Feel Anger

Answered prayer? Mommy used to tell me that Daddy and I could no longer have children because there was damage to her uterus. Daddy and Kuya said it was difficult for them to have children is the 1% they found in the 100%. Me? I was an unexpected blessing that my brother prayed for.

"My baby really, don't be mad at my brother anymore," Daddy hugged me and kissed my forehead with more icing. “He loves you so much. Promise, we are telling the truth. ”

"Really?"

"Of course. You asked earlier if we love you even though you are not the same as Kuya, don’t think that way. You are both best in your own way. To me, you are the sweetest of all. Don’t tell your brother that I told you, you are much better than him on things that can’t be seen. ”

“Yasu,” Mommy said.

“What? Let’s be real, Irog ko. Jayesa touches emotions the best while Yuri sucks at that. ”

"Why are you saying that to Yuri?" Mommy was disgusted. “You two can get along. Yuri has his own way to show his care, ”Mommy defended.

"So me again?" Daddy's angel. My eyes went back and forth between the two faces of the two dogs and cats fighting.

"Ugly," my older brother called to me and Mommy and Daddy were stunned.

"What's up?" I sighed and stood up.

"Your crush is looking for you. He's downstairs."

"Are you serious there?" I asked confused.

"Who's crush?" Daddy's dark question made me stunned.

"Uh, yeah, who's crush?" I asked, pretending I didn't know what my older brother was saying. Bwisit ka kasi Ja, you still have a love letter written that you won't really give, your good brother saw it. He mocked ‘me.

"I'll take a shower first," I said goodbye and was about to go to the bathroom when he spoke.

"Just a joke, he's not downstairs," he said and leaned against the door.

"I don't understand you," I said maliciously.

“She is here. Calyx, say 'hi'. "

Suddenly, Kuya Calyx's face appeared at the door. He was still in a police uniform and looked like he had just passed from work. I was stunned. I also didn't see him for a few weeks because he had already graduated from his training to become a police officer. I wanted to run to him and hug him but I restrained myself especially since Kuya knows how I feel about Kuya Calyx.

"Hi, Jaja! Happy birthday!"

I immediately turned around but was also immediately stuck in the mirror I was facing. I just saw in the reflection of the mirror my older brother was very happy again.

"Brother! Pastillan you!"

• • •

"Oh, Ja. It's you. You're hiding some lust from me," my older brother's bestfriend Kuya Calyx teased me.

"Can you, Kuya Calyx, you believe him too much. You don't seem to know that since he came back, he's been happy to tease me," I sighed and continued shelling our horseradish dish this afternoon.

"Brother Calyx? It's okay Calyx, you're still embarrassed," he continued teasing. I immediately kicked his leg under the table.

"Is it okay, you're already there with Kuya. I know you missed him. You guys are going to have festivals in my life," I complained.

"Okay," he grinned and went behind me. I laughed when I felt his finger touch my neck. His hot breath touches my skin. It was as if I felt electricity and my breathing got heavier and heavier. I noticed that a pendant had fallen on my chest. Necklace — he gave me a necklace.

"May I see?" he said and I turned to him. I looked up at him with his face close to mine. "Beautiful," he commented and stared into my eyes.

"Caly—" Kuya called as he entered the kitchen. "What are you doing?" he asked us without emotion but his eyes were fixed on Calyx.

"Ah no. I just gave him my gift. It's good, isn't it. It's Ja's thing."

"Don't beat my sister, Calyx," my sister's statement was serious and unbridled.

"Brother, you are malicious!" I shouted.

The man in front of me laughed slightly.

"Dude, what are you saying? You know Jayesa is like a sister to me. I took good care of her until you're back."

“Are you saying that it’s my fault for leaving her?” my older brother asked him coldly and approached us.

"I didn't say anything like that," Kuya Cal replied seriously to Kuya Yuri and confronted my brother who was just as tall as him. He patted my arm and smiled.

"I'm leaving, Jayesa. Happy birthday again."

Kuya Yuri remained standing in front of me even though Kuya Calyx had left earlier, he was breathing heavily and his fists were clenched. He feels bad about the absence.

"Brother, do you want to sit down first?" I will ask.

“Don't ever shoot Calyx. I can tolerate how you’re feeling towards him right now because I understand that Calyx is with you half your life but please, Ja. Don't argue with my troops. I hope you can only feel the crush on him. ”

"I don't understand you Brother," I whispered.

