7

in two days we were leaving , I still didn't know where we were going .

"Tomorrow morning I'll take you to the office but I'm not staying" I tell him as we lie down.

"Where are you going?" he asks me

"I'm going for a drink with the girls".

"Just that or are you going shopping?"

"No, just that, I'm not there much" I said, wondering why he was always a little anxious when I wasn't with him.

I remembered his words from long ago.

FLASHBAK BEGAN.

"You know me too well" I told him

"You're a part of me when you're not there, it's as if I were missing an arm or a leg," he said.

and I was full of guilt because of the "sinful" memory

that I had just remembered I had said to him before kissing him

"then I will be your torment, I don't want to have an invalid husband".

END FLASHBAK

If it was like that then, let alone now...

"I can't leave you alone for long" I tell him smiling

mischievous .

"Are you afraid you won't find me?" he asks.

"No, but I'm sure you don't think much in my absence.

He didn't answer but his look said it all.

During those years, I had seen more than once how much power I had taken over him.

We were perfectly in tune, we only had to look at each other to understand each other's thoughts.

our moods

and worries.

Yet something told me that there was a side of him that was dormant.

that had yet to come out.

or was it just my impression?

I was distracted from my thoughts by a feeling I knew well...

"My wife is distracted tonight!"

I smiled at her mania.

It had been five years now that almost in every sentence he had inserted the word WIFE as if he couldn't help saying it.

would he ever get tired of saying it?

i don't think so .

"My Mr. Husband laments me!" I answered, playing along, who knows why I liked this sort of game.

"I could never!" he replied.

with a voice that made me wet all over.

I wondered what it was about that man who could turn me on just by hearing his voice.

he wasn't normal

If I would have told anyone, they would have made fun of me, but it was like that...

I felt my body melt under his hands.

I was breathless.

In the morning we were in the office when my friends arrived, excited as always in those years, their lives had also changed, we were almost all married or cohabiting and with children more or less young, so we did not see each other very often alone today's was a very welcome interlude ...

"We'll steal a couple of hours from you!" Luisa says to Antonio.

"Even longer because she never goes out!" he replies and I glare at him.

"Then I'll be gone all day, you don't care anyway!" I say to tease him.

"Now don't exaggerate..."

"See you later" I say as we leave.

We don't go far, but just being alone was a lot.

Even if I didn't want to, I bought things and got infected by them.

But even so, it wasn't like usual.

Why?

After going for a walk

we were sitting at the bar below the office and it was soon to be lunchtime so we had an aperitif before the others went home to cook.

while we were talking

there he appeared.

handsome and confident.

Adam was coming

and from a distance another figure overlapped him

the same broad shoulders the same gait

it was easy to guess the body sculpted by hours and hours of gym work today he had no shirt but a simple black crew-neck under a pearl-grey jacket and black trousers

He looked simply stunning, like something out of a fashion magazine ...

I couldn't take my eyes off him and all of a sudden he turns around and sees me....

I look away immediately, but not fast enough because my friend doesn't notice anything

"Anna, what are you doing?" she scolds me, "you're eating him with your eyes, do you remember you're married?"

"Yes, I know, and ...look at him, doesn't he remind you of anyone?" I ask.

I asked him, hoping he'd notice the resemblance.

"No, he doesn't look like anyone I know. Why?"

"He doesn't look like Roberto?" I ask cheekily.

"absolutely not," he says, looking at me as if I had gone crazy.

"Take a good look at his hairline, his forehead, his eyes." I insist.

"Listen, if you tell me that he's a great guy, OK, but that he looks like Roberto, no, they only have the colour of his eyes in common," continues Luisa.

I look at my friends who were following the discussion, "Do you think so too?" I ask dazed.

And before they can speak, Lilly gets up, "Excuse me a moment," and goes out of the bar.

what the fuck didn't I even notice he was gone?

i go back to look at my friends and they too tell me what luisa had said .

but it was impossible...

was it only me who saw the resemblance?

or was I crazy?

"anna!' sara says to me, 'don't think about it anymore, he's dead and he's not coming back! if he was alive, why wouldn't he let his family know about it? you know that his mother has never recovered.

Why would he do such a thing?

no way...

ADAM WAS JUST ADAM.

I'm trying to remind my fucked-up head why she had to make it so difficult."

"get a grip on yourself, antonio's coming" says luisa

I look out just in time to see him crossing the street.

But I hadn't told him I was here!

"we're going then we'll talk" sara continues

"yes ok" I reply

and they get up the second he walks through the door

Once again I found myself thinking that he was the most handsome man I had ever seen.

so why was I so attracted to another man?

I was a unique nonsense...