Chapter Three

I sat down and tried to look comfortable as possible but did a terrible job. I could not pretend like everything was okay. I watched as Ryan waited for me to speak.

"You could have told me you were engaged. I never would have decided to do any of this if I knew you were soon to be married." I stated.

"I'm breaking it off with her soon. She's just using me. I just keep her around for a good time when you aren't available." He explained.

"I don't believe you." I simply said.

"Do you think I care? Hell no. Regardless, you and I both know that whatever this is between us will continue. You signed a contract as well so you'll just have to deal with whatever I toss your way." He said without a care in the world.

I quickly stood up and headed for the door.

“I could’ve broke the contract since that was an option but I'm leaving. My feet are killing me." I said before quickly leaving out the office before he said anything else.

Sometimes I regret even agreeing to this but damn I need it. I know what you're thinking, do I like Ryan? The answer is no and I never will. He's a conceited, self centered asshole and I don't have time for it. The only thing good about the him is the thing he carries in his pants.

Pulling my skirt down, I slammed my door and quickly entered my house.

Home. Boy did I miss it.

I took off my heels and placed my keys on the counter. This shower and bed was calling my name. Before I could even start heading towards my bedroom, my phone rung notifying that I had a notification. I grabbed my phone and unlocked it only to discover a text message from Ryan.

"I'll see you tomorrow afternoon at 3 PM. I need some of that pretty pussy of yours. This isn't me asking, it is a demand. You're the one who signed the contact as my submissive."

I sighed and shook my head as if he could see me.

Submissive? What did he mean? The shower was going to have to wait because I needed to do some research.

I went to Google on my laptop and typed in, "Submissive Relationship" and the first thing that popped up was a link to a website about the meaning of it.

What is a submissive?

A submissive is a person who makes a conscious choice to give up some or all control of her life to another person - a Dominant or a Top.

Dominance and submission is about a power exchange between two consenting adults. It is about the control within the dynamics of that relationship, whether it be a full time 24/7 relationship, or a casual meeting, or a part time arrangement.

Choosing to be submissive means to allow someone else to control your body and behaviour within the preset limits you and that particular person, ie the Dominant, have agreed upon.

Submission is not a sign of weakness, some of the most successful and strongest people are true submissives.

Submission is not about passiveness, it is not about being a doormat - most submissives are intelligent and well balanced people just fulfilling their basic desires to submit and to give up control.

Submission is not about kinky sex and whips and chains - though those things can and do play a part in our lifestyle, it is much deeper than just that, and comes from the heart.

Submission is a choice, and a wonderful gift to the Dominant - it should never be entered into lightly, even in a casual situation at a party or gathering.

What does a submissive usually do?

A submissive does whatever her Dominant requires of her, within the boundaries already agreed upon by both parties in the relationship.

She serves Him in whatever manner He wishes, for His pleasure and His comfort. Of course the most common perception of BDSM is that it is about kinky sex, and being tied up and whipped! In reality, it isn't necessarily that way at all. However, having said that - serving the Dominant sexually can and does happen, depending again on the boundaries agreed upon. Being there for his pleasure is what is important, He may wish to flog, spank, whip or cane the submissive, or perhaps indulge in medical play, or bondage, any number of activities, whenever and however He wishes.

Serving can take many other forms too, such as taking care of His house, cooking, cleaning, accompanying Him on outings, sitting at His feet, running errands, doing the shopping to name a few.

He may set tasks for the submissive, just for His own amusement, but more likely with a purpose, perhaps to help her improve her situation, or to challenge her mind, or simply something that He needs to have done.

In a more casual arrangement, the power exchange can be just for play, or for a regular amount of time each week, and in those cases, the submissive will give over control for the agreed period. Then serving is more likely to be for play, with or without sex, and perhaps some role play.

In a more long term arrangement, such as i have with my Master, the degree of submission is deeper and can include things such as what the submissive wears, how she has her hair, where she sleeps and what she eats. Long term relationships are more likely to include sexual service, but that is not always the case. There are D/s relationships where sex is not a factor at all.

A good example of this is the relationship my Master had with one of His submissives who was a bisexual male. My Master is straight - there was no sex at all between the two, yet for them both, it was a very fulfilling and complete D/s relationship.

Are there different types of submissives?

The simple answer is yes, we are not all tarred with the same brush, though we all have one main thing in common and that is the need to give control to someone else. We crave the feelings that come from the power exchange, no matter what form it takes, from physical play sessions to a request to serve tea to the Dominant, and anything in between.

There are various ways of describing each type of submissive - The psychological submissive gets her reward from the physical act of submission, and can often have masochistic tendencies, liking harder play than most. This submissive is into it for the pain and humiliation and often sees these activities as a punishment, which gives her the release she craves.

Quite often a psychological submissive is only a part time player, having another life completely and keeping both sides of her life separate from each other.

The sexual submissive is also sometimes described as the immediate submissive, and her need is filled by the consequences of her submission, in other words the sexual satisfaction or gratification she feels from submitting to a Dominant. Sometimes it can be a release from guilty feelings that she likes these activities, sometimes she just simply craves the endorphin rush and once it has passed, she feels no need to continue to be submissive.

The natural submissive is also known as the true submissive and usually has slavish tendencies. Her submission goes way beyond the sexual side of things and is more a part of her intrinsic personality. Her deep need is to relinquish control, and to please the Dominant in all ways, and her fulfilment is the very act of submission in all forms.

I stopped right there because I couldn't read anymore. I slammed the laptop shut and grabbed my phone. I went straight to Ryan's name in my contact list and wrote him saying, "No!"

I turned around and walked up the stairs. As soon as I was about to be at the top, there was a knock at my door. I groaned before turning around and headed towards the door only to be shocked at who stood in my doorway.

"Ryan?"