Chapter 5

Carolina

My passport came out faster than I imagined, privileges of being a billionaire after that night with Senhor Pedro I didn't see him anymore and he didn't show up in the children's room while I was there and I thanked him for that, I wasn't prepared to see him because shame consumed me.

Our trip was advanced, Mrs. Thamara did not want the children to go, she said it would be a waste of time to take such small children abroad, but from what I understand, Mr. Pedro said that they would go and that was it and she had to accept.

Before going to England, we were going to stay two days at a resort in Bahia.

Even knowing that I was working, I was thrilled to be able to visit the beautiful beaches.

A car came to pick us up, me and the children, because Mrs. Thamara went with Mr. Fernando in his car and Mr. Pedro was at the company and would go from there.

I got in the car with the kids and Luna as always restrained, didn't show her feelings much.

- Luna, aren't you happy?

We will travel.

I look like I'm going to explode with anxiety.

- I am, but I don't like to show what I'm feeling.

- At that moment I understood that little five-year-old girl.

And I felt sorry for her.

I felt guilty for being so happy.

I wanted her to be happy too, even though no one was paying much attention I wanted her to feel that I was there with her and paying attention to her.

- Aunt Carol, you will have a lot of fun, it will be a unique experience for you and I will be happy for you.

- I want you to have fun too, let's agree to have fun, even if no one looks at us?

"I'll try." She gives a half smile.

How a five-year-old girl has been dealing with all of this.

When I lost my mother, I felt alone.

But I only knew it was loneliness when my father left me for his new girlfriend family, but I didn't lose hope.

But I understand Luna, she never had the feeling of love and never felt it, only nannies that are changed like the decoration of the house that her mother doesn't like.

The shame consumed me when we arrived at the flight deck and Mr. Pedro was there with his wife holding his waist.

Good thing I got away from him yesterday and didn't let anything worse happen, what a nanny can expect from a man like him who has one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen for a wife.

Expect nothing.

The poor other maid fell in love with him and was thrown out on the street like an object that is no longer used.

I got out of the car with the kids and the driver took care of bringing our luggage.

I actually brought a backpack, I found out that I would have a day off and I wanted to take the opportunity to buy some things that are cheaper in England than in Brazil.

Luna stayed by my side and little Thomas on my lap, Mr Fernando helped us to get on the plane and Mrs Thamara and Mr Pedro got in last, what surprised me was his help, not even looking at his nephews he was going and now helping me, this was very strange.

- Caroline, isn't it?

– I confirmed while helping Luna to sit – May we enjoy the trip.

- I'm going to work sir, I'm not going to travel for pleasure.

- I saw you two through the window - he smiles mischievously.

- You must not have seen anything then, because nothing happened.

- If you want it to happen to me, I'm available.

- This is available for my dear brother-in-law - Mrs. Thamara enters the plane and did not like to see him talking to me.

- To help with the children, you know, travel can make them euphoric.

- The nanny earns very well not to leave the children euphoric and not to disturb us during the trip - she glared at me - Isn't it a nanny?

- Yes ma'am.

- So, it's all settled - she ended the matter and I thanked her for that.

I could see the jealousy that ran through every corner of that woman's body, and that she cared a lot about her brother-in-law, who sat next to her brother and she facing her husband and I and the children with our backs to them and I thanked her. God.

Little Luna was afraid of the plane and I held her hand giving her all my support, little did she know that I was the one who was afraid and that it was my first time in that business.

I prayed, prayed and asked that that thing wouldn't fall, that we didn't deserve to die, maybe the witchmara, witch mix with Thamara and mosnando mix monster with Fernando deserved.

May God forgive me.

I held Luna's little hand and she told me softly.

-Aunt Carol, don't be afraid, I'm holding her hand.

- It's my first time - I confided.

- I'm holding your hand, everything will be fine Aunt Carol - a five year old consoling me is the end of my career.

In a few minutes we were in the sky among the clouds, Mr. Pedro was working, Mrs. Thamara was sleeping and Mr. Fernando was drinking.

Thomaz slept and Luna also dozed.

