9 - I'm Not Her

He hurried to the door and just as he opened it the man who was about to knock came up to him. Its look was solemn given to him.

"Theon!" he was slightly surprised.

Only one entered his brain, to ask for help from it. He will just pay one day as long as the important thing is that he gets stuck.

"Yeah?"

He has thickened his face. After all, it was he who offered him help, he did it completely. His wound has healed even though it has not totally healed.

“W-can I—” He didn't finish what he was going to say because his cellphone suddenly rang.

"Yes, Zerus buddy?" It moved away from him for a moment when he answered.

Frightened he recoiled when he heard the name mentioned by it. It is possible that they will know each other but it is also possible that he is talking to someone else and not the person he is running away from. By any chance, please don't catch him! Not only would he be locked up in the mansion, he knew Don could hurt him.

It apologized in front of him and signaled that he would come back, only nodding his answer and closing the door. She sat up in bed and forced herself to calm down despite the fear she was feeling. Suddenly an idea entered his mind when his eye hit the center table. Right!

He immediately stood up and ran to the library. He needs a computer or laptop with a connection. He knew something when it came to the cyber world but when his grandfather found out about his ‘that’ ability when he once entered the dark web and saw what kind of person he was, he was banned from all kinds of gadgets.

He was devastated to see that there was no computer in the library room. With a shrug, he returned to the room and sat down. He's confused!

It was evening when he left the room. He doesn't feel hungry or to put it bluntly, the fear is still there. He plans to leave this morning. He knew it was bad to use other people's money in a bad way but he could think of nothing else. All he needs later is a computer and he will go into a bank account to steal money. He will also return someday when everything is okay.

Ready to leave, he placed his cellphone on Theon's bed with him. He was wearing a white t-shirt and sweat pants again. She matched it with the shoe the man had sent her the other day. He saw a hood jacket in his room so he took it too. She smiled wryly, she knew this was the last time she would see the man. Just now he apologizes for why he left without saying goodbye and taking no goodbye in his jacket.

He was about to walk out the door when he was surprised when Theon entered exactly. His breath caught, wait, will it give him to his grandfather's staff? But he immediately frowned when he saw her red eyes bulge. Its whole face was also red and it smelled of alcohol.

“Hi, am I welcome here?” it smiled and was very scratchy at the nape.

He was dumbfounded for a moment at its gestures and nodded quickly. "Of course this is your house, come in." He gave up space and supported it to enter because it was staggering and it looked like five more shots, it was rocking. He was struggling with its excessive weight. She's just a little girl and maybe if she makes a wrong move, it will make her run. "Why are you getting drunk?"

"I just want to forget something."

"Who?"

"Shh… No asking." It winked at him.

She smiled at what it said. It's talkative, not obvious. Its word is always as refined and always serious.

“You know, when I was young there were so many people chasing my good looks. Theon — handsome all boasting to ‘me! Gosh! ”

He kept laughing at its gay art in the end.

“They are all still shouting; Theon marry me ma-love! ” it moved like gay and screamed like thrilled.

Jackylyn just shook and breathed when they reached the sofa. He made the man sit there for a while, he would just brew coffee to reduce his intoxication.

“I flirted with the others, dated. But this heart— ”He pointed to the heart. "Loved a woman he never loved."

He was stunned. She stared into his eyes and he could clearly see the pain he had just seen. Suddenly his heart pounded for some unknown reason.

From a sad voice it spoke, "My wife Amara never love me."

It was as if his heart was being pierced by what he heard. She could not believe that the man in front of her now, who was so sensible and handsome was deprived of destiny and love. Tears welled up in her eyes but she quickly wiped them away. She cried at what he said. So maybe it’s getting drunk, maybe its husband is the reason. Before his heart betrayed him to embrace it, stand up na him to mix it with coffee.

“Don’t go!”

"Ha ?!" He was startled by the sudden pull of it on his hand while hugging his waist.

The strength of his heartbeat. He could not understand! What will he do? First to enter his brain is to remove its hand. It may be even harder for her to leave when she lets it hug her.

“T-theon”

"Are you too, will you leave me too?"

He didn’t know what to answer in those moments. Is Theon aiming for him to leave his house or is he just brewing coffee for a while?

"I-I'll just make coffee to make you feel okay," he said softly.

"No!" he said like a child and tightened his grip on his waist. I don't think he really intends to fire her.

He looked at the clock on the wall, quarter to two in the morning. He was about to remove his hand when he felt the man's shoulder shake.

Theon ...

She knew in these moments, the man was crying and it was crying over the woman he had not seen in person but he was secretly angry. Her husband is very inconsiderate of Theon’s feeling! He gently patted the man on the back and decided that he would leave tomorrow, he needed him and he was the only one there to sympathize with the pain he was feeling.

