Your name hurts

Von POV

A/n: Play Your Name Hurts by Hailee Steinfeld

I sent Aphrodite home first, I don't want to infect her with the sadness I feel these days.

It was as if heaven and earth had fallen on me with what I had learned and discovered.

It hurts. The time I waited, the time I was able to keep her promise to me. Then in an instant, I would know that she was married, and She was my best friend.

I drank the wine in the glass I was holding.

I closed my eyes as I swallowed the alcohol. Once again I felt my tears dripping as I remembered Lit.

Fuck!

"FUCKING LOVE!" I shouted and threw the glass I was holding against the wall of the bar. The customers looked at me, as do the bartenders. I covered my face with both my hands and then started to cry.

I'm so defeated by The deception! The deception was deception because I thought she would keep her promise to me. I gambled everything, I gambled everything for her but fuck, what did I get?

I could only cry if I could turn back time. I will not leave her again. I'm not leaving Vampire high anymore.

I stopped crying when I remembered Clementine's ability. That's right, she can control time, she can help me.

I immediately took out my wallet and put the money on the table then ran to my car. I felt dizzy because maybe the alcohol hit me, and I drank a lot.

I got in my car and drove to the house which is quite close to our house so I can still drive.

When I got home, I immediately parked my car when I felt dizzy. I leaned back in my chair when I remembered Lit again. I cried again when I remembered her, I got out of the car and simply walked into the house.

"Von?" I stopped walking, I saw Van looking at me so I smiled.

"M-my twin," I said and approached him.

Suddenly I fell on a rock so I hugged my twin.

"Why are you drunk?" He asked as I partied.

"M-my twin." I couldn't stop myself, I cried because I felt heavy and resentful.

"Von." He called.

The only thing I could do was cry while hugging my twin, I didn't know what to say. I told myself I would just accept where Lit would be happy, but why is this? Why can't I accept?

"M-my twin."

"What happened?" He asked and looked at me with concern in his eyes.

"I-I've seen her," I said. I've seen her, I've seen how she married my friend.

"Von?" That was the last I heard before I closed my eyes.

Hope everything is just a dream.

The next day I just woke up, it was noon and I had a headache.

"You're awake." I looked at the ones who speak, They are Leana and Leona. They include Fin and Creed. Where is Van?

"Oh, this is all I saw --- you're awake." I looked at the door, there was Van with medicine. I frowned as I looked at the baby's medicine.

"That's my son's stupid Vitamins." Fin said and threw a pillow at Van.

"If I can't find anything, then we won't be in pain," Van said and shook his head.

"Only Von was the first to have sick with us," Van added so he held me by the forehead to see if I was hot.

Yes, Fuck.

"We can make a potion, I just don't know if Von will drink it. Cuz y'all know he hates my potions." Leana said so I stared at her.

"What happened to you?" Fin asked leaning against the wall while crossing his arms.

"Why did you come home drunk last night?" Creed asked.

"And who are you saying you've found?" Van asked.

"Where did you go?" Leana asked.

"Who's with you?" Leona asked.

I feel like my head suddenly hurts so I'm stuck for a while. I'm too lazy to speak.

"I think Von needs to rest," Van said turning to look at me. He knew I was too lazy to speak.

"Van is right, Von needs to rest. I know he's tired so let's go guys." Said Leana.

"If you need us, we're just downstairs," Creed said walking out the door first.

I watched them come out until only Van was left. He could still look at me as if examining me.

"Do you have something to say?" We asked each other at the same time. He even laughed and shook his head.

"Rest first." He said and smiled then left my room.

I was left alone here, quiet and with no noise to be heard.

I turned to the window and was stunned. I remembered Lit again.

I slowly closed my eyes.

Please, I don't want to cry now. My head hurt too much to cry again.

But Fuck. Stupid is my tears, they dripped straight away causing me to cry again.

"Lit Tallulah Fuertez, do you accept Franco Hagazer as your husband for life, in hardship and comfort in sorrow and joy?"

"I do."

"Franco Hagazer, do you accept Lit Tallulah Fuertez as your wife for life, in hardship and comfort in sorrow and joy?"

"I do."

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"Let us all welcome Mr. and Mrs. Hagazer."

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" I shouted and stood up on my bed then pushed everything I could see in my room.

Fuck! Whatever I try to forget what I saw yesterday I can't do.

"FUCKING SHIT!" I shouted and threw stones at the pictures on the table.

I was sitting at the foot of my bed crying.

"Fuck Lit, why didn't you wait for me?" I cried question as I turned to look at the emptiness.

It's disgusting, if I knew this was going to happen, I wouldn't have waited for her.

I heard my bedroom door open.

"What the fuck bro?" My siblings immediately supported me.

The second time, they saw me crying just because of a woman.

"Look what you've done Von, What's happening to you?" Leana asked as she looked around my room.

"What's wrong with you Von?" Creed asked with a frown.

"I've seen her ..." I said while holding back my stupid tears.

"I've seen her .... And I've watched how she married my friend." Full of pain I said while looking at them, my tears were right.

"I watched how they exchanged 'i do', I watched how they kissed each other. I watched how happy she was next to my friend." I said crying and the only picture I could see was the happy Lit while my friend was next to me.

"I watched how she could be happy while I was, hoping she would keep her promise to me," I said and was very close to the pain.