most trusted person I have

The weather ran even faster. It seems like recently, I even stepped on Kuya’s shoes while dancing, now, I can go with him. I can say that a lot has changed for us. Kuya and I became closer again as if we were back to childhood. We no longer shoot waterguns but we often play computer games. Almost everything I do, I’m with him. Even though it was playing and singing, Kuya Yuri taught me. Are we Calyx? I don’t know, we’ve been ignoring it for a long time.

"Turn around," Kuya Yuri ordered and I turned around. "One more," he laughs commanding.

"I'm dizzy!" I annoyed round. How many rounds have I had? The guests are already laughing at what my brother is doing.

"Happy 18th birthday, Jaja. Finally, you're beautiful too. You're a real Khönig."

"You know you're a bwisit," I annoyed slapping his shoulder that he just laughed.

"Brother," I called. "Why don't you have a jowa yet? Daddy said, I'll ask you."

"Hmm ... I don't want to."

"Why?"

"I'm not going into a relationship until I'm sure you're going to the right person."

"Gosh, so if I can't find, I mean, you won't search either?"

"You can say that."

"Why do you love me so much?" I asked her who was still dancing with me.

"Because you are my sister."

“Mom said, I’m your answered prayer. What does she mean by that? ” I will ask.

“It means as it is. I prayed to have a brother or a sister and then you were born. ”

“Why do I feel so unsatisfied with your answer? Aren’t you telling me something? ” nguso ko. We stopped dancing and he patted my forehead.

“I have a secret to tell you. It's a family secret that not even Tito Eli or Tito Alex knows. "

"What's that?" I put my ear to his mouth. He laughed at my gossipy reaction. He took a deep breath and I danced again. He looked at the sky full of stars.

"I know I get choked sometimes and I'm sorry. I just really want to take care of you. You don't have an idea how important you are to me. I was there when you were born, you know 'that' don't you?"

"Yes."

"Do you know that Tito Xenon declared you dead while Mommy was giving birth to you."

I was surprised by what I found out. I stopped dancing. Softening. Maybe if my brother hadn't held me, I would have squatted down. I seem to have died? I noticed his watery eyes.

"I remember then, I really wanted to go out of the room because I couldn't bear to see my family happy, they would suddenly be destroyed because of a tragedy we didn't want. That was the very first time I know I cried," he laughed at the story while remembering the past. "Imagine, praying hard for something and I'll just let you hold it in a very, very short span of time. I've never even heard you cried. That shit fucking hurts. We never told it to anybody at that time yet kasi umaasa kami sa milagro na mabubuhay ka. They were all waiting for you, excited for you. We don't have an idea on how to tell them what happened. We have a long history of loved ones "dying, and every death leads to changes. That was what Dad told me before, and I don't want to see the day that you will be one of those people that we have to lose."

Kuya Yuri's tears kept flowing as he looked at me. The way they told me how much my brother loves me is understatement. I can see how much he love me and this is beyond anything I know.

"I don't want that, Ja," he whispered hoarsely and wiped away my tears. “I want to see you grow up; I want you to see the world I see. I want you to be the person you will want to be. I want to see you smile, laugh. One hour, Ja, one hour I prayed for you to come back to me. I promised that I’ll give everything I can for you. And then you cried. You cried when I kissed your forehead, did you know that? You are the greatest miracle in my life and I made a promise that I will take care of you and you will not go to just anyone. I prayed for a second chance that I promised I would never waste. I promised to protect you because I don't want to waste the second life you have. So Mireya is your name. Miracle in Spanish. "

He gently wiped away my tears before kissing my forehead and dancing again.

“You always ask me why Tito Eli is my role model and not Tito Alex? It’s because I want to be better than Tito Eli with Mom. I want to be the best brother you will have to the point that you will no longer seek love in other people. I will always want you to feel loved. I love you beyond anything in this world. ”

I hugged him tightly and made him cry. I don’t know how much he loves me but I trust him when he said those words. Kuya broke his promise to me, all because of our family. But even if he broke his promise, he is still the most-trusted person I have. I promise you, Kuya, my decisions will not disappoint you.

