Chapter # 7

Rebecca POV:-

Ryan left for the bathroom. I scoffed and turned my head away feeling utterly contaminated and depraved. I felt like dying under the weight of his unbearable words filled with extensive seething. I hate how he tries to be intimate and act as if I am the one at fault. He truly loves tormenting, even if he has to fall low in his own eyes but he doesn't care, all he cares about is whether I am suffering or not. He is just pushing me deeper in those bottomless pits of turmoil, taking my life out of me in the cruel way.

I closed my eyes and leaned on the wall. I hate his touch, it made me realize how much of a corrupt soul I am. His touch made me aware of my place in his life. His touch made me realize how hated I am.

He has all those rights to be angry and desire vengeance but this is not acceptable.

I stare aimlessly at the ground. His touch never made me feel safe. It made me feel repugnant, he deliberately evoked those unwanted sensations in me so that he can humiliate me and make me fall low. His touch made me want to lacerate my skin. I missed how Jayden embraced me, it was so secure and made me feel loved- No! Don't fall low, Rebecca.

I sighed, if Ryan wasn't here, I would have read all those notes I treasure deeply. All those notes Jayden left in my book. I have hidden them in my stuff. They are a source of equanimity for me, whenever I read them, a wave of serenity washed over me.

I shook my head and laid on the couch. I closed my eyes wanting to receive a sound sleep so that it can give me courage to face the upcoming mayhem. Unfortunately the couch was small for me and since it's a habit of mine to sleep curling like a baby, it was quite difficult to do that but I managed somehow. My eyes were heavy and I was about to fall asleep but then I heard the devil's voice.

"I am as stubborn as you. When I said you'll sleep with me. You will." His voice was so determined. I belittled his words and didn't even flinch. I just want to sleep peacefully, what I can never receive by sleeping with him.

I heard his sighed and I felt like he'll not do anything but in a swift moment, he picked me up like bridal style. I let out a squeak and involuntarily held his shirt and shut my eyes more tightly.

"What the hell are you doing?! Put me down, Mr Knight!" I flushed, no one picked me like this before. My heart skipped a beat as I nuzzled close to him without my will. He didn't let me go, what the hell is his problem?!

"Are you deaf?! Put me down!" I shouted. He ignored me and as soon as he placed me on the bed. I tried to get away but he held my shoulders. I opened my eyes and glared at him. He shifted and moved on top of me. My heart began to race as I shivered when I saw him this close to me. I gripped duvets tightly, feeling horrified just by thinking about his malevolent plans. I began to pant and curled my toes to calm my anxiety. He trapped me in his arms, leaving me at his mercy, a sinful smirk playing along his lips. My rapid breaths, my cold hands and feet, feeling utterly terrified, tears brimmed in my eyes blurring my vision.

His eyes glisten with something dark yet malicious in them. His eyes travelled down making me feel startled as my heart was about to burst from my rib cage.

"Look like you are nervous, love." He said in his usual derided tone.

"Get away." I manage to breathe out. He let out a disastrous smile which immersed me in dread. But that didn't affect him even in the slightest as he continued to look at me with his menacing gaze.

He then finally shifted and wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close, I tried to get away but he didn't let me. He didn't let me escape from the prison of his arms. I kept struggling and shouting how much I hate him.

"Shh.. Stop struggling before I give you a reason to do that." He spoke in a clam yet threatening tone. I stopped for a second and put my hand over my face while his hands were fixed around my waist. A tear rolled down from the corner of my eye as I let out a whimper. Finally accepting my defeat, I turned to him, I let out a quiet sob and lowered my head. Silent tears rolled down as I held his shirt to create some distance.

"Don't you feel disgusted?... Sleeping with the sister of your love? There are other ways to make me feel humiliated too. Taunt me, hit me but please don't try to be intimate.." I spoke faintly with uncontrollable tears spilling out. My quivering lips tried their best but soon their strength deprived and a cry left my mouth. My grip on his shirt tightened as I buried my face in his chest feeling broken. His one hand from my waist moved upward, he moved the hairs falling on my face, hiding it and lifted my chin as my teary gaze met his which held inscrutable emotions in them. Those mysterious dark eyes bore into mine fragmented one.

"Rebecca, I will never forgive you for ruining my life. You shattered all the dreams I cherished. If I have to fall in the deepest depths of being low just to draw out your tears, I'll do it without shredding a single sign of remorse." he said with intense hatred as a tear fell from his eye. My breath become uneven as I replied desperately,

"Then threw me out of your life. Say the world that I died or accuse me of cheating. I'll gladly leave, from all of your lives." I then turned my head away and mumbled,

"No one wants me in their life anyways."

"Don't worry, I'll do it too but right now, I can not let you go.. Not until I take my revenge." He said firmly.

"And what if I die before that?" I asked.

"I'll never let you die." I scoffed and wiped my tears, I turned my head away from him. I faced the wall, cursing him in my heart and closed my eyes. He hugged me from behind, his lips brushed against my shoulder and I heard him speaking in a feeble voice, "Even it kills me… " What is he talking about?

***

The next day, surprisingly, I woke up without any nightmares. It happens rarely when I am actually bestowed with a sound sleep. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I turned my head and saw no one beside me. A sigh of relief escaped my lips as I yawned. I smiled and turned my head only to see Ryan sleeping on the couch. The hell? By forcing me to sleep with him, he is sleeping on the couch?! What is he? Just how absurd he is, it's not that I am complaining but if he was going to do that, he could have done it by using his tongue and speak but no he decided to be intimate and force me.

