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CHAPTER 2

"Maybe I didn't leave anything, by the way. I've already cooked for you so you don't have to order your lunch, there's porridge in the kitchen. I'm leaving." I was about to step past him but he immediately grabbed my arm causing me to stop again.

"Take that, Jade. I won't eat it either." He said seriously, I frowned at him before putting down my suitcase.

"Have you eaten?" I asked, fvck this love, why am I still worried about him despite all the bad things he said?

"It's over, Monica brought lunch to the office earlier." I bent slightly to wipe the tears that were about to fall.

"Ah, I have to leave, I can't wrap anymore. Just feed it to the polite dogs." I tried to straighten my voice so he wouldn't know I was crying.

"See you on the next other half love." I said goodbye, he laughed sarcastically before nodding.

"See you never, Jade." His cold response was, love, just call me love.

I took a deep breath before loading my things into my car, I memorized the look of Azriel's house before I finally left.

I just cried when I got to my parents house, they know that Azi and I have had problems but I don't mention to them the divorce that he is asking for.

"Mom, I didn't save it, I didn't save our marriage." I said crying before hugging mommy, she's the only people I know that can comfort me at these hours. "Mom, Am I not a good wife?" When I questioned him, he shook his head before combing my hair with his finger to help me calm down.

"Shh, It's not your fault, stop blaming yourself." when he sat me down, he helped me sit on the sofa before the water reached.

"Should I remove this?" I said while looking at the engagement and wedding ring on my finger.

Rings as symbols of love never ending.

I smiled bitterly after realizing that it wasn't true.

"If you want then remove them but if you're not yet ready, you can just stay there until you're ready to set yourself free." Mommy answered, I drank again from the water she handed me because I felt like I was going to run out of water from crying so much.

It was said in the book I read, What went wrong to the love that once was strong?

Right now I'm just thinking about the child in my womb, how can I handle my child growing up without a father? How can I handle him growing up like me without even knowing his father?

Should I have an abortion? Of course not, I've lost everything, my son, my husband and I might go crazy if my child is lost too.

"That's how deep you think." I turned around when mommy suddenly entered my room, she was carrying milk and was obviously getting ready to sleep.

"Mom, of course. You shouldn't have mixed me up, I can do it by myself. You should rest, it's getting late." I said while reaching for a glass of milk, he laughed at me before looking at what I was sketching.

"New client?" He asked while looking at the ball gown I was designing.

"Yes mom, you're too picky and artistic with your designs, you need to stay up late." I answered, he opened the next page of my scetch pad and he was greeted by my unfinished drawing for Azriel, I was going to give it as a gift for our Wedding Anniversary next month, but the case didn't make it.

Mommy took a deep breath before kissing my forehead.

"Don't forget to rest okay?" I nodded in response, he immediately left because he was said to be sleepy.

i handed my phone and started scrolling into my facebook account, I stalked Azriel's account because I felt a sense of missing him, for four years now I just can't sleep next to him again, it's a strange feeling, the kind that seems to have not enough.

"Azi, do you miss me too? Do you also cry at these times?" I asked while staring at his profile picture, it seems like only last year the two of us were still on it, now it's not.

he also doesn't post much because he is too busy with his patients, also he's running their family business that has been passed down to him, I even had a strong heart to think that he would never have another woman because apart from that I have confidence to him, I also know that he is gonetime to be a girl.And now here I am again questioning my own worth.

I shook my head while wiping my tears, I didn't notice that I had been staring at his pictures.

I checked his albums, I smiled after seeing that he hasn't deleted our pictures yet, tsk, Am I still hoping that he will come back to me?

He chases Monica.

I turned off the light in the room and immediately covered myself with a blanket, that's where I poured out all my tears, risking being exhausted and tired.

I woke up because I felt like my stomach was turning, I'm used to it because I've been like this for almost a week, Azriel just doesn't know because he leaves early for work.

I smiled happily after seeing that I was not in my room with Azi, I'm at my Maidens home.

New home, New beginning.

in the following days I tried to live without him, tried to wake up every day without thinking about him and crying, well it was hard at the beginning but I could handle it, I could handle it, not for me but for my baby.

I won't deny that I'm still crying, because it's not really that easy, but at least, I'm able to accept that this is it, that I have to wake up every day without Azi by my side, without a good morning from him.

Well, Azi and I have been in a relationship for 11 years, who would have thought that everything would end up like this?

Sometimes I even wonder what potion Monica used on Azriel just so I could use it on him too and get him back to me.

I'm 2 months pregnant, my belly isn't that big yet and mommy still doesn't know that I'm pregnant because I'm afraid she'll tell Azi, knowing her, she might attack Azriel just to force him to get back with me.

"What happened?" mommy asked, she was already eating breakfast and she must have noticed that I hadn't eaten yet.

"Why are you covering your nose?" He asked more. "Don't you like the foods?" He said as if sulking, I laughed weakly before spooning food even though I smelled, is this really what it's like to be pregnant? It's a shame that it's my favorite and I can't eat it.

I hold my breath every time I take a bite, I feel like I'm going to vomit because of the smell, I really can't.

Mommy looked at me when I put my plate away, she smelled the food because I didn't let go of my nose.

"Are you okay?" he asked, he came closer to me to check my forehead and neck, my god I'm not sick!

"I'm fine p—" I ran after throwing up, mommy followed me until we reached the sink.

I can see her raising her eyebrows, I know what she's thinking, my mom is not dumb.

"Are you not telling me something?" He asked, It scares me.

"No mom, you're overthinking I'm just vomiting because I drank last night." When I lie.

"There's no bottle of wine in your room, huh? You went to bed early last night, but you never know how to lie, Jade." He shook his head before taking out his cell phone, I was quick to grab it but he just held it up so I couldn't reach it.

"Okay, jump." He challenged me, I sneered at him then I was about to jump but he immediately stopped me.

"Are you out of your mind do you want to be filmed again?" He said stressed, I laughed at him before his shoulder became a captain.

"I'm not." I refuse, she continues dialing to her phone trying to call our family doctor.

"Yes this is Mrs. Guaren, I want to talk to Mrs. Vejasa, it seems like my daughter is sick." When he talked on the phone, I ran until I got back to the dining table."Wait for the doctor, Mrs. Vejasa is not around, she is in another country, so let's just wait for their temporary family doctor to assist us, just don't tell the doctor that you are pregnant, I'm telling you Jade! I'll slap you myself your spouse." It's a threat, I just made it hard for him but inside me, I really want to be alone because I'm nervous about mommy.