Chapter 5: Love

You sat there with a small circle mirror in front of you while Court Lady Kang brushed your hair with an approval smile playing on her lips. You pressed your red lips into thin line as you looked down, closing your eyes tightly, and remembered the Queen Dowager's words.

'You need to consummate so that if you get pregnant, you will still be the Queen no matter what'

But what she doesn't know was that, you couldn't get pregnant anymore. Not after that incident happened—the incident where it made you hate Jungkook more.

Tonight, even with the guards outside the palace, the Queen Dowager issued an order for Jimin and you to consummate—it was all her plan. In fact, Jimin and you cannot have a say on it since she is the highest elder in the palace.

Court Lady Kang stood up from her position before grabbing the robe that she hang on the screen before slowly putting it over your body, tucking your hair to the front.

Suddenly, you could hear her sniffles making you look at her while fixing your robe. "Why are you crying?"

She looked at you with tears evident on her eyes, and a small smile on her lips. "I just can't believe that this day would come again."

Your heart softened at the sight and her words, cupping her cheeks gently. "It's not like this is my first night."

She giggled, sniffing again. "I still remember Your Majesty's first night together with His Majesty."

Your eyes widened, a tint of blush appeared on your cheeks. "What?"

A sudden image of your first night with Jimin appeared on your mind making you blhsh furiously. You were young when you entered the palace, and young when you married and even consummate with Jimin.

"It's just that—" She gulped down fidgeting her fingers. "After Consort Jeon—"

"Stop blaming yourself, Court Lady Kang." You sighed, cutting her off and smiling at her. "It isn't your fault, okay? We cannot stop the King's feelings towards him anyway."

It was true. It wasn't anyone's fault that Jimin fell in love with Jungkook. It was you as his wife and lover that is at fault for not being enough.

She looked at you before you said in a gentle manner, smiling as you fluttered your eyelashes. "Everything happened already. Let's just await for the future."

"Stop crying, okay?" You added, and she nodded, helping you towards the bed before facing away to leave the room.

"Also," She turned around, waiting for your orders. "Can you call my brother for me? Tell him to wait at the library."

She nodded, and you sat down, watching her bow before going out of the room as you waited for Jimin to come. You glanced at the drawer near you before opening them, eyes catching the object that displayed there.

It was the poison.

The powder that Jungkook got poisoned to.

You sighed and frowned, eyebrows knitted together as your heart clenched—a pang of guilt shot right through your heart.

"I'm sorry."

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"Y/N." He whimpered, eyes closing as he grunted sweet words in your ears sending shivers down to your spine, thrusting in and out of you in a slow pace.

Your lips trembled, legs shakes in pleasure, eyes rolling at the back of your head and fingernails leaving scratch marks on his back. The pleasure he was giving you was too much, and he never fails to do this every time you did it with him.

You could even feel him leaving feather kisses and hickeys on your neck all the way to your collarbone, even peppered you with pecks on your face—to make sure that everything will be okay. Those touches made you whimper. You knew that he always do that for you to know that you are loved and cared still by him, but now, everything somehow changed.

Those sweet kisses that he gives you makes your heart flutter every time, and it's perfect. But one thing was wrong for sure.

It was that, he never kisses you anymore.

A tear rolled down your cheeks, and your heart screamed in agonising pain as he kept whispering things that reminded you that you should never cross the border.

It was the words 'I loved you'.

And you had to remind yourself over and over again that he used to love you, but that all matters and enough for you, because along those process of him loving you was you being happy in his arms. At least he still managed to love you even in just a short amount of time.

Hence, you couldn't stop your tears from streaming down your cheeks as you felt his every touches on your body that sent tingling sensations in all over your system.

How is it that I still feel your soul with me? When I knew it was fake.

How is it that I can still feel those loving touches you gave me when you still love me? Or was I assuming again?

How is it that I fell in love over and over again with you?

Are you just pretending that you still cared? Because of pity and guilt?

Please let me forget you. Don't make me feel like I'm the only one for you.

Don't make me feel like I'll be with you for the rest of you life.Because I cannot anymore.

He collapse on top of you as soon as you both reached orgasm, and panted heavily as he let out a loud groan. Your lips quiver, suppressing your sobs as his face buried on the side of your neck, hot breath hitting the flesh of your skin, and arms around as if he doesn't want go let you go.

But you had to.

A few minutes, he let out a snore, giving you a chance to escape from his grasp, slowly getting out and sat beside him. You looked at him once again, tucking his hair behind his ears as he laid flat.

"Depose me, Jimin." You whispered, eyes looking so dearly at your husband. "I know you love Jungkook."

Your lips dried up, gulping your saliva down to your throat. "Make him your queen."

You took this chance to scan his facial feature as this might be the last chance you will see him closely. "There's nothing impossible as long as you're you're king. My brother will assist you too."

You stood up, not caring about the sore as you dressed yourself in a white satin inner dress. You took the robe, wearing it over your shoulders as you made your way toward the door with the maids opening up for you. You stopped, taking a deep breathe as you turned around, taking a glance at Jimin.

"And I will make sure that no one will be against it." You turned your head back, cowering your head down. "I'm sorry, Jimin."

Minutes passed as you walked towards the library, you took a glimpse in front of you to see your brother waiting for you. He glanced at you with a soft smile before both of you entered the library.

You sat down with him across you, him not minding the fact that you just had sex with Jimin. Without any talk, you decided to be direct about what you wanted to say.

"Petition for me to be deposed, Orabeoni." Because you know that you cannot step down.

I cannot step down and that's why you will do it for me, Orabeoni.