7

IVANA EVANS POINT OF VIEW...

"Are you okay?" I returned to myself as he spoke.

He removed the headphones and hung them around my neck.

"Yes..." I said naturally then avoided his gaze catching my eye.

Did he catch me staring at him?

I didn't mean to, I just really like his perfect figure.

The tip of his lip lifted slightly.

His diamond earring flashed in his right ear as he looked at the soccer field.

"You like the script songs?" He asked then looked back at me.

"Yeah, I love their song so much" I smiled because he knew who the band sang the song he listened to.

"Did you go to their concerts?" He asked then stood beside me on the bench.

I shook my head before answering "The concerts are always wrong timing then they tour so I can't go"

He just nodded at me.

We quietly watched the soccer players play on the field.

I remembered my doctor's text that I had to go to the hospital to get the exam result.

For a few months after my recovery, I was worse than the result of my suffering.

I adjusted my gear then stood up.

"I'm going to the hospital do you want to come?" I asked him so he nodded and stood up

"Can you get the result?" He asked while we were in his car.

"Yes, I'm nervous" I whispered to him.

I felt the warmth he had in my palm.

I turned to him when I saw his right hand holding my left hand.

"Don't worry, you worked hard on it. I'm sure the result is good and if not I'm here to help you on another recovery" He smiled at me.

"Thank you" I smiled at him then placed my right hand on his hand.

That's all I can say.

I don't know how I can show him that I'm very thankful on him, how he helped me.

My heart pounded even more when we arrived at the psychiatrist's office.

I knocked first before entering.

Doctor held the result when we entered.

I no longer bother to sit because I feel nauseous.

Doc's expression was serious as he looked at me so I was more nervous.

"Ms. Evans your result on your psychological test is ..." My heart kept pounding.

"You are 98% recovered, congratulations" I did not react immediately but I felt joy all over my body.

"There is still 2% that can attack your trauma but you still need to take care of yourself, avoid stress and do psychological relaxation" The doctor advice.

I smiled and nodded "Thank you so much doc" I said before saying goodbye.

Evren and I were in the parking lot when he spoke.

"Are you not happy in the result?" I turned to him.

he looks worried.

Gradually I felt the smile on my lips and I continued to rejoice.

I cheer and jump, I didn't even notice that I hugged him tightly if he just didn't cough because he couldn't breathe anymore.

"Sorry, I was just happy." I immediately remove my hug.

I signed peace with him but his face was serious.

I planned to go because I was afraid of his expression especially when I was at fault. When suddenly he pulled me and hugged me.

The hug that makes me relax. Although I was surprised I felt the closure and feeling in his embrace.

I felt my tears touching my cheeks.

I cried not in anger, or in sadness.

I sobbed at the joy I was feeling.

I didn't imagine that I could overcome this, for a long time I am a prison I'm my condition and I lose hope on overcoming this.

I hugged him tighter. "Thank you ...." My tears are rasing to fall down.

"Thank you very much, Evans."

"It's nothing for the girl I loved." I looked at him and with his serious piercing eyes, I can see the sincerity in everything he said.

He turned to me and he smiled at me sweetly.

"It's nothing for you, Anna." I get confused s what he says

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know if this is the right time Anna, but I can't stop myself." I felt the cold and trembling of his hand as he held my two hands.

"I like you." Everything stop.

My heart is pounding very fast, I felt nervous it's like I only see his face.

"No sorry I'm wrong, I love you Ivana."

"I don't know if I'm ready Evren, I ---" I don't know what to answer.

"I can wait until you are ready, You do not need to answer now, just let me prove you what I really felt" He said.

I don't know what to said.

He pulled me and hugged me, I closed my eyes to felt the tender of his hug.

And I felt everything is alright when his soft lips touched my forehead.

I asked myself what I really felt on him, I'm still confused.

So I do what he thinks is good, I need to confirm what I felt before telling him.

Part of my personality is what I experienced, and one thing I learned from it is that I must make sure how I feel.

I can't just trust anyone. I can't just fall and answer anyone.

I need to get to know them so that I will not be hurt again.

I'm afraid of what I really felt and I'm more afraid to think I will be hurt again.

I'm not ready for this...

To be continued...