“Just listen to me, I just don't want to hurt you. You may think that you know Calyx so well but I'm a man, I know what's running through Calyx's mind. ”

It was late at night and Mommy was preparing something for us to eat while she was talking to Tito Eli on the phone. The truth of the matter is, I haven't seen Tito Eli in person for a long time, only on TV because he's a news anchor. It's been too long since Kuya Yuri left. They are still visiting today but either I am not at home or I am not with them. Other than that, his life is too private. If you search for him on Google, it will only show up about HTS.

"Ja, please call your Daddy and Kuya," Mommy ordered.

"Why me?" I will ask.

"Oh go ahead, it's just me," Mommy interrupted. I decided to get up and climb my dad and brother.

I was stunned in front of my brother’s bedroom door. I haven't been with my older brother in a long time so maybe his treatment of me has changed. Joaquin also said that it is possible that he is just new to me because we don't seem to know each other anymore. He used to take care of me too much, now he fights me. Mommy and Tito Xenon said that Kuya loves me very much. Does he really love me? Very hard to believe. I would like to believe not. I think back to what he told me about Big Brother Calyx. I don’t understand him why he said ‘that’ but what he was saying, he was just protecting me. Whatever.

I slowly turned the doorknob and my brother, who was busy with his paperwork assignment, opened up to me. I guess the difficulty of his course.

"Brother, can I ask a question? Serious question, serious answer. No sugarcoating."

"What's that? If you're ugly? Of course," he replied without looking. I ignored his teasing.

"Brother, do you love me?"

He stopped writing. The swivel chair turned and the man with one eyebrow raised faced me. He adjusted his mirror before speaking.

"Do you think you're still here if not? I remind you, Ja. You're the only ugly one in this family," he said and went back to work.

I noticed the photo on his desk. The two of us when I was just born and when I was only five years old, we were holding a watergun then. She has a big smile in every photo. I also noticed that there are no photos here of Mommy and Daddy, just the two of us.

"Brother," I called.

"What's the matter, Ja? Make sure you care—"

"I love you."

He was stunned and turned to me. I don’t know what I did why I seemed to suddenly feel better. Maybe this is the only thing that really makes my life difficult. I walked over to him and sat on the floor in front of him. I don’t understand him but I know I love my brother. Even though I’m confused with him, I’m sure I love my brother.

"Even though you're always fighting me now, I love you, Kuya. Even though I don't understand you, even though you're always teasing me, I still love you. You know I really don't understand why you changed. Maybe it's also because of the dealings. I'm sorry for that. But Kuya, I really miss the ones we used to have. "

I got up from sitting on the floor and rolled up my jogging pants. I grabbed my hot ear and looked at my older brother with no emotion.

"I'll just tell Mommy that I'll bring you food here because you're busy with your assignment," I smiled sparingly.

I turned to go out. The older brother is too busy so I don't want to make any more trouble.

"Ja," he called so I was stunned. I looked at him who was bent over and seemed to be watching his foot.

"I'm not a showy person. I always fight with you, I know. I don't know how to get along with you anymore. 8 years apart, I don't know you anymore. I know you're still my sister, but you don't I don't know what you know. Let's be real Ja, I know you already know things that a child shouldn't know. I don't know what attack I'm going to take. I don't know what approach I don't want you to be distracted by me. I don't want you to get further away from me. You're already far away, will I push you further? "

I immediately wiped away the tears that were already dripping. I miss my older brother. He’s right, I’m not a kid anymore and we haven’t been together for a long time so somehow, we don’t know each other anymore. He looked up at me and smiled softly. That smile, that’s my most favorite thing about my Kuya.

“But always remember this, I am the first man to love you. I'm just praying for you, I love you. It's just a bad trip because your outcome is ugly. "

I ran cursing closer to him for a hug. Well, he's not my brother if he doesn't see me as the ugliest person in the world.

“I love you, Kuya! It’s still me, are you, are you still my older brother then? ”

“I’m still me, Jaja. Kuya just matured, ”he whispered and hugged me tightly. "I love you, Jaja. Happy birthday. I will always thank God for this day. I will always thank God for giving you to us. So please, don't shoot Calyx," he whispered.

"Kuya!" I was separated from his embrace.

"Don't be with my troops, please," he whispered and wiped away my tears.

"Okay," I smile.

"Come on. I'm hungry," he said to me and we went down.

