Chapter # 6

Ryan POV:-

"Please.. I beg you... Don't be an animal."

Her words brought me to reality as I realized how much of a corrupt act I have committed. I stood there motionless, feeling degraded of my sin. My heartbeat became feeble, my senses were turned in a blur. A heavy breath escaped my lips as I was so ashamed that I couldn't even look at her dead in the eyes. I couldn't meet the gaze of the person I hate, the person who betrayed me. The sound of her cries rang in my ears as the image of how she wiped her lips in disgust flashed in my mind.

Not being able to bear this affliction anymore, I took a step back and turned and left her alone. I walked out of the room and stormed into my studies.

I slammed the door behind me and grit my teeth in irk. How can I did something like this? Dad never taught me this, he always taught me how to respect women. What.. Took over me? Did the rage blind me that much? Okay, I get it I want to make her pay, I want to get revenge but.. This is not the right way.

..On the path of revenge, you have to throw away the righteous..

I exhaled to show my frustration as I ran my hands in my hair. I felt humiliated, that's not me.

'She deceived you' My mind tried to justify my act but it cannot give me any consolation as I felt utterly disgraced.

I threw away my dignity, just in hatred. I groaned in annoyance, my mind is clouded with mixed emotions of contamination, hatred and sadness.

..Please someone guide me before I lose my track of virtue..

"FUCK!!" I shouted, slamming my hand on the desk. Feeling like my exasperation is on it's peak and I can't think properly as the emotion which is affecting my mind the most is loathe. This emotion is like a blindfold which is turning me oblivious of my other emotions and not letting me think straight.

I continued to comfort myself but, no avail as a sudden lull took over me because of having a tiresome- mournful day; the day I was supposed to marry the love of my life but instead got fooled by her family. I found myself losing in that peace, earning a short-lived reprieve from this bitter reality.

My eyes flutter opened as I woke up gasping. For a second, I felt like what happened was nothing but a horrible nightmare but I was brought back when I saw the wedding ring in my finger. I ran my hand in my hair making them messy. I loosen my tie and took it off as I opened a few buttons of my shirt. I took off my coat and decided to change.

I went to my room. I entered and saw Rebecca sitting on the ground while her chin resting on the bed while her arms folded around it. My cold gaze softened for a second when I looked at her. The truck of realization hit me, when I remembered when Marianne told me that she is afraid of being alone. Even back at home, she opened the door of her room and slept with her lights on. It must be hard for her to sleep in darkness and alone too. I have indirectly known a lot about her. I cannot forget the talk because they were spoken by Marianne but I always considered them irrelevant. I never thought they will become something- never mind. It's still irrelevant, I don't care about her. She deserves it.

I ignored her presence and went to the closet, I told out my casual shirt and trouser and went to the bathroom to have a cold shower.

I walked out with water dripping from my hairs. I spared a final glance towards her slumbering form and walked to my bride still dressed in black. I stood in front of her and bent on one knee. I narrowed my eyes at her.

What you sacrificed? When you are the one who cheated me, how come you are a victim too? What tragedy happened to you that you are that insensible .. Or perhaps you sacrificed your life for the sake of your sister? Who is the victim here? Why did you do this?

These questions roamed in my mind. I sighed and shook my head, it's no use, what matters is that my life is bound to the woman I least wanted to marry. From what I heard about her, she is not my type. Being emotionless is the trait I never want in my wife. I cannot even divorce her.. For now. For the sake of the name I spend years to gain.

I stared at her, my eyes scanned her from top to bottom, feeling nothing for her. Her hairs were messy because I pulled them and my heart constricted upon seeing it. I moved my hand close and untangled her hairs. Her veil fell letting her raven hairs to let loose. Her hairs were long, stopping at her back but they are greatly taken care of. A strand of her hairs fall on her face. I brought my hand close to her face, wanting to tug it behind her ears. I was about to touch her but stopped midway. I curled my hands in a fist and pulled my hand back. I sighed and slid my hand around her and picked her up like bridal style. I placed her on the bed and backed away. I sat on the sofa as I laid on it and drifted to sleep.

The next day, I woke up before her. I got ready and was about to leave for work. I know I can't avoid her forever but I will for as long as I can. I went to the hall and went to Jen; Our maid.

"Jen." I called her.

"Yes, Sir?" She asked.

"Shift Rebecca's stuff back to my room." I ordered. Now, that's a problem, I cannot leave her alone. She is scared.

"And yeah, from now on, you will not leave her side. From the moment I leave the house till I come back. You will not leave her side even for a second. Got it? " I explained.

"Yes sir." Don't get me wrong. I still want my revenge, I want to make her miserable but I will not do this but using the most obvious thing, that's low. I'll use my ways to break her.

After leaving home, I went to see Dad and Mom. I entered and it seemed like they were waiting for me. I entered with a feeling of being hollow filling me up.

"Oh my, Son. Are you okay? Why did you agree for marriage?! She destroyed your life, divorce her this instant!" Mom exclaimed, aggravated. I put my hand over her shoulder and passed her a reassuring smile,

"It's okay, mother." my words shocked her too much as she began to say,

"Wha- No! Son, you cannot live your life with a witch like her! Oh my God, did she entangle you in her trap?!" mother exaggerated. I sighed and began to say,

"Look mother, I cannot reject her in front of thousands of guests. It will bring shame upon both mine and her name and as for divorce.. I can't do it.. At least not now."

"What do you mean by not now?" She said, tensed.

