second thoughts

Chapter 3

I did nothing but obey Papa. Papa opened the door. I wiped my tear wet cheek. Papa went inside first and I was still having second thoughts Let's go"

I sighed and followed him. I just bowed while holding the fruit basket tightly. I'm ashamed to look at Mama.

Zaera, aren't you going to hug Mama?"

I was shocked to hear this. He was smiling but there were tears in his eyes. My tears flowed spontaneously and quickly hugged Mama and cried. It's like all the pain and hardships I went through before came back to me.

I haven't felt a mother's hug for a long time and now that I feel it, I don't want the day to end. This is what I need in those times. During the times when I was very difficult because of what Zero did to me and during the times when I was pregnant with Zian until I gave birth. But it's also my fault why they weren't with me at those times. I pulled away from his embrace. He touched my cheek Mama, please forgive me" I apologized to her.

Shhh. Forgive us too, son. I'm sorry if I scolded you before. I hope I understood you. It's not your fault, you just loved."

But I made a wrong decision, Mom. If only I had followed you and Dad, this wouldn't have happened to me" My tears started falling again.

Let's forget what happened, it was a long time ago. The important thing now is that you come back"

He wiped my tears. I nodded. I can't stop smiling. Nothing can describe the joy I feel right now. If I had done this before, I would have sympathized with what happened to me.

How are you? How much you've changed. You look better now, son" He said with a smile I'm fine, M-Ma. W-You, how are you? What did the doctor say?"

Your Mama will be out tomorrow, Son. Thank God she only had a mild heart attack" Papa explained so I breathed a sigh of relief It's good that way. I was very worried about you when I heard about what happened"

Mama held my hand. "What really happened to you and Zerron, son? Why did you leave their place?"

I was stunned by Mama's question. I don't want to talk but they still need to know everything.

Zerron just tricked me, Ma. He doesn't love me. That's why he let me live in the Mansion because it's for my son. He intends to take it from me when I give birth....now" I cried at the last word I said. I stopped myself from crying. I told myself that I will never cry because of that man. Papa stood up.

That shameless man! I wish you told us right away, Zaera. It's not right for him to treat you like that"

I'm sorry, Pa. I'm ashamed to come to you and one more thing, Zerron might find out where I am so I chose to go to Lovern and ask him for help to leave the Philippines. That's the reason why I stayed away I haven't shown up in years Tsk. I'm telling you, that man doesn't really mean anything to you, son. It's a good thing you found out about his bad plans for you right away. When it's time for our paths to cross, you'll get a taste of ' that shameless one!"

Valentine, Dear. Calm down"

How can I calm down, Flora? He killed our daughter! He got her pregnant and tricked her and then he has plans to take our grandchild? Alas! I can really kill that gag*!"

Pa, calm down. It's been a long time since that happened and one more thing, our son is with me and he will never get that from me"

I will never allow him to touch even a strand of my son's hair.

Papa gasped and sat down. I can still see the anger on his face.

Where is our grandson? Didn't you bring him, son?" Mom asked.

I'm sorry, Ma. I'd like to, but I can't. I can't just let him out because I don't want anyone from the Del Fierros to see him. I have to be careful"

He nodded.

Where did you stay when you left?"

I went to Spain and settled there with the help of Lovern and his older brother It's good that you have a friend ready to help you when we're not by your side. I'm sorry if you're alone at that time" Mama said seriously.

It's okay, Ma. The important thing is, we're fine" I said smiling We talked about my experiences in Spain until I decided to go home. Papa led me out the door Are you and your son going to live here, Zae?"

I was saddened by Papa's question. I'm sorry, Pa. We're also going back to Spain. We can't stay here"

Sadness appeared on his face. He sighed. "I understand, son. But if you are still far away, we would like to visit you I smiled and nodded. "No problem, Papa. I'll just text you the address where we live"

It nodded. I hugged him again. "I will go now Alright, son. Be careful"

I nodded and waved with a smile before making my way to the hospital elevator. I couldn't stop smiling while waiting for the elevator to open. When it finally opened, I immediately went inside.

It was about to close with hands that stopped it. I looked at the person who entered. The smile on my lips disappeared and it seemed like the sky and the earth had fallen on me. I can't stop the pounding in my chest because of the nervousness

Zaera"

I seemed to stop breathing when he mentioned my name. S-Tell me that this is just in my imagination. I want to pinch and slap myself. She Zero. Zero is here His chest was rising and falling and his breath was catching as he stared at me. He was also sweating. Without hesitation I pushed it to close the elevator Sh*t! Zaera!" He shouted.

He was about to enter again but I quickly pressed the 1st floor. It almost broke with my quick and hard pressure. My hands were shaking because of so much nervousness and tension. I leaned against the wall of the elevator and took a deep breath to calm myself down. But it's useless. I can not think properly. Is fate really playing a joke on me? Why now? I waited anxiously for the elevator to open. What if he's already there and waiting for me downstairs? What will I do? My hands are cold and I can't rest. As soon as the elevator opened, I quickly ran out. I looked around as I made my way out. I don't care about the looks people give me. The important thing is that I get out of here Zaera!"

I heard it calling so my nervousness doubled. Please, please. Don't let him catch me. When I finally got out, I headed straight for my car.

