Chapter 9 Chapter 9

Jin-hyung sat down beside me and then he showed me his wrist.

"I know you don't see it but the numbers written on my wrist are just steps away."

"Huh??" I looked at Jin-hyung's face. Shocked written all over my face. While he looks calm still looking at his wrist.

"The person is just around us. I also have a vague idea on who it is."

I gulped.

"W-who is it?"

"It's someone you and I probably both know." Jin-hyung said with a half smile.

"Ohhh..."

I looked at Jin-hyung's wrist. So he already found his soulmate. How will this make me feel better??

"You're probably thinking how this will help you."

I looked at Jin-hyung and nodded.

"Yoongi-ah, you and I both know we can't choose our soulmate. Nobody can. No matter what we do, a time will come in our lives we're will need to face such reality. We can't escape our fate and even if we do try, the ones who'll suffer is just ourselves."

"I know. I completely understand. But I'm not ready hyung."

"Stop lying." Jin-hyung said with a stern look on his face.

I look away from him.

"I'm not."

Jin-hyung sighed.

"Yoongi-ah, tell me the truth now or do you want me to tell you your truth."

I look back at him and stood up.

"There's nothing to tell hyung!"

Jin-hyung also stood up.

"Then why do you look so afraid?"

I was taken aback by what he said.

"W-what? No. I'm not."

"Your expression tells me otherwise."

I looked at hyung tiredly.

"Hyung, please."

"Please what?"

"Let's just stop this conversation."

"No."

"Jin-hyung!"

"I'm sorry Yoongi-ah. I may sound harsh but I want to slap this reality to you. This is affecting you so much  thus affecting everyone. So now tell me the truth."

"What truth?"

"That you are afraid to meet your soulmate."

Silence.

I tried to retaliate but no words came out from my mouth.

So I turned my back on hyung. We didn't talked for a minute.

I tried reorganizing my thoughts but what Jin-hyung said kept repeating on my mind.

"Yoongi, talk to me."

I understand what hyung told me. I really do.

"....."

"I didn't want things to escalate like this. I just want you to open about this things to me. I am your hyung after all and I want to help you as much as I can."

I'm not that stupid not to realize it. I was just denying it. It makes life easier was what I thought until I reached this point.

"....."

"Yoongi-ah."

I gave out a big sigh at sat down on my bed, head hanging low.

"Hyung..."

"Y-yeah??"

"I am."

"What?"

"....."

"Yoongi-ah..."

"I'm afraid."

"I know you are."

Jin-hyung sat beside me again and i told him the reason why.

"I'm afraid to meet that person hyung. Lots of what ifs keep popping in my head since the day the numbers went down the first time we came in the Philippines."

"I see. But that's okay, Yoongi-ah."

"How so?"

"Because we don't know what kind of person our soulmates are."

"Yeah, we don't."

I laughed bitterly.

Jin-hyung gently touch my shoulders and made me face him.

"Listen, you're allowed to think like that. Nobody will judge you. Nobody will hate you for that. You're not the only one who has been through such things."

"I know that hyung. I wish I was just like them though. They handled it like it's nothing."

"We all had it hard Yoongi. Trust me."

"But you we're not afraid hyung unlike me."

This time Jin-hyung laughed bitterly.

"I've been there Yoongi-ah and it's frightening. It still is."

"Ohh.."

"Being afraid is natural. We all had that vulnerable stage. But you need to somehow overcome it Yoongi-ah. You need to be strong enough now so you can deal with what's gonna happen when the time comes that you'll meet."

"Is that how you're dealing with yours hyung?"

"Yes, Yoongi-ah."

"D-did it help?"

"Yes. It did. It helped me a lot in overcoming my fears."

"Ohhh. So youre not afraid anymore?"

"Don't get me wrong, Yoongi-ah. I'm still afraid now but it's bearable."

"I see."

I looked at my wrist.

"You just need to stop making things hard for yourself."

I exhaled sharply and slowly slide the sleeve covering it.

"Well?"

"969816 steps."

I looked at hyung and he gave me a reassuring smile.

"You're soulmate is still far. Maybe it's fate's way of saying it not your time to meet yet. So stop feeling anxious and overcome your fears, okay."

I nodded.

Hyung is right. I can't be anxious all the time cause I'm afraid I might meet this person. Sooner or later, I might need to deal with this so before that time comes I need to be strong enough to face it.

"Thanks Hyung for helping me realized lots of things."

"No problem. I'm glad I could help you."

"You did hyung and I'm really glad for that."

"Well then, I'll leave you to settle things with yourself first. I'll tell the staff you'll be joining us in 30 minutes."

"Okay. Thanks again, hyung."

Hyung smiled and gave me a thumbs up then he left my room.

I settled down and started to relax.

Letting it all out to someone about how I truly felt really help lift up some heavy burden inside of me.

I'll overcome this.

I'll be strong.

Strong enough to not let it affect me. I'll do it for myself, for the members and for ARMY's.

(A/N: End of Yoongi's Flashback)

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After finishing the Summer Package schedule in Coron Island, BTS flew back to Manila to relax for a bit and get ready for the 2 day Wings Concert in MOA Arena.

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The 2-day concert was successful and BTS flew back to South Korea for their next schedule.

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But that was the last time Yoongi went to the Philippines.

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A/N: This chapter is dedicated to SaheraKayenat.