CHAPTER FOUR

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Meg couldn't believe what she was hearing ''You said what? You didn't drop me off after the party? Then...then who did? Jesus Tonia!!!'' she exclaims

‘I am sorry, I met this sexy stud and ..yes I remember now, you were sooo.. high you could hardly stand straight, oh crap, I took you into a room to sleep it off because you didn’t want to go just yet and I didn’t either and he was sexy hot and I was horny as a dog on heat and anyways you were half awake and asleep and I told you I was going to come back and get you and I am sorry, we went back, had fun and we sort of went to his place and by the time I knew it, it was morning, I rush over to the party house, didn’t see you there that is why I quickly ran to yours and there you were, safe and when your mum asked how you got home and if you got home on time you said yes and said I dropped you off and I knew if I had said otherwise your mum would have gone berserk and everything would have gone to shits…but damn babes I am sorry, I didn’t think it was a big deal plus I didn’t want you to be mad at me for not taking you home” she says remorsefully

“Well right now it’s a big deal Tonia, how come you didn’t say anything. I was raped in there damnit, I am frigging pregnant”

‘Well you were alone in the room , no one else was there plus we didn’t hear of any case of anyone being raped”

“Like you said if I was drugged, I wouldn’t be able to remember”

‘”True, but we are just speculating, what if you weren’t drugged, maybe you did have sex and too drunk to remember”

‘‘That wouldn’t happen”

“Sure about that Meg?”

Meg bites her lips “I would remember Tonia, I would” she cries leaning onto Tonia’s shoulders

“I am sorry Meg, really it’s my fault, I shouldn’t have left you there’’

“what will I do??”

“Well we need to find out who and who was in that party that day”

Megan scoffs “That’s like finding a needle in a hay sack Tonia, like chasing ghosts. There were a whole lot of students, from different universities ..how the hell are we going to find someone we don’t know about?”

‘’Shit! Babe you have to remember something,anything“

Megan shakes her head “I swear I don’t”

“what are you going to do? You just fresh out of college, no job , no boyfriend and therefore no suitor reading to whisk you away and your parents are deep Catholics..you are in deep shit”

‘’I know. I have to tell them”

‘’No you don’t, you could just go to the clinic and have it removed unless you want to keep it, you don’t know who the father is”

“I don’t know. Maybe ..no I can’t, how am I going to take care of it?”

“Okay, I know someone, he has done it for a friend of a friend a while back, we can go today or tomorrow, the longer you wait the riskier for you,you know right?’’

Megan sighs

‘Does it hurt, abortion?”

“Her words? Like hell and it cost a tiny fortune, how much you got?’’

Goosebumps rises up Meg’s body…”okay then. Not much, I need to clear out all my small savings”

“Okay”

“Let me go in, I don’t want mum to come out an begin to ask me questions”

“Okay ‘’

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As she lays on her bed , trying to go to sleep, racking her brain trying to remember anything, anything at all for the past couple of weeks to pinpoint when exactly and how exactly she was stupid enough to have unprotected sex with anyone or was she raped?.

Nothing comes to mind.

She turns on her side, as tears runs out of her eyes, she sniffs, crying into her pillow. She loved kids, she loved her nieces and nephews , but she had always told herself that when she had kids, it would be in the confines of a loving marriage, a home and a husband. Not now, how was she to care for the kid? Her parents, No her father would kill her, he was strict, very strict and he preached the whole abstinence thing taking it seriously. He thinks she was still a virgin.

She is 23 years old yet he still treats her like a kid. Her ex-boyfriend Fred had a hard time with them, and they always lied to her parents that they had never being intimate but ofcourse what daddy doesn’t know wouldn’t hurt him right?.

But they had always being careful, using protection and when they went skinny-diving,she had always worn a patch and they wouldn’t be stupid to do it without one. But who had impregnated her, who?

Oh God!!

She cries into her pillow and after a while she falls asleep.

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