“God must really hate me. He let me love the woman who can’t love me back. I own Amara in everyone’s eyes but in my heart, no. I’m stuck! Fucking stuck. I only loved Amara like this because of her so I slowly changed. Am I too bad? ”

Words for words. The pain of the words he said and seemed to choke his heart. Slowly tears fell in her eyes and she just realized she was crying for the man.

She immediately wiped the tears from her eyes as she let the man cry. Why is she crying? He couldn’t count how many minutes they were set-up like that; Theon hugged his waist and cried as he secretly prayed that the pain he felt would be relieved. He always thought that everyone who gets married is happy. They were the man who had seen ‘The Half’ but in the situation he had witnessed now, he was completely wrong.

She was shocked to feel the man fall asleep as he hugged her. He slowly glanced at its face and he was right, it was already asleep. He gasped and thought it was so full that maybe he got drunk.

She decided to just lay the man down on the sofa bed slowly. He could smell the pungent wine but he endured. Theon needs his presence now while he is in an emotional state.

He took a throw pillow and placed it on its head. Then he decided to head to the kitchen and get a towel and small tub. He immediately returned and stared at the man's face for a moment. The deep wind blew him away and he was shaken.

He sat down next to it and gently lowered the tub with lukewarm water and a towel. He began to wipe the man's cheek. He looked sadly into her eyes, even with her eyes closed, she could still reflect the pain. He did not remove the t-shirt and pants he was wearing, he only removed his shoes. He also adjusted its lying position, folded it and then examined it for a long time.

You look like a god ... A dismal god.

Sadly she got up to go to the kitchen but was surprised when Theon sucked her hand. Astonished, he turned his attention to it but it was too late for him to realize when its lips met him. God! Suddenly his whole world stopped.

Theon ...

He moved away from it but it completely covered his lip especially and it pulled him back to the sofa. He fell on its body. He was alarmed and he might have hurt her but he didn't seem to care and he didn't seem to have any intention of letting go. She caught her breath when the man released her lip but she still managed to run through it.

He had two hands on his waist which kept him from getting stuck. Her first kiss! He wanted to get angry but why did he like it? He blushed especially when he looked at its reddened lips.

"I m-miss you ..."

She was startled by the word it left out and blinked. Is it awake yet? But when he thought that maybe his wife was on his mind at that moment he suddenly woke up but when he did that, his kiss followed him. She moaned in no time.

God! Give me the courage to stay away! The person in front of me is married and loved by others.

But it seems that it is difficult to plead with himself, especially when the man suddenly turns around and he is the one under it. He inhaled with too much weight and he felt dizzy from the smell of alcohol on Theon's breath.

"I waited this long to happen, wifey."

He seems to be true to hcharcoal word it mentions. It was like needles that had pierced her heart and she couldn't stop crying. It hurts!

“E-each night I’m hopelessly praying that maybe ... Maybe you could see me more than just a husband, that you love me too, that you also see my value. Because I, s-I love you so much Amara, ”his voice growled and there was no denying that it hurt so much.

Jackylyn's heart broke when she heard those words. She closes her eyes in extreme pain but she refrains from crying. In many cases, he was used to the pain but it seems to be more painful now. Yes she admits she likes the man in front of her now, she wants to like that even though it hurts she ignores him. This is the first time someone has confessed to him but not for him.

She closes her eyes when his kiss touches her lips. She has no plans to stop the man and she also has no plans to refuse. Though painful on her part, she could pretend tonight that she was his wife and not Jackylyn. Tears welled up in her eyes as she began to open her lips with her tongue.

She tasted the bitter sweet of his kiss. She made sure she cherished this memory even though she wasn't really on the man's mind. Theon caressed his cheek, his neck, his chest. She bit her lip so hard that she could not stop crying. It gently squeezed her two breasts and dropped its lip to her neck.

He could also feel its hard and wide awake manhood in his thigh. His whole face became hot especially when he took off his hoodie, followed by his top. He just let go of its hand and whatever could possibly happen, he wanted it too. She will mourn her departure and she will never forget that in one chapter of her life she met a man named Theon Willoughby.

He closed his eyes and clenched his fist as he began to worship his exposed chest. He worshiped it with a care and love that was not for him. The sob disappeared from his throat but he immediately covered his mouth. He did not want to disturb the man, he thought it was compensation for all the help done to him.

He slowly pulled his clothes down after he removed his shoes. She was embarrassed but she prepared herself when it took off the last covering on her body. She’s totally naked under him. He didn't cover it especially when it stared at him from head to toe.

“You’re beautiful wife…”

I’m not her ...