I sighed and went to the bathroom. I took a warm shower and changed into a casual shirt and trouser. I walked out and saw Ryan shivering. I picked the blanket thrown on the ground and wrapped it around him and walked out.

Since I had nothing to do, I went to the Kitchen as Jen greeted me.

"Good Morning Ma'am."

"Oh, Morning." I said leaning on the counter.

"What brings you here, Ma'am? If you need something, tell me, I'll tell our Cook; Flurry to cook it."

"Flurry? " I chuckled upon hearing the name.

"Yeah.. My parents decided it.." She said from the corner.

"Sorry. I found it cute."

"Thank you." She said sincerely.

"So.. I just wanna ask when Ryan leaves for work?"

"Around 9. His workplace an hour away from here so he leaves early."

"I see." I said holding my chin.

"Ah, I just want to say that I'll make my- our breakfast from now on." My words shocked them. Typical Rich people. I exhaled and put my hand over my forehead.

"Do not exaggerate. And if you can't, consider it as an order." I said monotonously. They remained silent as I turned to the stove.

"Hmm.. Jen, what should I cook?" I asked.

"Sir loves French toasts… but Ma'am think about it please, Sir will be infuriated if he finds out." She said.

"Then put the blame on me and tell him and I said, 'You can't control me'" She remained silent and lowered her head.

I cooked French Toast for both of us and went to our room to wake him up but he was already awake. I rolled my eyes from him and went to the night stand and grabbed my phone.

"You are very suggestive while sleeping." He said casually.

"Depends on your way of thinking, Mr Knight." I replied coldly without looking at him. I then turned to him and narrowed my eyes at him, a mocking smile formed on my lips as I said derisively,

"How comfy was this couch for you? I hope you better get used to it since I have no intentions of leaving the bed now. " I sat on the bed with a smug look.

"Don't get your hopes high that much, This will not happen again." He smirked back.

"Since I am so provocative…" I began to say.

You try to be intimate because I hate it, what you'll do if I'll show that I love it?

I stood up and walked to him. I put my one hand on his side with my smirk not leaving me.

"You should mentally prepare yourself for sleepless nights." I said seductively. His smirk grew sinister as he grabbed my collar and pulled me close to him and no matter how revolting it may be, I have to bear it, just to see whose patience will break first.

"Maybe we both have sleepless nights." He also replied in the same tone. My mind lost its senses, which invoked shivers in me. My heart began to beat louder and faster as a deep breath escaped my lips.

I pulled away and took a step back,

"I'll sleep on the bed." I declared.

"Just last night you even agreed to sleep on the floor, what made you change your mind?" He asked, intrigued.

"A sound sleep.. Away from my nightmares." I whispered the last part to myself and walked out.

We both sat down to have breakfast. It was silent but he spoke up and decided to break the comfy silence,

"We are the newlywed couple." He said the obvious.

"Yeah, so? " I asked, shrugging my shoulders.

"We.. need to attend a dinner party."

"When?"

"This weekend."

"Do I have to?" I asked, uninterested.

"Yes, you do." I narrowed my eyes at him but then I sighed and agreed.

***

I looked at my reflection, devoid of any emotions. Since the dinner was held to congratulate us, I have to look good. I wore a backless blue mermaid gown with black lacy sleeves and a belt in the middle section. I let my raven hairs to let loose and since the dress matched my eye color and jewellery well. It made me look so graceful. The allure for the dress is too much, I loved it but I have to do something about my hollow eyes. They are ruining the charm. I put my hand on the dressing table and lowered my head. I grit my teeth and curled my hand in a fist. I inhaled deeply and raised my head with a decent smile plastered on my face. It's been years since I have faked myself in front of others. Since I have dressed to impress and showed a personality appealing to one's heart. Of course I am very skilled in manipulation but I threw all this masquerade the day I lost Jane. The day I stopped everything and turned ice cold. The day my emotions got lost somewhere inside me and never came back.

With a beguiling smile, I walked out. I walked down the stairs with my hand brushing against the railing along with a superior aura surrounding me. Ryan looked up from his phone as his eyes widened for a second upon seeing.

He was wearing a grey three buttoned suit jacket. A brooch which had a ruby fixed on his centre. Cuff link, Rolex watch and all along with a fancy black tie. His hairs are perfectly combed all along with his dominating presence.

His eyes scanned me for a second as I walked to him and stood in front of him.

"You won't be seeing that smile for long, dear." I said in the same mocking manner I have been using for the past few days.

"Nice cologne." I compliment. It took him two seconds to come back to his senses as he then turned to me and cleared his throat.

"Flawless Facades." He said in the same way as mine. I smirked as he smirked back.

"Entice you much?" I taunted him.

"I can ask you the same." he taunted back.

"Well, I am more than happy to see you on the couch every morning."

"Do you want me to be naked beside you?" He asked.

"How can the day end without you saying something disgusting. " I mocked. He narrowed his eyes at me and then turned away.

"You know, I need to put a leash on you." he said.

"Am I a dog? " I asked standing beside him.

"I'll make you one. You need to be tamed." he said, putting his hand on my waist, pulling me close.

"Make sure not to turn into an animal yourself. Oh, pardon, you are already an animal." I said scornfully glaring at him. He glared back at me as we left.