chapter 11

"I'll pick you up in the morning"

"where do you want to go?"

"you tell me if you're coming . ... but not dressed like that ... you have to wear flat shoes."

every pause was a kiss and every time he left me breathless

"alright ....should I bring something?"

"no I'll take care of everything ...I'll come at ten o'clock alright?"

"yeah" was all I could say if he kept kissing me like that I don't know if I would have lasted ...

"Good night," I said, my hand on the door when I felt his hands take me back.

What else is there? "

"You say goodnight and you run away" and he starts kissing me again so intensely that I feel a warmth enveloping me it was such a new sensation I had never had sex before and I didn't want it to happen in the car so I move away the car windows were fogged up "I'd better go".

"Stay a little longer"

"no, I just need my father to come out, come on, I'll see you in a few hours" and I get out of the car before I can get back in. When I get to my room I'm still excited and when my mother opens the door I get scared.

"Calm down I heard a noise and I came to see if it was you?"

yes it's me "

"Are you OK?"

"Yeah, fine."

"OK Good night"

in the morning I get up and put on a blue cigarette trousers with a white blue polka dot top and ballerina flats

I put a jumper and light jacket in my bag, put on a little make-up and when the phone rings I'm ready.

"ready?"

"where are you?"

"I'm ready, and you?"

"I'm downstairs, if you look out, you'll see me." I look out the window and there he was, leaning against the car.

"I'm coming downstairs!" I tell him and I close the door and go downstairs and my mother is there "Mom, I'm going out and I will not be back for lunch.

"OK for dinner will you be there?"

"Yes, I think so, but if I'm not back, I'll call you".

"Okay." I go out and join him.

"Is this OK?" I ask after kissing him.

"You're perfect. Get in the car."

"Where are you taking me?"

"I won't tell you!"

we walk for over an hour, always uphill, at the end he stops on a deserted hill, even if the landscape from there was beautiful, when I get out of the car and he takes me by the waist and puts his cheek against mine

"It's beautiful here!"

"Have you ever come before?"

"No, never, I imagine you have!"

"I come here sometimes when I'm sad or when I have a problem and I get over it."

"Are you sad now, too?" I can't help asking.

"No, not now, in fact right now I'm the happiest man alive", he replies.

OK!

He showed me that place to make me understand that I was important to him...

we had a picnic there alone.

He had prepared everything and we spent almost the whole day there, talking, laughing, joking and cuddling, it was the first time we were so alone together and for a moment I thought that given the situation he would have gone further, but he didn't even try. We stayed there until sunset and then we started to go home, but on the way he made a diversion, I didn't ask him where he was going, he wouldn't tell me.

He stops in front of a pub. "Shall we grab a drink before heading home?"

"Let me ask you something first."

"Which one?"

"How many bars do you know!"

"Several ... then!"

"Alright."

I accepted for two reasons, the first because I hoped the day wouldn't end and the second was that I had to go to the bathroom.

We went in and this time the place was very rustic, although warm and welcoming, and as soon as we sat down I said "you order, I'm going to the toilet".

I take advantage of that moment to send a message to say that I'll be late and I find a message from Lilly "tell my brother to turn on the phone they're looking for him".

Of course it was too good to have a day without a pain in the ass around.

Once I'm there I take the opportunity to redo my make-up because whoever it was had waited until now would have waited a few more minutes nothing would have happened.

when I get to the table I tell him and only then does he realise that his phone is switched off "it's dead! I forgot to charge it last night!" he admits even if he didn't seem worried that his phone was switched off

"And now? Don't you have the cable in the car?" I ask him.

"Yes I do, but I'll turn it on when I get home!"

he said

Apparently I wasn't the only one who didn't want that day to end... without hurrying we had an aperitif the place had benches so we were sitting close together and with a natural gesture I leaned on his shoulder

"Are you tired? Do you want to go home?" he asked thoughtfully.

"No, I just want to stay like this. Can I?" I answered, looking between his eyelashes.

"You can do what you want with me!" he answered.

We stayed there until nine o'clock then we went home but even though we had spent the whole day together, in fact maybe because of that we didn't feel like saying goodbye so I said "let's go just for a moment to see the sea before going home".

He didn't answer me but smiled mischievously and after a few minutes we were at the beach, there was no one around and he had parked in a dark corner.

"Come here a bit," he says, tapping his hand on his leg.

I did as he said it was the first time I had sat on his legs since we had been together they were so hard and firm that I was immediately aroused he moved my hair to one side looking at me his hand went down to my back and gently brought me towards him then he started to kiss me first softly then more and more insistently I found myself breathing heavily his hands were under my shirt a suffocating heat invades me and I can't do anything but throw my head back but he takes possession of my lips again I feel his hands descend until they slip under my trousers at this point I start to tremble and shortly afterwards he notices this change and stops "what's going on?"

"nothing don't mind me" as I start shaking

"like nothing you're shaking"

"It's nothing really" I insist

trying not to give too many explanations even though I knew my behaviour wasn't normal

"are you sure?"

"yes I'm sure" I lean on his shoulder for a few more minutes and he holds me close to him.

I ask myself what's wrong with me some of my friends had already done it and I had already had an affair the year before but it had lasted for a short time as soon as he realised I couldn't do it we broke up and I think it would have been the same this time too...

ROBERTO

Since the afternoon before when I had seen her with her back to the fridge I had had a terrible desire to take off her bikini I had kept it only because my parents were at home in the evening then with that dress she had driven me crazy and we had come close but it wasn't the right place and now I had her trembling in my arms and I didn't know why.

I knew that he liked me and felt what I felt, I could tell by the way he looked at me, the way he spoke to me, caressed me, the way he responded to my kisses.

"Take me home" she said with shining eyes.

"Anna, nothing happened" I say, stroking her to calm her down.

"I know but it's better like this" she replies.

"Is that what you want?" I say looking her in the eyes.

"yes" she said getting up and sitting on the other seat suddenly I feel naked I adjust my shirt and look at her she's looking out of the window

"Anna!" I call her but she doesn't turn around so I get out of the car, go around and open her door but she turns away so I reach into the car.

I grab her by the shoulders and get her out of the car.

but her face is covered with her hands.

"Anna, can you tell me what's wrong?" she leans against me without speaking, stroking her, I feel her face wet.

"Will you tell me why you're crying?"

"Because I'm stupid not to go home and I ruined the day."

"That's not true!"

"Yes, it is. Take me home, please."

"All right, but stop crying."