Chapter 6. Talk With Caroline

Ariana POV

Caroline looked at me with a serious face. Right now, we were in one of the cafeterias which was quite quiet. The woman urged me to talk privately and seriously about my relationship with Sean.

“Ana, marriage is not an experiment, don’t be reckless, you don’t know her let alone love her.” Caroline started, I could tell she was holding back her emotions right now, I could feel the aura of real annoyance she was emitting. I can only stare.

“I don’t have the balls to argue, everything was what my parents wanted and this seems to have been planned since I was little, well, before I was even born,” I said honestly and resignedly, Caroline chuckling in disapproval.

“Where’s your assertiveness?? Where’s the independent Ariana?? Do you guys love each other??” Caroline bombarded me with questions, I shook my head.

“I don’t know, but I didn’t hate him the first time I found out, if he’s my future husband, it’s not like most people would immediately refuse.”

We were silent for a while, then Caroline broke the silence between us. My mind is full.

“If one day you start to love him be honest with your own feelings, don’t hurt yourself.” Caroline took my hand, I nodded.

“And I hope you don’t experience unrequited love again.”

I also remembered Phillip, you could say he was the first person to make me feeling have boyfriend, but my feelings were not reciprocated. Phillip only thinks of me as his younger brother and he likes another girl. Since then, I became traumatized to start new feelings for other men, I was afraid of being rejected. I put my chin on my palm, I’m still confused about my decision to have a relationship with Sean who will soon enter the stage of marriage.

My cell phone rang, Sean’s name was on the screen, I just stared at my cellphone lying on the table without wanting to answer it, I needed time to think about all of this, finally the phone went silent again.

“Why wasn’t it picked up?” asked Caroline, I took a deep breath.

“I need time to think.” That’s all I can say, and it’s true, I need some time to think, I don’t know how much time is left for me before I let everything go according to fate(?) that has been determined for me, I’m not sure.

My phone rang again with the same caller, I decided to turn it into silent mode.

“What if he doesn’t love me?” The question just came out, because right now I was thinking the worst.

“You guys are just getting started, why do you always think of the worst first?”

Shrugging my shoulders. Sometimes it becomes a habit of mine, thinking the worst so I can be prepared if it happens but Caroline always raves about it and defies me to always think that way, she says it dampens my optimism, I’m just getting ready instead of wanting to give up.

“Live this to the best of your ability, if he is toying with you, I will kill him myself.”

I smiled as I looked at Caroline, she is my cousin who is very understanding and is like my own sister.

“He wants me to quit Entertainment,” I tell him, and Caroline looks at me in disbelief, she almost jumps out of her chair. I know this news must have shaken him too.

“What??? And you accept it???”

I nodded, Caroline plodding languidly into the back of her chair.

“Are you okay if I stop?” I asked worriedly, Caroline smiling lightly as she waved one of her hands.

“I’m not a nameless manager, Ana, even without looking for artists those artists come to me,” he concluded arrogantly, I pressed my lower lip to mock his arrogance, but what Caroline said was true. He is one of the experienced artist managers and the most sought after by artists out there.

“I’d better take you home, I also want to meet Aunt Alina,” said Caroline, we left our seats. Just as we were about to pass the cafe door, Sean’s figure blocked our path and I could clearly see that the man was holding back his emotions.

“I want to talk to you, Ariana,” he said with a slight hiss, I’m like a rabbit that will be eaten by an anaconda now.

“I’ll wait at home.” Caroline left without trying to help me. When Caroline’s figure was out of sight, Sean grabbed my wrist and then slightly dragged me to his car. Luckily I didn’t bring my Audi here, I went with Caroline after the launching of my second single.