seeing them kiss

Chapter 6

Sam Pov

I retreated. My vision was blurry but that didn't stop me from seeing them kiss. My tears flowed one after the other. I was weak but I strengthened my body. I returned to the dining area and returned the plate I was holding. Good thing manang was in the dining area because mommy was already in the living room. I wiped my tears.

"Why? Where are you going?" Manang said suddenly when he saw that I had returned the dishes that I should have put in the kitchen. My tears flowed. I was hurt by what I saw and heard. They kissed. I don't know what I feel, I'm hurt.

"I'm just going to get dressed." My voice trembled. I turned back and didn't wait for manang to answer. My tears started to fall as I went upstairs. Next my tears flowed like rain. I almost wanted to run to our room to release the pain.

When I opened the door, I cried. I was leaning against the door while looking up crying. I'm hurting. I was hurt by what I heard and saw. My heart aches. My tears flowed even more when I saw them kiss.

They still love each other.

I faint just thinking about it. How do sofia and kiel ask my parents? I closed my eyes tightly, my mother couldn't do that. I cried even more when the image of them entered me while Sofia was leaning against the sink and Kiel was holding her.

Maybe they miss each other. is sofia my sister? It's very complicated. My situation is difficult. I slowly sat down while still crying. I'm in pain but I can't do anything. I further confirmed that they still love each other. My tears fell one by one like rain.

"Samantha?"

I stopped crying when I heard manang's voice and knock. I wiped my tears but they still flowed.

"what?" My voice trembled when I spoke.

"Are you okay?." My tears flowed more and more at the question of manang. Maybe he sensed that I was feeling bad. I shook my head because I'm not ok. I'm hurt because I'm your wife but I don't know anything about kiel. I am hurt because they still love each other.

"O-o ok" I lied

Tears flowed one after the other as I slowly stood up to get ready. That's fine Sam, that's fine. He will learn to love. That's fine and you can do it. I'm trying to convince myself that I'm fine but the truth is..

No!

I went into the bathroom and continued crying there. I entered the shower room and I immediately felt the cold water on my body at the same time as my tears flowed down my cheeks

I felt the cold water flow all over my body. I didn't pay attention to my tears that flowed one after another. I let it go. After a while I finished. I went straight to the closet to get dressed. My eyes were puffy but I put a little make up on my face. I left the room and acted like nothing happened. Act normal. I took a deep breath before slowly going down. It's noisy even though I'm still quite far from them.

Their eyes were on me immediately when they saw me come down. My son was on dad's lap while drinking chuckie. Kiel was on another sofa. My heart ached when I remembered what they did. I want to tell them. I want to blame them but I'm afraid I'll be the one at fault again. I'm afraid, I'm the bad one. I was scared, I was the one who hurt. I looked away and sat next to mom.

"What took you so long?" mommy looking at me. I leaned on the backrest and looked at Sofia who was smiling at me. Is that true? I can't read sofia's thoughts and movements. It smiled big at me while I watched it carefully.

"I just took a bath and got dressed." I also smiled at my mother even though inside I felt like I was being crushed. I tried to smile sweetly and showed them no problem.

"by the samantha?" I turned to sofia when she spoke.

"I change my mind, I'll pick you up here tonight." I frowned at this. We all looked at it.

"What we talked about Sam? Did you forget?" He said as if he was hurt. I thought it was next week? I shook my head at Sofia's words. I didn't forget, I just thought it was next week.

"Where are you going?" My father is serious. I turned to my husband and my heart ached again as he just stared at Sofia, every movement of Sofia he followed with his eyes. I looked away

"I just want to be with my sister dad? Sam and I will bond as siblings." Sofia said happily while I was in pain. I bow down

"I can't Sofia, I'm sorry." I said boldly because I still don't want to be with him. I looked at my mother who was looking at me badly again.

"What? Come on Sam? You made a promised" Sofia was shocked.

"If you give your sister Samantha first?" My mother is serious. I don't know what to feel. I looked at Kiel who was still staring at Sofia. I took a deep breath before nodding.

"yawn, it's ok for you Ezekiel right?" Sofia asked tenderly but no one noticed. Their eyes met as if they were talking with their eyes.

"of course it's ok!" kiel replied coldly. I can't be civil. When it came to my brother it was different. I swallowed because my throat was blocked.

"it's settled then, I'll pick you up here tonight Sam, get ready."

