Chapter 8. The Romantic Proposal

On our way to the printing press, Sean was still curious about my sex life and about my relationship. I started to open up to him, it’s better than hiding something from him, but can I make him open up to me like I did?

“Sorry if I’m not what you imagined.” Suddenly I was nervous because I was worried that Sean didn’t like women like me, I was clumsy and not like women in today’s world who have a wide and free relationship. Sean smiled and that made me ask.

“Maybe that’s why you became my family’s ideal son-in-law candidate,” said Sean, there was a little pride in me, but why only the prospective son-in-law? Why not a future wife?

“I once had a serious relationship with a woman but failed, maybe we weren’t meant to be,” he said, I just listened quietly, not wanting to interrupt.

We arrived at our destination, after our business was finished, Sean took me to his office. All eyes seemed to judge me from head to toe as Sean and I entered the elegant skyscraper. As if understanding my nervousness, Sean pulled me closer to him.

“It’s a good thing you don’t have fans in this office, so I can breathe a sigh of relief,” he said as we were alone in the elevator.

“You don’t like my fans, do you?” I asked, Sean put his hands in his pants pockets.

“I have a problem with people being mean to other people,” he excused, I felt he was jealous but I still had my doubts about this assumption.

“I’m just trying to appreciate people who want to support me while I’m in my profession, for me fans are an important part for someone who has a job in Entertainment.”

I don’t mean to defend anyone, it’s just that I want to appreciate the people who have supported me all this time.

“After we get married, you don’t need your fans anymore,” he concluded in a tone that didn’t want to be disputed, the look on his face changed the atmosphere around me into an uncomfortable one, how serious is the impact the fans have on him? My Inner Goddess folded her lips into her mouth.

Sean held my hand as we walked out of the elevator. I love the warm grip of his hand and it protects my little hand. Sean introduced me to his secretary, and I felt disapproving of him having a female secretary.

“Could you change your secretary?” I asked as we entered his cozy study. Sean looked at me questioningly.

“Why? she is a competent person in doing his job.” Sean sat in his work chair while I sat on the sofa. I feel embarrassed, stupid and nervous at the same time, but I also have to put a rule here, after he wanted me to quit my profession and hate my fans, I felt I also had the right to neutralize my jealousy.

Wait a minute, am I jealous??

This is so embarrassing! My Inner Goddess blushed as she fanned her face gracefully.

“I think I have a problem with a female secretary led by a male boss like you,” I said as I folded my arms in front of my chest, I turned my face to look at one of my shoulders.

“Problems?? What problems can arise between the boss and the secretary?”

I feel stupid voicing my opinion, does he really not understand or is he trying to embarrass me by forcing me to admit that I’m really jealous?? My mood suddenly changed drastically, handsome master mood changer, this is very annoying.

“I’ve heard that the boss has an affair with his secretary,” I guessed.

“That’s ridiculous, Ariana.”

“That’s not ridiculous, I don’t want to have that problem in the future, what is the worst thing in a relationship besides betrayal?”

“You’re beautiful when you’re angry and jealous at the same time.”

Look, he teases me when I’m angry. How annoying is this, are men really like this?

“I’m not changing my secretary,” he concluded, and I was disappointed. I woke up feeling angry mixed with disappointment.

“Then don’t forbid me to meet my fans and leave my profession,” I said, then stepped out of the room that was no longer comfortable for me.

When the elevator door was about to close, I saw Sean trying to chase after me but in vain, the elevator had brought me down to the lobby. I don’t like it when I’m the only one who has to follow the rules. My feet took me to the bus stop not far from Sean’s office, my cell phone rang and I knew it was from him.

Why am I jealous?? Is it because he is also jealous of my fans?? But that’s just my assumption, but the signs are like jealous people.

I visited a cafe owned by a close friend, countless visits to this place, when I wanted to be alone and think about something, this place became my main choice. The cafe owner who is a tall man with a pleasant smile greets me, Eden always greets me with that smile when I come here.

“Wouw! Look, who’s coming, our dazzling future millionaire,” Eden exclaimed which made me roll my eyes, I knew he was mocking me.

“Where’s your future husband? Why don’t you bring him here?” Eden acted like she was looking for someone.

“He’s busy,” I lied, I immediately distracted him with my order.

Eden also accompanied me to talk, I always like to spill my thoughts on him.

“Women are very possessive of the man they love.”

I think he’s going too far to jump to conclusions.

“Me? Love him? Ed, we even just met a few days ago at that very sudden matchmaking event.”

Eden looks at me with his patient attitude, this is what I like about him he can be patient for me when I argue with him.

“You’re getting married, Ana, you must know that it’s no joke and you’re trying to take defensive steps because he’s the same way about you, you’re trying to make your relationship work later.”

I sighed and asked in my mind, why didn’t Eden become a psychiatrist and open a consultation service? I envy Carmen—his wife—who has a husband like Eden. The man’s cell phone rang, he begged to say goodbye to answer his cell phone call. Thinking back to Eden’s words, I totally agree, it’s true I tried to make our relationship work without any problems in the beginning, I tried to give a warning just like he did.

Eden returned, and we continued this serious conversation. I’m like consulting a psychiatrist right now, about how to understand a relationship and the behavior it causes.

“I know you feel you are not getting justice here, but try to understand, maybe his judgment is right, he knows better about the people he works with.”

“I’m trying to minimize the reproach for strangers trying to ruin my household, that’s all, I admit his decision for me to quit the world that raises my name is a solid assumption but isn’t it worth my request???!” I don’t know why I’m still trying to defend my actions.

“I think you have to look at it from all angles, you have to talk to him, you have to talk.”

Talk to him??! I’m prestige. A couple entered the cafe and several other diners, it gave me a long pause to think, while Eden was busy preparing food accompanied by a female and male employee. I stared out the glass wall, my first time in a relationship, a huge leap for me to not have to waste so much time dating, but I also felt this was a little rash. Without realizing it, Sean was sitting where Eden sat before, I was surprised when he looked at me with his gaze that always gave deep reactions to my soul.

“Are you still mad at me?” he asked, I nodded, maybe Eden was right, we should talk.

“I’m just trying to keep our relationship going with a little risk going forward,” I said voicing my thoughts.

“Me too,” he whispered, which surprised me. He has the same desire as me, my Inner Goddess is like a teenager who has just been given romantic words by a young man.

“I’ll try to consider your proposal, but you know, changing employees isn’t as easy as changing underwear, if he’s competent it’s going to be very difficult.”

Sean took my hand then held it, there was a seriousness in his eyes, and like a magic that made me want to do anything for this man.

“I want you, Ariana, more than you know, you’re like a new hope to me.”

I was taken aback, and the bubble of hope inside me slowly grew. I stared at his beautiful golden eyes, trying to find something to argue with, but something inside of me seemed to melt away, and a warm feeling slowly filled me.

“Marry me, Ariana.”

And I was like being showered by thousands of rose petals with a heavenly fragrance, a man I never even imagined his presence proposed and asked me to marry him, this is more than just listening to your lottery number being mentioned then getting the grand prize, all the debates that I had prepared just disappeared , and the offer became the solution to this problem.