While I was running, I was also rummaging through my sling bag to find the key. Sh*t! Speed! Speed! When I got it I quickly opened the car. I was about to hope inside when a strong arm stopped me from doing it.

A strong hand wrapped around my waist so I couldn't get inside the car. One of his hands was also holding the car door so I couldn't close it. I immediately turned around and his burning eyes met me. Its jaws also leak Let go!" I said in annoyance and tried to remove his hand from the car door as well as from my waist. It didn't move and didn't even speak. It just stared at me. I have to admit that it felt weird when its skin was touching my skin and I didn't like it. After all, pain and anger dominate my feelings now as I see him.

What?! Said bit What the?! Hey! What are you doing?! That's mine!"

I was shocked when he snatched the car key from my hand. Without a word, he forced me into the car. I was filled with fear Zerron! Let me go! What?! I'm hurting!" I complained and struggled with him but he easily lifted me and put me inside the car.

I was about to go out when he went inside and immediately closed the door. He immediately started the engine without saying anything.

Zerron! Where are you taking me?! Stop the car! I tried to open the door but it was locked. I'm really nervous now. I don't know what he will do to me and what scares me the most is if he asks about my son. What will I do?

I rummaged through my bag and took out my cellphone. I immediately dialed the number of the police station. I was about to push the call button when he grabbed it from my hand and put it inside his pocket. I couldn't stop being so annoyed and angry.

What's your problem?! Give me back my cellphone!"No" He pronounced it strongly and looked at me for a moment. He stepped on the gas so my eyes widened as his speed reached 80 mph Zerron! Put me down!" I begged and held his arm but he ignored me. My throat is hurting.

I stood up and looked out the window. Good thing it's open. I looked outside. There are not many cars. I'm not going to die if I jump here, am I?

D*mn! What the h*ll are you doing?!" It screamed at me If you don't stop this car, I'll get out of here!" I shouted back.

I screamed when I felt his hand holding my clothes and pulling me back inside. It suddenly braked so that my side hit the edge of the window. He pulled me completely inside the car. I couldn't speak because of the pain in my side.

I just fell on his thighs. I grabbed my side and felt like I was going to cry because of the pain. I want to tell him everything I know because of what he did Sorry" He apologized but the anger in my heart only increased.

Just like that? Did he think that the pain would go away with his simple apology? I quickly left his lap and glared at him. Que te folle un pez!"

Translation: I hope you get f*cked by a fish What did you say?" His forehead was wrinkled as he looked at me. I looked away and didn't answer. I hope I just said that in English so he could understand.

Even though I didn't understand that, I know what you said was not good"

Good thing you know" I whispered and tried to open the car door again but it was really locked. In my annoyance, I slammed the door. "Get me out of here! Zaera, where is my son?" I know the seriousness in his voice. I was stunned and fear and fear began to engulf me again. I don't know what to answer. I looked at it. I gave him my most sincere stare.

Why should I tell you?"

Because I am his father!" His voice raised a little so I flinched. My fist clenched I took a deep breath to calm myself down.

Since when, Zerron? When did you become the father of my child?" I stress the word 'ko' at the end.

It's hard to believe. wow So, is he still angry now? You denied me that, Zaera! You denied being a father to our child!"

My palm quickly landed on his cheek. I poured out all the anger, resentment, sadness and pain he caused me. His face turned to the other side.

My tears fell one after the other while staring at him Our child?" I asked him a sarcastic question. "My child'!" I shouted and pointed at myself.

Zian is not your child, Zerron! He's only my child because you don't care about him as a father! And I didn't keep him from you! I just kept him away from someone like you!" I screamed again as my tears kept falling.

I said before that I won't cry anymore. H-I will never cry because of him, but I still can't stop myself, especially now that I'm facing him. It looked at me. I wiped my cheek.

I want to blame him for all the hardships I went through and everything he did to me before, but it's useless because it won't change the past. We both did that, Zaera. We both built him so I have the right to him" He said to me seriously and calmly. I laughed and was chosen.

We both did it but I brought him back to life" I answered and held my breath. It didn't answer.

I'm thankful and I heard your conversation that day because otherwise, I probably would have died of so much resentment, anger and sadness, Zerron" Tears started to fall again but I quickly wiped them away.

I regret that I chose you over my parents. You were the worst decision I made in my entire life and that will never be removed from my dark past" Full of resentment.

Zaera" It called my name. I stared at it. It caught my eye. I see his lips twitching as if he wants to say something but he just stops himself.

You have Heiress already and I know that you're both happy" I swallowed and looked away. I don't know, but while I was saying that, it felt like something was blocking my throat. My son is the only one left with me because the person I thought was mine isn't mine yet" I added as I leaned back in the chair. I wiped my cheek. I really want to leave. I'm really close to a breakdown.

If you have any plans to take my son back, Zerron, you will go to me first. I will fight for him even if we both kill each other and you will remember this, you will never touch him even a strand of his hair" I added. I faced the car window to hide my face.

Tears flowed from my eyes again. Tears are a pest, oh why can't they be used up? I shouldn't cry now because I promised myself. I wiped my cheek again but it was no use, they were still fighting.

To Be Continued...