I almost fell down the stairs when he jokingly pushed me. Piste talaga! I looked at the man who had just entered, Tito Gabe with a woman with short hair, just because of his decency, it was obvious that he was in the military.

"Brother, Tito Gabe bet on the child, right? Then there's the enthusiasm," I whispered to my brother, just smiling at what I thought.

"Jayesa, how are you?" bati sa'kin ni Tito Gabe.

"Your lover?" I asked and kissed. He immediately laughed.

"Gabby, this is Jayesa, the youngest of the Khönigs. I believe you already met them, right? But they were young then. I’m not sure if Jayesa remembers you."

"I remember them Ninong," the woman smiled.

“Good! Jayesa, honey, this is Gabby, my stepdaughter, Calyx's junior in the Police Department. "

"Hi," I greeted and held out my hand. He ignored me. I raised my eyebrow. Tito Gabe didn't seem to notice us because of a call he had to answer.

"Is Calyx here?" he asked and walked into the kitchen.

"Stop me. I'll kick it," I whispered angrily to my brother.

"Go. I won't bother you at this point," he laughed in response to me.

My brother and I have always been enemies but we are both a mixture of people. When one does not want, one does not want either. Kuya is my only ally in such things.

"Happy birthday, Ja," Tito Nero and Tita Janelle greeted me as we climbed to the rooftop.

"Happy birthday Ate Jayesa too," their son Gil handed me a gift.

"Here's my gift for you," Tito Gabe reached for a paperbag.

"Thank you. You're still bothering me."

"Mommy, can't Tito Eli still come?" my brother asked.

"He said, he'll try."

I smiled sadly. Tito Eli is kuya's favorite. He is his role model, an idol. I would also like to meet Tito Eli. There are as many good stories as Mommy has about her. Kuya is envious, the amount he has already met and done that I can't.

"Sorry, I'm late!"

I looked at the woman who had just arrived.

"Hi baby girl, happy birthday!" Aunt Noe greeted me with Nexus and her three -year -old daughter Alana.

"Mygad, you're just in the other house and you're still late," Mommy's sermon, which was just ignored by Tita Noe.

"Jaja, happy birthday!" Nexus hugged me and lifted me up. If Calyx is my brother's bestfriend, Nexus is mine.

"Does Jayesa Mireya Khönig live here?" a man knocked and I looked at him.

"Here comes our future general!" Tito Gabe announced and spooned the glass.

"Everyone's favorite uncle," my Daddy commented so we laughed.

"Tito Alex!"

I ran over to him and lifted up. Tito Alex, he is my favorite uncle of all. 'The truth? They all compare me to Kuya Yuri but Tito Alex, no. He always tells me that I'm unique. He is my favorite.

"The weight of our princess ah. Happy birthday, sweetie," he greeted me and kissed my forehead.

"Thank you, Tito, let's eat," I dragged him.

We were in the middle of a party when a man came home. I was stunned when the two of us caught sight of each other. This is the first time I have seen him in person. It's been too long since we've met.

"Hello, Jaja," he smiled sweetly at me and placed his palm on my head. “The last time I saw you, you couldn't talk because you miss your Kuya Yuri. You are a girl now. ”

"Titus Eli?" I whispered and he laughed.

“Oh Brother Eli, he has wanted to see you for a long time. He seems to want to meet you, ”Mommy smiled.

“Oh? Really? Why?"

“I-I want to thank you. Because of you, my parents ended up together. ”

My face warmed when I heard her weak laugh.

"They ended up together because you were meant to be born," he smiled at me. My mom was right, there is something about him that you will learn to trust him.

I felt myself suddenly lift off the ground when someone lifted me up.

"Baby Jaja," he shouted as he turned me around.

“Mika! I’m dizzy! ” I laughed and slapped his arm wrapped around my waist.

“Sorry! Happy birthday! ” he squeezed my cheeks. Mikazuki Ybrahim Tokugawa, 20 years old and the only child of Tito Eli.

"Thank you, Kuya!"

I looked at Mommy and Daddy who were talking to Tito Eli who laughed out loud. I was ten years old when Mommy told me how she and Daddy met. In those stories, there is one name that he always mentions — Khael. The three are bestfriends and they both liked Mommy before Mommy and Tito Eli found out that they are siblings. Since that day, I have loved seeing Tito Eli in person.

"Do you remember when Khael stole Jayda's role partner from Simon?"