The party ended quickly so I could practice for my audition tomorrow. I was 16 when I decided to enter showbiz like my parents. They used to teach me, but mostly Kuya taught me. Mommy said, she seems to remember Grandpa Yuki to Kuya. I wasn't really interested in being an actor then but because that's what Daddy wanted for me, I've learned to like it. Honestly, Kuya didn't like the idea of ​​me acting but even though he didn't want to, he still taught me.

It was two in the morning and I went down to the kitchen to get some water. I was surprised when I turned on the light because of the man still in uniform in the kitchen. Calyx standing and eating and there was still blood on the dress. I felt anxious. Is he okay? Suddenly my heart beat faster when I saw him smile at me.

"I know it's June 9 but, still happy 18th."

"Brother Cal. What are you doing here? You went home earlier ah," I asked and fetched water. "Did you have an encounter earlier?"

“Just eating. Yup, sorry if I didn’t arrive earlier for your 16th rose. It's urgent, ”he said and drank some water.

"Is the light off?" I will ask.

“I want to, why? And then I might disturb you, you're already asleep. You, why are you still awake? You still have an audition tomorrow, don’t you? ” he asked.

“I'm thirsty. I forgot to put water on my side table. ”

"Uh, Jaja, are you angry because you didn't have a 16th rose earlier?"

I looked up at him just staring at his food. She looked up at me and there was sadness on her face.

"I'm sorry, I just really need to back off at the last minute because of the mission."

“It’s fine. I’m just a little embarrassed because we’re waiting for someone who won’t come but I understand why you’re not there. ”

"Thank you," he smiled at me and held out his hand to me. "May I have this dance?"

"Crazy, finish what you're eating," I smiled and turned around. I was surprised when he grabbed my arm and presented me to him. I grabbed his chest as I stared into his eyes. His hand dropped to my wrists and wrapped them around his neck before gripping my waist. I couldn’t breathe because his face was so close to mine.

"All right, let's dance," he whispered softly. "Let's dance, Jaja," he whispered and started moving before burying his face in my shoulder.

"You're so weird," I whispered. "You're like a leech, you're so sticky."

He ignored me, instead hugged me even tighter. I just felt the heaviness and slowing of his breathing as if he was smelling me. I was confused but I couldn't force myself to push him away from me. It killed your older brother Jaja.

“Hey, Ja. I heard your chinichismis about me, ”he whispered to my skin.

"What's up?"

"Don't get up early. I consider you a friend, brother, after all?" he complained.

"What's that?" I sighed. He laughed.

"Are you still angry now? You're the one spreading the gossip that I'm handsome," he laughed at the statement. I moved slightly away from him and looked at his face.

"Do you have a saltik?" irap ko.

"I'm sorry," he said and pulled me into a hug again. I closed my eyes when his lips touched my forehead. "When was the last time we got close like this? You don't pay attention to me anymore. you're beautiful."

I raised an eyebrow at him. He's right, I don't pay attention to him anymore because I don't want to mess up their relationship with Gabby.

“What if I don’t stare anymore? You know, Calyx, you're just drunk. Just go to your jowa, "I said.

"Jowa? I don't have a jowa," he said angrily. "Por que pulis, ang expectation mo, babaero kaagad?"

"I didn't say you're a woman. I said you have a jowa. Gabby's name."

"Gabby? We'll just work together then," he explained and turned me around before letting me bend.

"Crazy. Tell me about the turtle. I saw you kissing."

He enlarged my eyes and erected me. I immediately removed his hand from my waist.

"Are you serious? When did that happen? Stop it Ja, I'm scared," he said and violently stroked his arms.

"Gosh, scary? Kuya Yuri and I saw you. It's my 15th birthday. In the garden of Villa Tokugawa."

"When is that? I really don't care— Ah! Is that it. I can explain that to y— wait, are you jealous?"

"Jealous my ass. What are you saying? Go home. You're drunk," I shooed him away but he immediately pulled me closer to him so we both fell down.

"Ayieee, you love me ah," he teased so I got up immediately.

"You're naughty. I'm a girl, our position looks ugly. My older brother might see us."

