My Little Happiness

I was at the library for about three hours to prepare my graduation presentation while listening to the YNWA album. I lifted my head and found my best friend, Jinyoung, already sleeping on the desk. He should be tired and so I am.

He was the only friend I could make during my college years. I'm kind of a loner so I never really had friends before, even when I was still in high school I just had one but we lost contact after graduation.

Jinyoung was kind to me, he was chosen as my partner during lab practices and helped me when I didn't understand something. After that, we became friends, we started studying together at the library and sometimes we hung out with his friend we call JB.

I stared at my laptop's wallpaper and smiled.

It's a picture of the three of us during JB's birthday party last year, he's popular because he's handsome and has a nice voice that makes all the boys and girls melt for him

It's a picture of the three of us during JB's birthday party last year, he's popular because he's handsome and has a nice voice that makes all the boys and girls melt for him.

I still can't understand why they became friends with a loser like me. I have always been bullied before because I'm smart and not cool.

"Jinyoung hyung! Wake up it's already ten, we should go back home."

He opened an eye and lazily lifted his head. His sleepy face was so cute that I smiled looking at him. Jinyoung is handsome but I never developed any kind of feelings for him, I just consider him as my best friend.

After eating dinner I went to my room, opened my laptop and clicked on the precious Youtube channel called BANGTANTV. I kept on replaying some videos that I watched like a million times before and smiled like an idiot.

Watching BTS's videos just made me happy for no reason. Watching a five minutes video of Jin eating and making weird sounds like made me happy. Watching J-Hope screaming and jumping made me happy. Watching Vkook playing with each other like kids made me happy. Watching RM talking about some philosophical shit about life made me happy. And, watching Suga doing nothing made me not just happy but something more than this. It was like watching your crush from afar and you can't touch him.

I wonder how I could be patient during all these years without being able to touch that soft skin and those cute pink lips.

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