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chapter 4

"Did you tell your brothers?" asked Misha. I shook my head.

"It's just a big mess when I say that. And one more thing, I know Kuya Arvin didn't mean it"

"It wasn't on purpose!? Wake up, Ivy. He kissed you. That's obvious! He hasn't been drinking and sober. You said it, right? He doesn't pay attention to you, he always fights with you. Then what? Will you suddenly be kissed? And for goodness sake, you're his sister, okay!? Sister, brother, blood relation. That is called harassment! Attempted r-pe!" I closed my eyes at what Misha said

was it really a harassment? An attempted r-pe?

"But I kissed him back" I weakly promised. I heard Misha gasp.

"What!? Ivy, are you crazy!?" I shook my head.

"I don't know, okay? I'm confused. All I thought was I want to feel his lips too that day. and I curse myself for that, Misha. I can't accept that I was able to respond to his kiss" I said. I felt the corner of my eyes heat up.

I don't know what to do anymore. I know what happened that night was wrong. We are blood related. That thing shouldn't have happened.

Misha hugged me. She rubbed my back with her palm.

"I understand. But I couldn't just believe it, Ivy. You should've slapped him hard that day" he said.

"I did" I answered.

"You should have made your lips bleed. But are you really sure you don't want to tell your mom?"

I shook my head.

That day ended with Misha doing nothing but making me laugh.

When the afternoon came, I was quiet when our driver arrived. Even though I was nervous because I might see Kuya Arvin when I got home, I didn't do anything.

when I got home I was relieved to see no sign of my siblings in the living room. It's good, because I don't know how to deal with their nonsense when my system is not working like this.

I just walked to the room to rest. but I was stunned to see who was in front of my door.

I just said that I don't want to see him but he is right here in front of me. Why am I so unlucky?

When Kuya Arvin saw me, he straightened up and started walking towards me.

My chest immediately heaved as I watched him approach me.

He was wearing a white long sleeve shirt that was folded up to his elbows. His necktie was also loose and he was wearing black slacks. His white and smooth face was looking at me. his dark black eyes are staring at me intently. His pointed nose and red lips.

Why is he so hot—F*cking Ivy!!! Get yourself together!! Your brother just kissed you, you're craving it. Oh god, what is happening to me?

Maybe I need to see a doctor right?

"Ivy" I was brought back to reality when he called my name. I looked away from him.

Is that it? Will he apologize? What will I do? Do I accept?

"I'm sorry" he said. "But I'm not regretting what happened. I'm responsible for it. And I mean what I have done. I kissed you because I want it." Kuya Arvin stunned me because of what he said.

Is he going crazy? What is he saying?

I thought he would say that he didn't mean what happened. I thought he would say that he regretted what he did. But why am I hearing something different?

"K-Kuya" I called.

I saw him clench his fist at what I said. He closed his eyes tightly and sighed.

"You're not my sister so stop calling me your brother" he said firmly. I felt a small pinch in my heart because of what I heard.

why does he always deny that I'm his brother?

"I'm your sister" I whispered softly but I knew he heard it. I bowed down, I could feel the tears starting to fall from my eyes.

"We used to be so closed. You always be my side. you always tell me that you won't leave me. We always play. You don't even want to see me cry. You even read me my favorite stories before bed. You always bring me milk. I always get a present on my birthday. You always protect me. what happened brother? Why did you suddenly change? Why?" I asked as my tears continued to fall.

What's new Kuya Arvin?

"Because I don't want to commit a sin" he answered. I looked at him with tears in my eyes.

Commit it?

"What?"

"I'm sorry about what happened at the library. I know I'm a f*cking a**hole, Ivy. So you better stay away from me" he said. I frowned.

Stay away from him? Huh! That's not my job. It is better to say that he has such a habit.

"Its not going to happen, Brother—"

"I SAID STOP CALLING ME THAT! IM NOT YOUR F*CKING BROTHER! AND I WILL NEVER BE!" I was surprised by his sudden cry.

He was panting and his fists were clenched. His bloodshot eyes are telling me how mad he is right now.

"Why are you saying that?" I asked hesitantly. My chest is tight.

I saw that he calmed down little by little when he saw that I was crying. My heart hurts so much.

He has been telling me face to face that he doesn't want me as a brother. But I still don't understand everything. I want a reason why he doesn't like me. because my whole system cannot accept what he says. Because we have something in common.

"W-what's new K-Kuya?" I will ask.

"You don't need to know. Just stay away from me before I lose my control"