I arranged them both so they wouldn't have a sore body and then I looked out the window at the clouds.

After a while the blue of the sea started to appear and we were in Bahia, we landed near the hotel and we would go by car and I went alone with the children in another car.

We went straight to the room, the kids were tired and a room with two single beds and a crib.

Perfect for the three of us, the heat took over and after a shower the two slept and when I opened the window, I almost fell back at the view, we were in front of the beach, the blue sea seemed so close.

But I won't deny that I was very afraid of the tsunami, don't judge me, but I am afraid.

And I actually like the beach, I think it's beautiful, but I'm the crazy one who looks at the sea in fear.

The next day, the kids and I played on the beach and how good it was to see the happiness in their eyes, I don't think I'll ever forget this moment.

The dinner with their parents was not pleasant at all, Thamara hated the presence of the children and asked me to take them to the room as soon as they finished eating and that was not the place for them and so I did.

I got to the room with them and they both soon fell asleep, Luna was talkative today and I was thrilled that my little one was able to let go and live like any other child lives in their daily lives, she is very charged by her mother and ends up closing herself off to the world.

But I want to be able to ease that as the days go by.

It was early and very hot, so I opened the bedroom door, took a soda from the minibar and sat on the chairs that the hotel provided for us to sit on the beach and watched the waves come and go.

I remembered Mom and how she would love to stand there with me watching the waves and talking nonsense.

I thought to my father that we could have done this and enjoyed ourselves more and we didn't.

- Carolina - the man's voice made me tremble.

- Senhor Pedro – he was on the beach – The children are already sleeping – I didn't know what to say.

- It's late – he lowered his head – I wanted to apologize to you for that day, I didn't behave with you and I drank too much I ended up doing things.

– he gestured.

- I also drank and I shouldn't have stayed there talking to you, I'm going in.

- Don't go - he holds my hand as he did that day, in fact I don't know how he got so fast close to me - Stay here, I came to walk a little, sometimes the world I live suffocates me, Thamara loves to live with luxury and rich people, but all this suffocates me.

- I think it's better to go Mr. Pedro, I can't lose my job - the words of his brother Fernando came to my mind who had seen us - Unlike you, when you suffocate from luxuries, you go for a walk, I don't have the choice to suffocate and I can't keep talking to you.

- You're right – he continues holding my hand – I'm just saying what I feel and I didn't think about you, I'm sorry Carolina, I'm sorry for finding you beautiful and I'm sorry for wanting you.

- What are you saying - I took my hand from his - This is crazy.

And the kiss he didn't give me that day, today came true.

He held my waist and kissed me calmly and then he deepened pulling my body close to his and I was speechless.

He was a beautiful man, he knew what he was talking about, he knew how to kiss and.

No, he's my boss, married and I can't fall for that, Aunt Ivone warned me to stay away from him and I pushed him away.

"Don't ever do that again." I slapped him across the face and headed to the bedroom to stay with the kids.

How can he play with people's feelings like that.

Aunt Ivone said that he was in love with Thamara and that he would never leave her for another woman and neither do I want that, what silly thoughts entered my head.

What would a rich man like him want with a poor girl like me to cheat and throw away.

At breakfast he stayed next to his wife who was in a bad mood for having gone to bed late and woken up early and her Fernando gave me smiles the whole time we were there.

I got up to get some fruit for Thomas and the man came along with me.

- Nice move, Carolina.

- I don't know what you're talking about, excuse me.

- Thamara would love to know that her husband is kissing the nanny - I try to leave, but he holds my arm - You are in my hands girl or I tell everything to the beautiful Thamara and you go straight to the street.

- What if he finds out that you two are having an affair?

– he was amazed – Would he be upset with you?

"He wouldn't believe you." Our voices changed.

- Is there a problem Caroline?

- Lord Pedro, come close to us.

- We are discussing whether papaya is good for the intestines, isn't it Mr. Fernando?

– I looked at him – And he told me he doesn't eat because his bowels are loose.

- Yes, Carolina – I left them there and went to take care of the children.

Only I needed to be blackmailed by my boss's brother.