Chapter 5: I KNOW IT ISN'T LOVE, NEVERTHELESS

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Waking up in his arms ,him gently patting my shoulders, giving lot's of pecks on my forehead. This is crazy! But It was so good...

"I want to keep sleeping like this" Calix says with his eyes closed.

"Me too. Should we skip school?".

He only gave a chuckling smile and patted my hair..then he stood up and went into the bathroom.

At least, if I was drunk I could have used that as an excuse. Darn, Goodness!

"Is that mine? He asks, pointing at his hunged hoodie.

"Yes" I replied quickly..

"It's fine, you can have it. Or just throw it away. I'm going to have breakfast outside. By myself ".

"Outside..? I couldn't help but ask. Oh! right. I get it. I should get some more sleep.Go ahead". I sheepishly say.

"I want to keep seeing you. What about you? Should we meet up sometimes?".Calix threw the big question.

This is it.He's asking if I want to meet up and sleep with him sometimes without dating."I'm not sure".I responded.

"Think about it and tell me.I'll be off".He says smiling as he walked out.

Calix is too smooth with everything. It's like everything comes naturally to him. I can stop this right now, because there are so many reasons why I shouldn't do this.But, I'm still attracted to him even at this moment. Like crazy!...

Since that day, a lot of things have changed between us, as Calix slowly seeped into my life. Our relationship only exists at night, but...it sometimes felt like we were lovers. I can't tell if he's warm or cold, serious or joking.

My anxiety about Calix hasn't disappeared,but... we're much more compatible than I thought. And I enjoy spending nights with him.....

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I had stayed back at the academy, because I had to finish up my assignment. Just while at the middle of it, I could hear foot steps approaching. It sounded familiar...

"Happy birthday Scarlett". Calix whispered in my ears, placing a brown neatly rapped gift box on my table.

I don't know if I should have a tint of excitement, whatsoever but I definitely gave a smile.

He asked to walk me home....

"How do you like your gift?"

"I've never been forced to receive a gift like this". I replied.

"Come on... can't you just express your happiness so I can feel proud?" He says feigning a bit of annoyance in his tone.

"Alright...Thank you!" I shout out excitedly, exposing all my teeth.

He responded with a smile as we continue walking....

"Wear it tomorrow, okay?"

"Okay.I will."But weren't you going to the exhibit? It's the last day today".I say.

"How could I think about that right now?".Says Calix as he gave my hair gentle patting.

He's making me get my hopes up again.....Such a cute demon!.

"You got me a gift, let me buy you a meal".I gave a rhetorical answer.

"Well...." he stuttered.

"Oh.. you have plans?" I wished I didn't ask.

"It's your birthday". He says playing cute smiles around."Let's go ".

We ran all the way to my house. I thought it was my worst birthday ever. But I guess life is full of variables. "Hang on. I will make this right away". He was about making instant noodles in my kitchen against the initial plan of me buying him a meal.

"It's been a while I had noodles for my birthday". I say walking up to him.

"Really?...I thought everyone had it except for me. I feel comforted now". He chuckled.

I just couldn't stop staring at him....

"What...?"He finally asks,after having enough of the stares.

"You haven't told me something like that before...you don't talk much about yourself. I answered.

"Well...that's because you know me so well already".This time he moved closer and placed both hands beside me against the kitchen cabinet.

"I don't know anything about you...I really don't". I tried moving my face.."You're such a mystery to me".

He gave a naughty or cunny smile... I'm not sure which it was.

"Stop fooling around and continue making this...." I didn't see any possibility, but I said it smiling.

"Not that". Calix pulled me back and made me sit on the cabinet.

"Then, what?". I stuttered as my hormones began playing a fast one.

He leaned so close, that our lips met.

This kiss was so different...his soft palms lingering down my mini skirt and gently taking down my p**ties.

Just then, his phone rang....it was a lady, judging from the name. "Let me take a call". Calix says as he withdrew from my grip.

I sat there, waiting for about 8mins,and then he came in.

"Sorry, I have to go".He finally said "Something urgent came up with a friend".

"okay. You should go then. I faintly retorted.

"Make sure to eat. I'll get going".

Darn! Why can't he just be my boyfriend!!!!!!.

As I watched Calix leave, a mixture of frustration and longing filled my heart. The way he could effortlessly switch between being sweet and distant was both captivating and infuriating. It was as if he held all the power in our relationship, dictating when we would meet, how close we would become. But deep down, I knew that it wasn't healthy to continue this way. I needed clarity, stability, something more than stolen moments in the dark.

Determined to confront my feelings, I decided to take matters into my own hands. I reached out to Calix and proposed that we meet up outside of our usual nighttime rendezvous. It was time for us to have a serious conversation about what we truly wanted from each other. Would he be willing to let down his walls and commit? Or was this simply a game for him? With a racing heart, I waited anxiously for his response, hoping that it would bring the clarity I desperately sought.

Calix's response came sooner than I expected. He agreed to meet, but his message was cryptic, leaving me with even more questions. "Meet me at my house tomorrow night. I'll finally reveal everything." My heart raced with anticipation as I tried to decipher what he meant by "everything." What secrets was he hiding? Was this the moment when our relationship would be defined?.....

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As I walked up to his house, I could hear voices..... Getting closer, a man held Calix on the shirt. It seemed like they had had a confrontation.

"What the hell are you doing with my wife?". The man kept on asking at the top of his voice.

Time stood still as I watched the scene unfold before my eyes. The man's rage was evident, his voice booming through the streets like thunder. A wave of unease washed over me - this wasn't just some casual fling or secret affair; it was much more complicated.

I had to rush over to separate them...."Stop it Calix, Stop".

Soon enough, the police arrived, and I just had to follow him to their station.

The issue was resolved, as we slowly walked out.

"Miss, let me give you an advice".Says the mystery man. "You should meet a decent man. You'll ruin your life if you date an asshole like him". Having said this, he entered his car and zoomed off....

I stood there, stunned and overwhelmed by the sudden turn of events. The truth had been laid bare before me, and it was far from what I had expected. As Calix and I walked out of the police station, silence hung heavy in the air. The weight of his secret still lingered between us, threatening to shatter the fragile bond we had built. Doubts gnawed at my heart, but a part of me still longed for answers, for closure.......