CHAPTER 9

CHAPTER 9

I LOST count on how many times I slapped my forehead, I can feel that it's swollen because of it. It's because of these two, they won't get off the bed unless I kiss Yves.

"Xavy, get down and let's eat food I'm already hungry, I'm sure you feel the same way."I told him but he shook his head while he crossed his arm.

"I don't want to. Kiss Papa first."He said.

He's so persistent.

"So? Why would you like me to kiss your father? Aren't you jealous that I might kiss him again and again and forget about you?"I raised my eyebrow while talking to him making him stilled.

He silently climbed off the bed and stand near to me makes me chuckled.

I looked at Yves who's already pouting but I just rolled my eyes on him.

"Let's go, I'm already hungry."I said to him but when I try to walk, I can't feel him following me.

He's just standing, sadly looking at his father, I can't help but to sighed.

"Fine, fine, fine. You both win, I'm going to kiss him. Tsk, you're still a kid but you already know about kissing."I commented and started walking towards to Yves' direction.

I climbed on the bed and move closer to him. Our face was already one inch away.

"Damn you."I whispered and move closer until our lips meet.

When I tried to move away, he grabbed my neck to kiss me, his lips were starting to move but I didn't get a chance to respond when Xavy was trying to seperate us.

I looked at him, I can't help but to laugh when he was on the verge of tears, he keeps on punching his father making me laugh even more.

"Why did you k-kiss h...him?"He cried.

I smirked, "My dear, you said that I should kissed him, then I kissed him."

He pouted, I pull my shirt to wipe his tears. His nose were already red. So cute.

"But... Don't kiss Papa anymore!"He exclaimed.

I laughed, "Okay, Okay."

Yves grabbed Xavy and let him sit on his lap and then he gently stroked his hair but a smirked visible on his lips.

"But why, little kid? I want your Mama to kiss me..."He said teasingly making Xavy more annoyed.

He looked at his father angrily, "Don't kiss Mama anymore. Mama is mine! I hate you!"

Yves acted like he was hurt by Xavy's word,"You hate me? But I love you."

He pouted, "Tss... I love you too, Pa. I'm just lying when I said that, I'm sorry."

Yves just chuckled and hugged his son. I wonder if I can have a child who's like Xavy but sadly I can't produce an offspring.

I was once diagnosis on hospital. When I decided to have a baby without a father, sadly the doctor said that I can't produce an offspring.

That's the reason why I don't want to married someone because I'm scared that they might leave me if they've found out my secret, the ability not to produce a child. I can't have a child.

I also don't want to marry someone because I can't give them happiness. I can't have a child of my own, they might leave me and find someone else, someone who can produce an offspring.

Why am I saying like this? Becaue I've already experience something like this. This has happened on my past. I was once have a fiancee but when he found out that I can't have a baby, he was hesitating if he wants to leave me or not.

He wants to have a baby for us but sadly I can't, he might not says it to me but his expression and actions were obvious.

Then, days and weeks had passed his action were being bolder. He doesn't talk to me, if he does he always talk to me either yelled voice or a cold tone.

Then one day, he came back when another woman on his side, he told me that he wants to cancel our wedding because her new girlfriend was pregnant and he wants to marry him.

I just let him go to that woman and wishes them a happy wedding and happy life. I don't have any updates on them since them. It's kinda sad and I'm hurt and in pain at the time but what I can do? I can't make them happy.

That's why it's better to be alone. Why did I ended up not wanting to see a child? Because whenever Iooked at them, I felt envious because I can't produce one.

I might ended up hurting myself this time, but I don't care. I already love Xavy, he's too cute and adorable.

"You're zoning again."Coldly said Yves.

I just gave him a smile, "It's nothing, maybe because I'm hungry. Let's eat."

I climbed off of the bed and they followed me, Xavy was still in Yves arm. They both lovely.

Yves was the one who opened the door and I just followed them until we reach the leaving room. I saw the maid who said 'Goodluck and stay safe' at me, when she saw me, she just nodded and smile.

I'm going to have a chitchat with her, I'm kinda bored of not talking for too long. I've been talking a lot to myself lately, I'm afraid that I might go crazy someday.

She looked at me again and I just gave her a thumbs up and mouthed at her, "Talk. Later."

She just nodded in response. Finally, I've found someone whom I can spend time to talked to.