Chapter 8 Chapter 8

A week before our flight to the Philippines, the staff gave us another briefing. We we're told that we'll be traveling earlier to the country for another schedule.

The guys suddenly got excited about it while it made me tense up again. I shouldn't let this get to me. I'll be fine. Then RM asked the staff what schedule it would be and they told us will be doing our summer package in one of the islands in the Philippines.

No.

This can't be happening.

We shouldn't go anywhere aside from Manila. Why did they decide to do the summer package there.

The briefing went on. The guys asking questions, being excited and all while I stayed silent and unbothered. Jin-hyung keep glancing at me and had that worried look. The guys must've notice it and also my lack of participation so when we went home and arrived at the dorm, RM told me we need to gather around and talk about something they all noticed (aside from Jin-hyung), that's been bothering me since they announced that our next tour will be held in the Philippines.

I sighed and nodded. I guess I couldn't really hide it any longer from these guys. They all know me to well. No, that's not it. We all know each other too well.

I told them about my soulmate incident that happened a year ago which Jin-hyung only knows. That it made me anxious and stuff. That's why it bothered me coming back to the Philippines.

They listened well while I keep on talking about it and after that they assured me that I'll be fine.

Then suddenly Jimin asked me something and I was taken aback by it. He told me, 'Hyung, do you not really want to meet your soulmate? I understand that for now you want to focus on your career but how about in the future hyung will you not look for that person then?'

Silence. They all looked at me and waited for my answer.

I looked away and told them 'I don't know.'

After that nobody talked about it. I guess they don't want to pry anymore and just let me handle it since it's my personal business. But they assured me that they do understand me and that they'll support me in whatever my decision is which I'm really glad for.

But in all honesty. It was true though. About my answer to Jimin's questions . I really don't know. Maybe time will tell and when that time comes if we're destined to meet then we will meet in the end.

But not now. We can't meet yet. Not yet.

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Days passed by and we're now on our way to the airport. I decided not to glance more often at my wrist as to not feel anxious.

The guys also keep assuring me I'll be fine and that made me feel better.

When we arrived at Incheon Airport,

we bid goodbyes to K-ARMY's, told them we'll miss them and assured them will be back in no time.

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Four hours later we arrived at NAIA Airport in the Philippines. We didn't expect to see Pearl ARMY's outside the airport waiting for us in an orderly manner. After all we arrived earlier than expected. Still we we're happy to see them as much as they are happy to see us.

Then we headed to our hotel to rest before going to the island tomorrow.

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It was hard but I restrained myself not to look at my wrist. Even when I took a bath after we arrived at the hotel. I tried to take a good rest as well that night since we'll be traveling early to the island tomorrow.

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As soon as we arrived at the island, I feel a bit at more anxious. Even though the place was breath taking, it didn't help me feel relaxed at all. It was really bothering me a lot.

Good thing though that the people who only noticed my behavior was the members. They tried to assure me again, tried to tell me to relax and calm down.

It wasn't really helping at all. So I left them and went inside our accommodation and tried to lock myself in my room. I was so anxious, I didn't even realized Jin-hyung had followed me.

As soon as I got inside my room, I kept walking back and forth. This soulmate system is really stressing me out at the moment and because of that I can't even look at my fucking wrist.

Fuck this system. Why the hell does it exist? Why the hell am I in this predicament?

Lots of questions keep popping in my head, one by one and there's not even a single answer to them.

It's making me feel so exhausted that I decided to lay on my bed, just close my eyes for a moment and tried not to think of anything. Hoping it will ease my mind and soul.

(A/N: Imagine him laying in bed while his left arm is covering his eyes.)

But then suddenly, I heard a knock on my door. It was Jin-hyung and he wanted to talk to me.

I sighed and got up. I open the door and let hyung inside.

Not looking back at him, I went back to my bed and just sat there, head laying low. I can't even look at hyung. I know his dissapointed in me. No, not just him, probably the others as well.

Silence.

It seems hyung doesn't even know what to say to me.

"Yoongi."

I really messed up for letting this get to me.

"Yoongi."

I shouldn't had made them worry like this. I really should apologize to-

"Yoongi!"

That startled me back to reality. I look up to see Jin-hyung, a displeased expression clearly written on his face.

"Are you ingnoring me right now?"

"N-no, hyung. I-I was just thinking a lot. I didn't realized you we're talking to me."

Jin-hyung gave a long sigh. His displeased expression is now replaced by a worry one.

There it is again. I made him worry again.

I sighed as well and once again hang my head low.

"I'm sorry hyung. I really am."

"Yoongi-ah. Look at me."

Hesitantly I look up to him again.

He put his hands on my shoulders and look directly in my eyes.

"I know for a fact you're having a hard time but I know you're also aware that it's not just you that's affected by this. But I want to tell you something and I really hope this well help you feel better."

Then he sat down beside me.

"O-okay."

Whatever hyung is gonna tell me, I really do hope that it would really make me feel better and not make the others worry anymore.

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A/N: This chapter is dedicated to seo_sorin.