“Crush mo‘ ko dati ’di ba. So I think it makes sense if you are jealous, ”he smiled at me and took my hand again. I immediately wiped his hand.

"Go home you pest."

"Yeah, I'm going home. Kiss me first, baby."

"Calyx!"

"Why, you always kiss me goodnight when you were young."

“Before, I was not naive in the world. My goodness, you are still 28 and immature. ”

Her mouth fell open at what she heard from me. I swallowed my own saliva and did not cut our gaze. I felt nervous the way he looked at me.

“Oh wow. You know Jayesa, I don't know what happened to you. You're not like that before. Where is that Jayesa I took care of before? ”

"She's gone," I whispered and averted my eyes. "There is no longer the weak and dumb Jayesa you know. Can you go home, I’m annoyed with you, ”I said and turned my back on him. He immediately pulled my arm. His arm quickly wrapped around my waist while not taking his eyes off me.

“Uto-uto? I never saw you that way, Ja, ”he whispered. “I don’t see you weak. Yes, you cry but that’s normal because you love your brother so much but I don’t see that as weakness. Where are you getting that- that idea? ” shake him. “That’s absurd. What happened to you to be like that to me? As time goes on, you get further and further away from me. What went wrong? Why are you so cold to me now? Tell me, ”he whispered.

I noticed the water in his eyes, obviously hurt. My eyes are blurred. Before my tears could flow completely, I immediately wiped them away. You don’t need to know, Calyx. It’s unfair for my part if I’m the only one to say.

“Just let me go,” I said.

“No. I won’t until you tell me why. ”

"Just let me go," I pushed him but he wouldn't let go. Instead he hugged me tightly and buried his face in my neck.

"Calyx, hey," I sobbed and pushed her when I felt the wetness on my shoulder.

“Just one reason, Ja. When I hear that, I will release you. Only one."

I sighed when I felt his lips touch the side of my neck before climbing the side of my forehead.

“Just one reason. Just one really, promise. ”

"What are you doing, Calyx?" I pushed him and I couldn't hold back my tears. He seems to be upset by what happened.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to, ”he approached me and wiped away my tears. “I just feel desperate to know why you act that way. I always wanted to ask you this but I couldn't. Now, I found the courage to ask but I don’t know, I feel like I’m a different person and it looks like I’m still scared of you. I just miss you, ”he whispered hoarsely and began to sob. "Miss you, Jaja."

I closed my eyes tightly and took a deep breath. I wrapped my arm around his waist. I felt his arms tighten around me. I buried my face in his chest and made him cry. Why are you so numb?

“Your dense. You are so numb, ”I whispered. "I like you. Don’t you notice that? ”

I felt a slight relaxation of his grip on me. "I'm acting distant to you because I like you and I know you can't reciprocate the affection I feel for you. I’m acting distant because I’m already hurting. I’m acting distant because I want to forget. It’s so unfair for my part that I’m the only one falling for the two of us. It’s so unfair so I would really appreciate it if you let me go. ”

I immediately broke away from him and ran back to my room. I have already said what I have to say, there is nothing more to talk about. I'm cutting off whatever connection I have with him.

I hardly slept after that. I still think about the confession I made to him. Why do I have to tell him that? It’s so unfair.

It's 10 AM when I get up. I went down to the kitchen to eat but was shocked to see my older brother and his bestfriend talking. He looked at me so I averted my eyes.

"Good morning," Kuya greeted and made me sit next to him. "What do you want to eat?" he asked.

"Anything," I replied and slapped the earphone on my ear. My older brother immediately pulled me, widening my eyes.

"Eat now. Mommy's gone, she's already at HTS. Dad is already at work. I have something to do later so I'll deliver you earlier," he said and pushed me his spoonful of rice.

"No. It's okay. I can manage," I replied and ate some rice.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. I can drive," I smiled and showed him the license I got yesterday. He laughed before messing up my hair.

“If you say so, then go. Be careful. ”

"Sure."

"I'm off now, can I just deliver you?" presentation by Calyx. I was stunned when our eyesight was right.

"Please, let me take you."