I didn't say a word to Sofia. My throat is blocked. I was just leaning on my sofa where I was sitting while watching the two catching each other's eyes. My heart aches and all I do is look away.

"We won't be long, we still have a long way to go." Mommy broke down for a while. I drove it to the gate with my son. Mommy and daddy kissed me on the cheek before they got into the car. sofia just waved at me and looked behind me where kiel was standing. I didn't look at my kiel to see what his reaction would be My son was in my arms while still drinking chuckie. I turned to my husband who went straight to the garage and got into the car when he left and Austen left us here. My tears fell but I immediately wiped them before we went inside.

I'm hurting!

Manang greeted us with water. I smiled here sadly. I'm fine. He hugged me, along with my son. Manang is my second mother. She has been my nanny since I was a child. We sat on the sofa and rested. Even though I'm not doing anything, I feel very tired. I drank water.

"I saw your husband earlier and that's your brother.." tears flowed as I remembered that. I looked at Manang whose eyes were filled with worry. That's why he came to see me earlier because he saw what I saw. Next, my tears flowed as I looked up at Manang. No matter how much I hold back my tears, you are really hurt, they will continue to flow.

"Don't touch me manang, I'm fine." I shook austen and lifted him up and carried him in my arms before I passed manang. I wiped my tears and went upstairs.

"Samantha?" Manang called that to me causing me to turn around again. I smiled sweetly as if to indicate that I'm ok but the truth is I'm not.

I went upstairs and went straight to my son's room. I put austen on the floor causing him to run to his toys in a big box. I let my son go.

I opened the veranda of the room and the wind immediately greeted me. My loose hair flew. I sat on another sofa here in my son's veranda. I leaned on the backrest and closed my eyes.

My heart was squeezed by what I saw earlier. He still loves Sofia. I wonder if Kiel loved me even a little bit? I wonder if it is even a little bit worried? I wonder if he missed me even a little bit? I shed a single tear because I know to myself that there is still nothing.

I was at home with my son all day. I stayed in the room all day while thinking. I'm going down the stairs because sofia has arrived.

"let's go?" he pulled my hand out of the house. Kiel hasn't come home yet, maybe he's busy with the meeting. We entered the car that was brand new that had just been bought. He stopped the car immediately.

sofia stopped the car. I don't know where we're going. I just looked ahead while he was talking about this car that was a gift from Dad. Dad and mom are slowly recovering from their lack of Sofia. His story continued as I tried to smile.

After a while we reached the place Sofia wanted to go. From here in the parking lot we could hear the loud music inside and people shouting. I peeked out and realized we were in a bar. I looked at Sofia with a big smile.

"let's go? My friends are already inside." It came out first. I retreated as if I didn't want to. I already have a wife and child and this is not possible for me. I slowly went out and was surprised when Sofia suddenly pulled me inside. He nodded to the two guards at the door before we entered.

The people who were dancing, drinking, kissing and whatnot, all around me smelled of smoke and the light was dizzying. Sofia pulled me again and we first passed by the people who were dancing in front. I looked around at the mess.

"Sofia here?"

We heard that scream from somewhere. Sofia's smile widened when she saw the people on the sofa while drinking. We approached there and their eyes were immediately on me.

"guy's this is my sister, Samantha." Introducing sofia to me. One by one they said their names but I can't remember. They made me sit on another couch while they ordered a drink.

"Samantha? my friends." I nodded to Sofia and smiled at my friends. Their drinks arrived and they started drinking. I can't be together because I wouldn't be like this.

They drank while just looking at them. The others are already drunk and I wonder what they are doing. sofia also joined them in laughing and drinking.

"Samantha?"

Sofia shouted so that I could hear. The music got louder and louder and we had to shout.

"Drink this?"

I immediately shook my head when I saw that he presented me with a strong wine. I am being helped to drink it.

"no thanks Sofia, I don't drink, the juice is fine for me" I said smiling but he just shook his head and looked at me disspointed.

"come on don't worry, it's only one time and only one Sam." He scolded and his friends even kicked him so I couldn't do anything but accept it.

"Just one huh?" they nodded before I took a sip of the wine. I immediately felt the flow of alcohol down my throat. They screamed at what I did and they returned to the fun again.

I leaned on the sofa as I felt my eyes get heavy. I held my sintedo as much as I wanted to close my eyes. I tried to open my eyes but immediately felt myself lift up. Before I completely closed my eyes, I saw Sofia's big smile

"sleep well my dear sister." and everything went black.

To Be Continued...