"If I divorce her right now a stain will appear in her name. We all know how high society people will talk about her, a lot of rumours will be spread about her. I can get any other woman but it will be very hard for a divorced woman to get a decent man. That's why I need to wait. " I explained to her. Mother pinched the bridge of her nose to show that she is dissatisfied with my choice.

"Divorce her now." Mother said angrily.

"I told you I can't."

"I will never accept her-" our talk came to a halt when Dad's roaring voice echoed through the hall.

"Enough!"

Dad stood up with a stern look on his face. I couldn't read his expression but I guess he is angry with my choice too. He walked towards us. He spared a glance at Mom and then turned to me. He looked at me for a second and then engulfed me in a hug. I was taken aback by his action. He pat my back and began to say,

"I am so proud of you son. You have proven you truly are a gentleman man, I sought you to be." Dad said, proud, but his words hit me like an arrow as my yesterday act came to my mind. I inhaled as we pulled away.

"Don't worry son. Just give yourself some time." Dad words of assurance angered Mom as she began to say in vexation,

"Xavier! Our son can't spend his life with an undesirable woman. Don't encourage him!"

"Look Sarah, Ryan is a grownup and he knew what exactly he should do and what's right for him. Let him decide." Dad said. She sighed and stomped her foot on the ground and left.

"Look Ryan, Never stray from your path, okay?"

"I'll try.. " I replied vaguely.

"I know you can do this. Anyways, I gotta go as you can see I make my Queen unhappy. I have to make up for it." He winked and left as I let out a chuckle.

..Rebecca, you shattered my dream of having a love life like my parents.. I'll never forgive you..

After spending the day out, I finally came home- even though it was unwanted.

I reached home, took dinner; alone and asked, "Did Rebecca have dinner?"

"No, Sir. She just had lunch." I nodded and decided to finally go to the room to change.

I entered and saw her sitting on the bed, reading a book; eyes devoid as usual.

"Welcome Home. May I ask why I have to share a room with you?" She said coldly without looking up from her book. Because you are afraid.

"We are married. You'll stay in the same room as mine. You'll share the same bed as mine without resisting." I replied in the same tone.

"I won't. I'll live in another room." She said firmly.

"Look Rebecca, You'll obey my every order." I said sternly. She finally closed her book and stood up. She held her head high and gave me her icy look.

"What will you do if I refuse?" She asked with a faint smirk. My lips curved upward from one corner wickedly as I leaned in,

"I have known enough about you to know what scares you." I said mockingly. Before she could say anything, I turned her around and pulled her to me. Her back was pressed against my chest as I held her right hand in mine while my left hand held her abdomen firmly.

"Sweetie you can't avoid me." I whispered huskily in her ears which made her shudder as I can hear the sound of her pants mixing up with my breath.

The more I see you, the more anger and vengeance burn me.

"Leave me alone. I don't want to be in the same room as you let alone a bed. You hear me! Now get away!" She almost shouted trying to get out of my grasp but I have no intentions of letting go of my prey. My hand from her waist moved down to her thigh as I began to stoke them. A moan escaped her lips as she bit her lips to muffle it. My smirk grew dark as I nuzzled to her neck and inhaled her scent. Her whimper and desperation never cease to invite lavish thoughts and do the unimaginable to her just to draw out tears from her.

"You liked my touch.." I murmured on her neck and moved to her shoulder as she continued to struggle but couldn't get out.

" I hate you! " She shouted. Damn, this woman's facades are almost unbreakable. I have broken it once, doing it again would be no problem.

"But the fact remains you are liking it.. Me being intimate with you." I cooed in her ears and dug my nails in her thigh. A gasp left her as she tried her best to contain herself. I chuckled atrociously and began to kiss her neck.

This is all wrong, I shouldn't do this but... it feels somehow good.. Maybe her misery is arousing me or perhaps.. Her body? No! She is nothing but a despicable woman!

"You are a beast Mr Knight!" She snarled. I pressed myself against her more and bit her neck harshly. I began to suck the spot, receiving euphoria from her low sounds showing her ravage. I don't feel any lust, it's just a pleasurable feeling to see her like this. Vulnerable and pathetic.

I snickered and pulled away forming a mark on her neck as a trail of saliva connected my lips to her neck; to my mark.

"Not calling my name? Hmm?" I hummed. She let out convulsed sounds and shut her eyes. I finally loosen my grip and turned her to me. She let out a soft voice of astonishment and held my collar with her eyes wide. Her sapphire eyes bore into mine silver ones as I leaned in.

"It will be better if you sleep quietly with me if you don't want me to take things any further than this." I hissed gripping her arms tightly.

"You are the worst Mr Knight. Sleep with any woman you want except me."

"I am not low like you." I growled.

"Then become..."

"You want me, don't you?" I mocked.

"What?" she asked in disbelief.

"You like me being this close to you, that's why you are resisting and want me to take things further.. So indecent you are.. " I ridiculed her and felt so degraded at myself for saying all these things to her. Her eyes widened in sorrow as she whispered in a broken voice, " Just how much of a filthy bastard you are Mr Knight. Your very existence is detestable. How could you think like that!? " She yanked herself away from me and hugged her sides.

"I'll not share the bed. Never!" She said coldly.

"I'll sleep on the couch. In fact, I rather sleep on the floor than to sleep with an animal like you!" She sneered, pointing her index finger at me in a contemptible way. I grit my teeth and went to the bathroom hating both of us in my heart.