Chapter 4

Beatriz Del Valle POV

"Hey! Why are you looking for me?" Johana asked the guy.

"Have you forgotten our bet?" He asked while smiling.

I look at Johana and she seems shy and awkward... Tss.

"Of course not! Anyway, Marci... this is Bea... my best friend. Bea, he is Marci... my blockmate and friend." Said Johana.

"You don't have to introduce Bea, Jo. She's famous here in the university." Said Marci and smiled at me.

Tss. I find this guy annoying but I don't wanna look rude so I smiled back.

"Uhm... Marci can we postpone our bet? I'm with Beatriz and---"

I cut her off. "No. It's alright, Bub." I told her. Why does it have to be next time?

"Bea's right, Jo. Anyway, you can come with us Bea. I'm just going to treat Johana since I lost in our bet. Johana's points on our Math quiz is higher than mine." Marci explained.

"Yes, Bea! I got higher grades than him! I am one point higher than him!" Johana said while smiling at me.

Oh... Nice. They're so sweet to do that kind of thing. Tss. Are they high school?

"Congrats." I told her.

"So... Jo, Bea? Let's go? I'll treat both of you."

"Sure! Let's go!" Said Jo and immediately fixed her stuff then they started to walk together while I'm right here, walking behind them.

We went to a small Japanese restaurant near the school. I feel out of place with them. They look happy together. What's the point of inviting me to join them if they're going to make me feel this way?

I'm starting to think whether Johana likes Marci or what.

"Bei, why are you quiet?" Johana asked when Marci left to get our order.

"Nice. Thanks for noticing me, thought you're going to ignore me for the rest of this bet." I sarcastically said.

"Aw... Sorry, Bub. You're so quiet eh... Each time Marci will try to talk to you, you will just give him a smile."

"It's because you're the one I want to talk to."

"I'm sorry, Bub." She said.

"Yeah... you look so happy with him." I said and shut my mouth when Marci came back. I don't know why am I acting this way...

"Johana you like seafoods right? Here, taste this." Said Marci.

If I did not know both of them and saw them acting this way. I would end up thinking that they're in a relationship. And it was just so hard for me to accept it... I can't see Johana being with someone that ain't me. But I still trust Jo, I know that she's still not open to romantic relationships because of her priorities. I will stick to that thought.

"Bub... you like shrimp right? Say ah..." Said Jo...

I immediately eat the shrimp she's giving me. I was bit surprised of what she did.

"You want more?" Jo asked.

"I'm okay, Jo... I can eat by myself.... you don't have to feed me." I said... I feel so shy because we're with someone.

"Shh... Take this, Bub... Please?" She said while pouting. And yup, I ate the shrimp again as if I have a choice not to. When Johana does that pout thing, I feel myself giving in.

"Very good baby!" She said while smiling at me.

Wait... did she just call me her baby infront of other people? I think she's trying to make me feel better again since I told her that I feel out of place with them. Nice move, Jo.

"You girls are so sweet. Friendship goals!" Said Marci while looking at us.

I saw Johana smiled. "Yup. I really love my best friend." She said and hugged my arm.

Best friend. I don't know what I'm supposed to feel right now. Because there's a part of me that's hoping for Johana to like me back. But I guess, I should stop hoping... maybe Johana will always see me as her best friend. Nothing more, nothing less.

Johana and Marci started to talked about their school-related stuff since they're blockmates. So I remained quiet here while enjoying my food. Until Johana talked...

"Bei, we have to do our project... I'll just see you later okay? Promise, I'll make it up to you later." Said Johana. Who am I not to allow her? Besides, it's school-related stuff so I have to let her be with Marci.

"Sure. It's alright." I told her.

"Bye, Bei!" They both said to me and I nodded.

We parted ways after eating in the Japanese restaurant. I decided to go to our dormitory to take some rest and at the same time to think about certain things in life. I just want to contemplate.

I want to think about my feelings for Jo. I really want to let go of this feeling. I don't want to ruin our friendship just because I like her more than just a friend. What we have right now is so precious, I'm afraid to break it.

Why do we always fall for someone we can't have?