“Oh, no Miss, it’s just that...”

“Sweetie, you’ll be great! You just have to trust yourself, okay?” You smiled at her, and a beam of light shined on her face as she smiled back.

You lost track of time as it was already lunch break but there you were still surrounded by the little adorable kids from the orphanage as you taught them how to play the piano. The kids were amazing, there were some that are really naughty but would still listen to you when you abruptly slam the keyboard and stared at them sharply. There were also these kids that are really into learning the instrument that they won’t leave your side and take in everything that you were saying, it was not hard to teach them, and you enjoyed their company too much that you didn’t noticed the young man who was standing by the door of the music hall, baskets of food on hand.

“Miss could please play a melody for us?” One of the kids asked.

“Please!”

“Yes, please miss~”

“Pleaseeee.”

The others echoed.

They were so cute and persistent at the same time that you had to grant their request.

So you close your eyes and started playing Chopin’s Nocturne Opus 9 number 2.

The kids suddenly fell quiet, and the wide hall with only the piano at the middle was drowned by the slow yet rich music by Frederic Chopin, this is one of your favorite piano pieces and your heart almost skipped a beat being able to play it once more. Fingers automatically glided to the keys like it was an extension of yourself, you kept your eyes closed savoring the beautiful melody of the piece. The melody was sweet like caramel on your tongue, like dew drops on a cold moonless night, peaceful and calming. But a touch of sorrow and grief could also be heard from it, it was serene yet chaotic, joyful yet sad, warm yet cold, and many other mélange of emotions that always made you confused but in a pleasing and senseful way.

“Woah! Jungkook’s here~” the voice of the little kid to your right brought you back to your senses.

The other kids had already run towards the guy by the door and started examining the baskets of food he had bought, others went to him straight hugging his torso, they looked so small and fragile compared to his size and it kinda made your heart flutter seeing him smile, this kind of smile he’s showing right now was different from the smile you usually see on his face, his eyes beamed as he kneel down just to envelop the little kids with his embrace.

“Come on miss let’s have lunch,” the ten year old girl from earlier said while she tried to pull you.

You stood from the chair but your feet won’t let you go any further.

“Uhmm--, no I’m fine sweetie, you go ahead,” you smiled at her, and without any second thoughts she went to join the others, you followed her through your eyes smiling, when your gaze ended up to Jungkook’s while he ruffled a little boy’s hair.

He smiled at you and bowed lightly, and only with that small gesture, you already could feel your face burning.

You looked beautiful, your hair being tied up into a messy bun, accompanied by that floral little dress you were wearing under an oversized cardigan-- not the usual mini skirt and tank top you’d normally wear. And he liked you better this way, you looked soft, cuddly and fragile all at the same time he just couldn’t took his eyes off you.

The little kids were starting to pull Jungkook towards and you had to grab hold on your skirt so you could have something--anything just to hold on to. You haven’t talked with him since the infirmary and you honestly didn’t know what to say to him. He was right that time, that you were just nothing but that, and you had to admit you were a bit hurt when he said that, but no matter what you do, you are nothing to him.

“Miss Y/N, this is Jungkook,” one kid introduced, “he always brings us food and play with us whenever he has time.”

“Hi,” he said, burying his eyes on you as he extends his hand for a shake. You took it and just the mere touch of hands on yours sent shivers to your whole body, you missed his touch and you just didn’t know what to do anymore when he suddenly kissed the back of your hand instead of shaking it. The kids around you both squealed and smiled and cheered as Jungkook lay a soft kiss on your hands never leaving your gaze.

“Are you crazy?” You let out in to a whisper, you could almost feel your cheeks burning even without you touching it.

---

It was a lot of fun playing with the kids and a lot easier to control them especially when Jungkook was around, but there were also times that he would act more childish compared to them and you just had to glare at his crazy actions.

9:35pm

The little boy was sleeping soundly on your lap while you caressed his soft hair, Jungkook was beside you as he did the same with another kid leaning on him.

“They are so sweet don’t you think?” He said breaking the silence.

You unknowingly smile while you looked around on the bed full of these little sleeping angels. “Yes.”

“Y/N.”

“Mmmh?” You replied, eyelids getting heavy and your head voluntarily fell on Jungkook’s shoulder.

“I miss you.”

And he really did, and spending time with you today together with the kids only made his heart beat faster for you, and he hated that he’s coming to realized that he’s falling, he can’t fall in love, he doesn’t have the right to.

He thought you didn’t hear him but you did, and you smiled faintly while you lay your head on his shoulder following the rhythm of his breathing until you fell asleep.